I used to like going to the doctors. I believed that they’d always help you feel better and safe giving you details on why you’re feeling not at your best. But I had this one doctor when young and long story short he ended the day by telling me “There are so many things wrong with you already and we found another one, great” with a smile on his face. Needless to say I believed him and thought damn why are there so many wrong things with me. That always made me feel lesser than others from that point on.
More recently though I’ve decided, no fuck that there isnt anything wrong with me, just because I’m not perfect or ‘up to your standards’ of a healthy human being doesn’t mean I’m worth any less. He told me I was fat and had to lose weight, had hearing problems that needed to be fixed, asthma, and the new thing lack of 20/20 vision. All this said while I was no older than 10. So what if I wasn’t the ideal weight, didnt have perfect hearing, breathing, or eyesight. The least you couldve done is said that I could help myself get better. Instead you just said there were many things wrong with me that needed fixing as if I was some type of robot. Now I’m tall and not considered overweight (tho still chubby, but i learned to love my slight chub), have better vision thanks to lenses, running almost daily with no real breathing problems, and hearing just as well as others. No thanks to what that doctor said, but thanks to others who instead of seeing negatives saw room to only improve. Fuck You, I’m as happy as can be and am happy with who I am currently, but will also continue to only get better.
