#bitchees

[gabiurbe]

Ya los extraño :'3 #bitchees (en Chimichanga SNACK)

[likkaduster]

You meet them online by coincidence, soon they become the closest person who knows all of your thoughts, something happens, things go wrong, maybe if he were here he would knew you better. Few awful months later when things go good again you start to miss them, that's how zombie state of mind always ends. After shit and pain you end up "on track" with them again, plans blah blah & shit but you feel it's not good. Of course after week of stress (but happiness too) everything ends, you're left broken again, then you move on and feel great. Woah you fell for other guys. That's fantastic. But it's different. You don't know them yet, but then it's irrelevant because you're not interested (school first), so you just talk. And one day you feel good and want to find out if they're okay, so you text their friend, avoiding him and what might happen if you don't. You end up mad, hating, crying, missing and the story goes on. It bothers you and you want to know if they still care. They don't. Instead of it they call you just stranger. It hurts. So bad. Why? Because you believed another guy that someone can care so much. No, it's not a movie. Let's hear how good they're going with new chick. Hah. Anyway, then you get into a fight with your best friend, over the guy. Over the hunk. This nice guy who find out to be really, really nice to talk to. He was like a friend and she made you feel like pathetic crap. Fun. Lol. Instead of chill now you feel embarrassment. Thanks a lot. And then things get screwed up with him too. Good. But at least I pass my photography exams :D. What I've learnt is that career is the only thing worth fighting for. Try your best, do what you love and you'll find happiness. Of course you'll feel alone sometimes, that things could have been different, but think. It's not your fault. It's your fault if you chose torturing yourself with "stupid" memories with something that don't even matter, because you'll never meet that dude. So get over yourself, don't bother yourself with people who don't care about you. Recipe for happiness. I'm chasing it. :)

[g-nenem]

[shakarashvili]

So the story behind this remix is that a good friend of mine gave some of my beats to No I.D, No I.D brought it to Roc. Their manager emailed me, saying they wanted to work with me. I've sent them some of my projects, jay sent me back this Jesus Piece. And this is one of the remixes that's gonna be on the R.O.C Classics Remixes Mixtape. It's really hard to believe but dreams really come true. #beatmaking #ableton #kwest #amazing #remix #bitchees

[theweatheredhickory]

First Day Anxiety Post - the civilized version

sooo yeahhhh that little outburst from earlier is cause tomorrow is my first day at my new internship >_<

oh so whoever i haven't told yet or hasnt figured it out from fb, surprise! i got another summer internship! at the end of july! who's cool? I'M COOL. 

i hope my experience serves as an example that we shouldn't give up hope just because people say it's almost impossible to do something. what happened to other people doesn't have any impact on what may or may not happen to YOU. 

on the other hand, i hope my experience serves as a giant HA. FUCK YOU. to anyone who didn't think that i would actually make it, and thought i was just being a spoiled brat for leaving the sales internship so early (i know you exist). how's that for LOVING YOURSELF AND CREATING YOUR OWN REALITY BITCHEEEEEEES. 

ahem. 

anyway, while i'm super happy and super excited because this company actually looks SO nice and SO warm and friendly and the internship actually looks REALLY FUN, i'm having first day anxiety issuesss. 

i THINK i've learned how to ppl thanks to that ridiculous sales internship, and the past 2 months have KIND OF shown that there's definitely a difference, but i haven't really been in a completely new environment that i need to settle myself into yet. i've proven that i can small talk and be friendly, but can i actually make friends? is that a thing? have i actually mastered the art of people-ing? WHO KNOWS. I SURE DON'T. which is exactly why i'm having worries. 

this is especially apparent in my over-freaking-out-ness over the brief bio that is supposed to accompany my "fun" picture of myself that the hr team will be sending out to the whole company as part of my welcoming process. do i sound fun and approachable? do i sound interesting? do i sound like i'm bragging about being interesting? do i sound so approachable that people will be disappointed to meet real me (because i can't people and all)? gahhhhhhhhhh why. 

but at the end of the day, i guess i AM just really really excited. the entire thing sounds so fun and the people i've talked to have been so nice and i'm just really hoping to have a wonderful time working there for the rest of my summer :] 

P.S. haha it's for a marketing company called Escalate. they promote big brands such as coca-cola, hillshire farm, sara lee (lotsa food things. nom.), through experiential events. as a production intern, i'll be helping to plan/produce those events! yay me! XD