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15. What is your Dark Urge's greatest fear?
Ajax is afraid of losing control of his Urges, of losing himself from it. In Act 1, he tries to manage it himself by redirecting the violence to his foes, but it's not enough; eventually he learns to share the burden with his companions. But in later Acts and post-game, he still carries that fear in the back of his mind that he'll lose it, that it's always part of him, never fully purged.
16. What is your Dark Urge's greatest desire?
To be free, of course. Free to want, to love, to let go of everything and just live in the moment without the constant fear that he'll end up killing his companions. Ajax has no interest in digging up his past; he only wants to create new memories with the people he cares about.
17. What is your Dark Urge's greatest regret?
Ajax has two (2) biggest regrets: first is killing Alfira and covering it up instead of being upfront about his Urge and asking for help. Second is helping Wyll with his oathbound duty to kill Karlach. Ajax was an oathbreaker and he didn't want Wyll to go through the same thing. He was too blinded by his loyalty to see the truth.
20. Is your Dark Urge open about their Urge or do they try to hide it? Why?
Ajax did not tell anyone about the Urge in Act 1. He only says he's afflicted with memory loss when Shadowheart confided about hers, but otherwise he's way too paranoid and prideful about dealing with it himself. Which of course, didn't end well. Even after Alfira, he still covered it up. Ajax only confessed when Wyll noticed he was carrying Alfira's lute on his back. It's not something he's proud of.