i, for one, find it ironic that of all the days to randomly start watching a movie someone rec'd me ages ago and have it trigger tf out of my childhood sexual trauma for the first time in probably a couple years, into a hyperventilation loop/panic attack that i couldn't seem to stop sobbing through, was today. on my girls day no less! and after this Scorpio full moon stuff my sister in law got me hyped for stuff to bubble up in order to face and end cycle n shit. well, that shit had hands. thank you, universe! <3
side note: a GREAT new crossover connection installation just dropped in my brain. will write when thinking about it all doesn't make me almost start crying and hyperventilate again lol. but yay! this is big for at least one characters part in particular because it makes a solid story and foundation for little hc's i had been weaving but wasn't sure about. moments like that when i get triggered somehow create entire paragraphs that flow suddenly forth from me as i'm just like... trying not to pass out from the fast ass breathing. lmfao mean while the muses be beat boxing in my brain. love it tbh. healing be real, amirite? i'll try not to spoil so it makes me work faster and get it out sooner to yall <3 also, pls do not worry, i embrace being triggered since that often helps me write in my own processing of something.
