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i mean we literally used to reblog manips of the two of them just standing next to each other, i am genuinely sobbing

#1d #zayn #zouis #blake talks 1d #my post #zouis makes my little heart sing

19th October 2024, 02.19 am

Oh, Liam. Dearest, sweetest Liam. It's been more than 48 hours now and I think I'm still in shock. I couldn't find the words in the moment and I am still struggling. My grief for you is so complicated and layered. You were so close, right there, in my phone, on my laptop, always there for me when I needed you. I've always associated you with joy, and so now losing you - and losing you like this! - feels so wrong, so horrible.

The person I am today, the way I think and live and love is so heavily affected and influenced by One Direction, it would be hard to even begin to point out all the parts that this band and this community have changed over the years in one way or another. I am so angry you have suffered, so furious you weren't taken care of and treasured like you should have been. I hate how you were never able to redeem yourself and heal, I hate how Maya will never get closure now. I hate how unfair life has been to you. I wish in a way that you'd never auditioned, so you could still be alive.

Thank you for all the joy, the laughs and the good times. You were and still continue to be a bright part of my life. I still have so much unexpressed love for you and I'm unsure what to do with it now. I mourn for who you were, for the person you could have been, and for that 16 year old who didn't deserve any of this. I am so angry these people were so cruel to you.

Thank you for all the music, which I will cherish until the end of days, thank you for sharing your beautiful voice with the world.

Thank you for making me laugh when I was in the darkest places, thank you for bringing me into a community that taught me so much and brought me endless love and joy. I will never forget what it feels like to belong here.

It's hard to accept that you're gone. It's hard to even believe it. It will take some time for me to start remembering the happy things rather than the emptiness I feel right now, and I know with unequivocal certainty that a part of me will always grieve you from now on. With every song, every photo, every memory, there'll be a sadness there, a feeling of being lost. I didn't ever think about having to say goodbye to you and I don't want to. Like a petulant child I am still clinging onto the idea that you're just far away, but not gone.

I hope you finally find peace wherever you are. Rest well, Liam. All my love.

#1d #my post #remembering liam payne #wrote this for myself to stuck in my journal but decided to share so ill have it here as well #it was 2am and it was still very fresh so not all of this is super eloquent but here we are #blake talks 1d #rememberingliampayne

Glasgow, UK ❤️❤️❤️

#1d #liam #liam payne #one direction #liam payne memorial #just went and put my flowers down #read some of the little messages #teared up again #god it feels like i've been living life constantly near tears for days now #also how has it been DAYS #love you all so much #my post #blake talks 1d

genuinely don't know what to say. I keep typing out things but none of it feels right? just... fuck.

#1d #even tagging this with 1d feels horrific #i don't know #i really have no words #just kinda lost #probably in shock #blake talks 1d #my post

as much as i appreciate the sentiment behind posts talking about people's childhoods and growing up with them and big part of formative years etc, that concept feels so alien to me.

him and his band are a big part of my life still.

they are on my blog, in my bio, my url, on my twitter header, in my spotify wrapped, I wear their merch to the gym, I sleep in it, (god help me but) i have notifs on for @ onedirection on ig, I buy tickets to their concerts, and I use my mug with their faces on it every single day for my morning coffee.

that is all in the present. and I understand that people mourn for a sense of nostalgic past and that is so valid. I just can't quite see myself within any of those remembrances.

so here's a post for us, for the fans who are still here, for the people who mourn not just for their past, but for their present, and now future. ❤️ love you all lots.