to all of you that have this huge pile of blank notebooks and don't feel like doing much with them because you're afraid of ruining them with your imperfections,
maybe you have at least one page, or a few pages, or a whole notebook that you finished. grab that. touch that. feel the difference between the empty, soulless pages of a blank notebook and the unique bumps, ridges, the crackling noises of the filled pages, the pages that have a part of you in it, that you made unique.
i am probably going to finish my 49th journal right now. i filled 60 pages out of 64. i am grabbing all those pages, feeling the extra weight of the ink, the washi tape, the stickers, etc. and it is amazing.
this is a muji notebook that i treasure a lot. i bought it on the only time i ever went to a muji store, in one of the only two cities in this country that have those, during a day trip that had a significant impact on me. it was one of the very few times where i actually felt comfortable, free, while doing tourism in an unknown city. it was where i set the gears in motion to start and learn a new hobby. it is a factor in various things i will be doing in this first half of 2024 and i journaled about it a lot because it led to much introspection.
but i saw a post on here about "using the good vanilla". using the good precious stuff that you got, that has sentimental value. turning those memories of good experiences into more good experiences. so when i finished a journal i grabbed that one next and wrote in it, after it laid in my pile of blank notebooks for months. it was really fun and motivating and i am finishing it in just 10 days.
it has many mistakes in it. it has unbleached, off-white paper, so when i use white correction tape it's very obvious, and i don't care. i certainly made typos or grammatical errors. the washi tape is often not perfectly aligned. i stuck some drawings in there and they have mistakes too.
yet i have no regrets. i now treasure this notebook even more than i did before. it wasn't wasted. it wasn't ruined. it became even more beautiful. it's not just A notebook, it's My notebook. and i will happily move on to the next notebook, my 50th journal, and make it important too.