Just looking back at the intermediate days The day when I first saw you The days when I struggled to say a simple Hello It makes me smile remembering how it was you who always greeted me first While all I could do was shyly wave back Just because of the little things you did, It made me fall for you I thought about you all the time since then As you were and always will be my first love In the first few years of having separate high schools I always wondered how your day went by My world seemed dark, but the thought of you had been the sun that kept my days bright I kept you in my heart never forgetting, as I hope to see you again On the day we first talked again, I was on the verge of exploding from happiness I never thought I could do it, but you were my motivation to be brave It was you who got me to say and do a lot of things I never thought I’d say nor do I always wonder what would have happened if I had never met you I never got to thank you for being a part of both my life and heart I’m so sorry I wasn't able to tell the truth to my feelings towards you after you told me yours As there was an obstacle A close friend, who had similar feelings I sometimes questioned the world why is it that so many people liked you But I already knew why since the first time I saw you I tried to think of ways of escaping my struggle, but there were only two ends It was either friendship or love, I couldn’t choose It felt numb, I was stuck, I now feel so dumb I let time pass by, hoping I’d somehow escape But as time passed, the day came when everything just became impossible It was already too late Knowing that I couldn’t love you anymore, it broke the whole of me Every night became so dark, thoughts of you were hurting me It felt as if I were drowning endlessly, not being able to die but suffer I’ve tried to erase you from my mind, but it’s impossible Because I had promised myself that I would never forget you As my days come I wonder about how yours went by Without you as my sun, my days have turned dark I don't know if I'll be able to find someone as bright as you I hope you're happy with your world I miss the sunshine
