Who would have thought she would be the last straw? Who'd have thought that she would be the one who breaks me. Who would have thought that I wouldn't be able to get over the 4th after I've gotten over 3 already?
Well definitely not me. Thought I am stronger than this but apparently I got my limits too.
I wonder, if you would have known that she would be the one who would make me want to leave you forever, would you still have done it? Would you have still chosen her if you knew that after doing so my heart will shatter into a million pieces and not even you could put it back together. Would you have still kissed her if you'd knew that I will disappear after that?
Because that's how it is now. I am finally gone. I've lost forever a part of myself and there is no turning back.
I tried to forgive you but the pain is too much for me. Even thinking about what you did makes me sick to my stomach. You try to justify yourself and I've tried to justify you too, i've found a thousand excuses for you, only to justify the cruel things you've done to me. I tried to tell myself that this is what i deserved "you reap what you sow", stuff like that. But I've never sown such cruelness, such nauseating things, the things you've done to me, they have no equal. I've tried to tell myself that I am self-victimizing, but how could that be when I'm here shattering and I was always here crumbled on the floor and you were the one okay, going out with your friends, either with another girlfriend or not. Yet, you dared tell me that you were hurting more. Look closer now and tell me who is self-victimizing.
You ruined me, you are finally free.
