Just got curious Misha's tweet abt spn cuz I am following him (with bells and all) and yet I didn't see any tweet. And then of course I had to read the replies and got .. uh triggered? Idk the milder word for it. But anxiety is on the roof and I am agitated.
I'm an anime fan, bl fan, novel fan, yada yada. I mean people would think Im fujoshi (i said people cuz im closeted bi cisgirl in a homophobic country so never opened up abt it) but honestly my range is wider than just bl. But I do love bl stories because i tend to relate with them more. So as you can imagine, im always quesy with the fujoshi things. Less abt them, more with the image portrayed by non fujoshi? Like they're weird people fetish-ing queer people, or just straight girls watching two hot guys fucking (similar to straght guys to lesbian porn i guess). The one that confound me the most would be the fujoshi who agreed with the definition and im confused.
I mostly thought they basically is gay shippers just different cultures you know? My fellow bl lovers love the story, the love, the struggle, the happiness between the two characters. And it just rankles me when people simplify it to watching hot dudes fuck. Like yeah we're horny bitches but like our genitals isnt the all of us you know??
Im veering of to bl lands instead of slash (spn) shippers this post start with but there is a connection.
Because whether it is bl, novel, anime, tv shows, movies,, there is always always "y'all just crazy they never said to be queer. So what if they say ily? Doesnt mean its gay. Y'all just delusional. Stop making everything gay. They are bffs. I say ily to my brother does that make me incest? I don't think so"
And I fucking hate those words. With all my being.
Maybe you think those words only thrown to non canon shipper. But no, canon too. And it hurts me that the bl fans also think this. I just don't understand. Why does it need for these chara to fuck or say im queer to be canon gay couple??
Yuri on ice for example. Some fans be like they are not canon (and they are victuuri shippers which is mindboggling), and it hurts... Because to me, they are basically saying my way of loving is invalid you know? Gestures, love soft actions...
There are needs for queer visibility in media and i agree. But this is a different problem.
How ily or love actions toward same gender must be straght until one of both chara come out is just painful you know??
Argh im just too upset now. Can't articulate my mind abt this and it is driving me crazy.