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across the spiderverse has literally broke me. i literally NEVER draw (like i only do it for school projects) and yet here i am: making myself a spidersona.

[bingoboingobongo]

throwback to this poem i wrote for school and posted on my spam last year cus my teacher gave me a bad grade for it and im still pissed but also bc i low-key really liked this poem and also just seeing everyone's attempts at analyzing it (none of them were "right" (as in it wasn't what it was meant to convey) but i still encourage you to try and create your own analysis).

anyways now im doing my own analysis on it again bc wth.

my analysis:

ok so the main thing about this poem is that it was part of a collection (that was the assignment). there were two other poems before this, and the theme/motif of the whole collection was failed expectations/failure, etc.

this was my favorite poem out of the whole thing (but not my teacher's cus she was annoying and didn't read my analysis even though she said that was the part she was grading) because not only did it carry the theme of failure within the poem itself, it also did so in a "meta" way.

it actually begins with the first two poems, which were significantly longer and seemingly more complex (although imo they were more shallow than this one). the first two poems serve to establish an expectation for the third poem. the reader is meant to expect it to follow the same quality as the first two. this is further perpetuated by the title: the best poem yet. emphasis on the word yet.

this signals to the reader that this is going to be even better than the first two poems, and so the reader now has very high expectations. but when they actually read it, many readers (including my annoying ass english teacher) are disappointed by it's simplicity. the poem failed their expectations, therefore continuing the theme of failure in a wider, broader scheme.

ofc u have the theme of failure within the poem, with the cat failing to catch the rat, but that's not the main point. the main point is that the poem as a whole is disappointing, and is failing the expectations the past poems set up.

that being said though, it's kinda ironic because in my opinion, this literally is the best poem yet because it has immensely more meaning and depth than the others, but also if it's the best than it defeats the purpose and becomes a failure, but if it's a failure than that's good, etc. etc. kinda a snake eating its own tail thing.

anyways, that was the intended analysis but it was honestly really cool to see how other people interpreted it. obviously since they didn't have the previous poems they couldn't see the broader scheme, but it was really cool to see what parts people latched onto.

for example, multiple people I think latched onto the 'very fat' part and saw the poem as some sort of metaphor for eating disorders or body image issues, which wasn't what it was meant to be but im glad people could find comfort in it.

also pretty much everyone said it was giving natsuki from ddlc vibes which i high-key fw bc she was my favorite character and her poems are awesome.

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[bingoboingobongo]

hey,i have no idea if you check your inbox anymore but i just wanted to drop by and say you are a great writer. i literally read all of your works and you made me feel literal butterflies for fictional characters. you have such a way with words, i wish i was as amazing as you are. thank you a lot for your work!!!

[bingoboingobongo]

hi! you haven’t updated in awhile and i jsut wanted to ask if everything is well 🤍 i hope you are doing alright.

everything is well anon 👺👺👹👹👹

[bingoboingobongo]

i gib lub and support and wishes you all the good stuffs

[bingoboingobongo]

Way rather you’d take care of yourself! At the end of the day writing is a hobby, and like any hobby, should be fun and fulfilling. If it’s not then hit the bricks. Godspeed

[bingoboingobongo]

Heyy just wanted to know if there'll be a part 4 for that ghost x reader

status update

honestly i genuinely don't know. for those of you who didn't know, one of the main reasons i stopped writing is bc i got in a shit ton of trouble for it. like a shit ton. and honestly it's definitely left me with some sour memories when it comes to writing. also i wasn't really writing to explore my own interests or ideas anymore, and it really just became about pushing out content quickly which led to some pretty bad burnout. and honestly, it's been a pretty great few months since ive "left" tumblr. my mental health feels better? i think. and im honestly not sure if it's healthy for me to be writing/reading fanfics anymore bc i can get really really attached to these fictional characters and kinda lose my grip on the real world, but idk maybe that's a question for my therapist. so yeah idrk if i'll ever continue that ghost fic. i'd like to, but honestly i barely even remember where i left off and it's been a long time since i touched any cod content. if i were to get back into writing, it'd probably be for my current fave character (miguel o'hara) and even then im not sure if i'll actually do it. so yeah, not a very definitive answer i know, but i don't want to make any promises i can't keep or commit to the things im not comfortable with. ty all for the support, y'all are the best.