#blackmagicpo entry

[petemcintirewriter]

I love you,

& I mean;

Every little bit.

For how you make me love myself.

During times,

When I feel like I barely exist.

Thank you, Darling.

-Pete McIntire

1/3.5

@redlightwriting

[petemcintirewriter]

The Bathtub Diaries.

It's such an odd feeling;

When you start talking to someone new

The way that you exchange war stories;

To see who's "ex" left the deepest bruise.

Just to remember,

The time that you did that with them too.

Like,

I'm not really sure what's up from down.

I have felt this way before.

Then the darkness hits.

That's when life is almost like a mirage.

Like, is any of this real?

I specifically told myself that this isn't the way to deal.

With loneliness,

That's best described with the lights shut off.

Goodnight, world.

1/3.5

@Redlightwriting

[petemcintirewriter]

Stockholm Syndrome

If my only

Memories

Hurt my brain

& pump my heart.

Then how could

I regret

That moment that

Shows I loved you

from the start

& all the way until my escape.

1/3.5

-Pete McIntire

@Redlightwriting

[petemcintirewriter]

One day I’ll find you,

I’ll be yours & you’ll be mine.

We can struggle till we’re older &, tell the world we’re fine.

1/3.5

[petemcintirewriter]

[petemcintirewriter]

With goosebumps on my arms

& a chill that is stuck on my spine

Please, beyond the lives you take

Think about the ones you leave behind.

If someone shot my girls

They would take my entire life.

You aren't weak & you aren't alone

Come to me & confide.

Just please, Stop taking children's lives.

I have felt the pain of not feeling trust

I have felt the hell that you fight

I know depression

like its the only person you have

Is the hole in which you hide.

Those empty places in your heart

Where love lived once

& now it doesn't.

But it can again, I promise.

1/3.5

[petemcintirewriter]

“You know, I used to fully believe that everything in this life had a purpose, meaning or, a reason. Until I turn on the nightly news to see this month is fashion season. & I haven’t bought myself a T-shirt since 2016 &, it’s the fact that what I go threw is a life they’ll never see. & it’s a blessing for them in disguise, nobody born into money could ever survive a Chicago night. Still, the, “lucky sperm club” is bull shit considering the days I have to fight.”

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[petemcintirewriter]