#bless myself

[its-tea-time-darling]

i submitted my first draft of my thesis to my supervisor, and let me just say i am indescribably proud of myself. i‘ve been through so much bullshit with both mental and physical health problems, and still it looks like i‘ll be finishing up my masters this month. can i just say:

damn, tea.

✨🍵.

[meltmyhotchoco]

4kdtiys on my Insta! more info here  this was inspired by this prinxiety fanfic..it’s not really related but it something :0

@thatsthat24

[yllayerol]

so this girl just went to the set it off concert in berlin and got home and ordered tickets for idkhow in june

this is the life i’ve always wanted to lead special thanks to me for treating myself

[killthebxy-archive]

slurred words // 2018.

send slurred words (+ feel free to specify verse) and Jon will describe you whilst solid drunk (accepting but i am writing these v slowly) // @zcldrizes

          he WARNED her before, that he’s, undoubtedly, the worst drinker she’ll ever come across in her entire life — and now she can confirm it, firsthand. though, there’s no judgment passed on her need to make him calm the heck down, after the display she encountered when simply coming over to return a jacket… one he cannot remember about, no surprises, yet it only took him A TOUCH of the softly worn-out fabric to be filled with even more anguish; to cry even harder. because it is supposed to be a break-up, because he was the one imposing it, yet there has never been anything else in his life he’s wanted less… born from DESPAIR only, born from sheer FEAR and GUILT; born from a wish to never have her endangered again, because his very existence is a fucked up wreck without any logical explanation. yet, now gathered in her warm embrace && with his mind spinning as much as the room around them, it can’t be helped. best sense is drowned in whatever was in the couple glasses she refilled for him, and his tongue wants to let it all out, god. and he will, he knows he will… the rest of the world be damned, he cannot lose her. SNIFFLING yet again, then, Jon clumsily wipes his mess of a tear-stained face on his sleeve, before inhaling deeply && glancing back up at her.

          ‘ i’m… i’m sorry… didn’t mean to, i— wow, what do i even say… i’m the biggest loser on this planet, aren’t i? one day i’m your friend, an’ then i jus’ pop outta school, an’ then next thing y’ know i’m back again an’ i don’t even know who i am or what i’m doin’, i— i’m so sorry… never wanted t’ mess up your life this, i promise… sometimes, i think back on that night we met again an’ i— i kinda wish i didn’t see you, or y’ didn’t see me — ‘cause your life would probably be much better without me, Dany. i’m sorry… i jus’ wanted t’ help… i’m so sorry that i can’t remember like- almost everythin’, an’ that my life is THIS MESS, i’m so sorry… i dragged you into all o’ this, an’ you could’ve died… they went for you ‘cause of me, an’ i’ll never forgive m’self… that’s— that’s why i wanted t’ LEAVE, that’s why i said i wanted t’ never see you ‘gain. ‘cause i… i can’t bear this feelin’ that i’m puttin’ ya in harm’s way, that maybe you’ll be hurt ‘cause of me an’ whatever fuckin’ royal secret i carry with me that everyone fuckin’ wants so bad… i wish they could find it! i wish someone would come t’ me like, hey, you got this one thing, ‘and it over — an’ i would! i would… an’ then they’ll leave you alone… but i got no clue what it can be or why i’m so important t’ these people, i— an’ i can’t let you be hurt, ever again… you’re my everythin’. since the day we met again, i— i dunno what t’ call it, but everythin’ changed. i was born the day i met you… my life CHANGED, you brought m’self back t’ me… is that even a word? you did, though! you’re… you’re so beautiful an’ so strong an’ so kind an’ i… i never met anyone like you… an’ i believed we could maybe build somethin’ TOGETHER, but then those fuckers got you an’ i wanted— i wanted t’ kill ‘em all, i almost did if it wasn’t you stoppin’ me… ‘cause you’re my precious angel. i can’t imagine my life without y’ in it anymore an’ i… i love you, i love you so much… ‘

[fubuki-ice]

Thank you lord for loving me as always and providing me the chance to find the Daiya Guidebook in my country🙏🏻🙏🏻💕

[music-in-my-veins14]

[sandiegogh]

but hey I just finished five fucking assignments today

[music-in-my-veins14]