#bipolar diary

[diaryofabipolargirly]

Dear Diary 📔,

It’s another day.. still stuck in this funk. I know one of these days need to go back to work .. be part of society. It actually gives me anxiety. I cried this morning remembering all that has happened to me. I haven’t eaten, just coffee. I need to get better for family.. but more so for myself. I hate putting my family through this. I just wished I can just pack up and move to another location and start fresh. But I really can’t just run away. I must face my demons and conquer them.

[balancedenergyborderline]

5/5/20

When I get hypomanic, my identity gets all messy. I feel like a sketch, like I’m not completed. I feel blurry and messed up, and I feel evil evil evil.

[diaryofabipolargirly]

Trying to fit in this world. I’m just so socially awkward.. it’s not even funny. I only have one friend. And the rest they come and go when they please. I just want to stand up and be happy and normal. But I don’t see that in my cards..

[diaryofabipolargirly]

Totally down the rabbit 🐇 hole.. getting help tomorrow morning. Wish me luck