I would call it a Controlling Disorder if i had gotten to name it. I never like the fact that i have to constantly worry. The anxiety of separation and potential abandonment issues boil over in my mind, making it almost unbearable to be away from you. I'm tormented by the faithlessness of my generation while feeling like it permeates all millennial's minds(The untruth and betrayal that follow us). The best way I've been able to cope with this feeling, is to not check on her, as hard as it is to "Not Know", I don't check, i stay strong and have as much faith as i can. Sometimes i break, as i am only human. But, it always feels better when I've not checked in, and instead wait for her reply.
Live Schizo












