I want to bitch about certain things but there’s no point until I get the courage to find the words to say to the ones that I need to say it to. Note I didn’t say the ones that need to hear it. That would imply that they would in fact listen whereas I have little faith that it won’t fall upon deaf ears. To free myself of this inner hostility, I have chosen to admit that I am bitter, not fully understanding of the person(s), and really weighted down by these thoughts. In doing so, there needs to be on my end a forgiveness of these issues. I forgive that they bother me. I forgive that I feel like I don’t have real answers or solutions. And I forgive that I’ve chosen to stop and go the other direction on pursuit of other things. These things may not be better, and they could be worse. But I’m choosing to take the chance of freeing my mind of the current status quo in hopes of something better.
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