i think ive finally started to understand why people want company with them. when i was running errands today, fir the first time in like. perhaps a decade, i wished i had someone with me to do mundane things. like someone to go on a walk with or run errands with. ive never felt that since becoming an adult. i always felt so alienated from thise around me even friends and especially family that i was always itching to be alone. i felt like being alone was true freedom. I got used to working alone and keeping to myself anf i liked that, it was easy and calm. but now im finally starting to feel a pervasive sense of loneliness. im no longer that little kid itching to be away from her parents, like now i can choose who i want in my life and. realizing more and more i want to spend my time with others. its a weird realization. i feel like its coming too little too late.
