I can’t find it anymore, but there was this meme for self-shipping I saw somewhere that basically said:
Step 1: Open Spotify
Step 2: Go to your liked songs
Step 3: Turn on shuffle
Step 4: Start playing the playlist.
Step 5: Think of a f/o before the songs start, that song (Given it has lyrics and isn't fandom-related.) will describe your relationship with that F/O.
For fun, I decided to do it, and uh-...
-Advanced warning! Some of these songs contain swearing, and the song for Aaravos is slightly suggestive in places-
Loki Odinson:
UHHHHH- while the original song I find fairly endearing, this version? It honestly gives me some thriller/stalker vibes, which is not a good sign.
Based on the lyrics though? ‘My only friend was a stray kitty’ especially? I’m getting the feeling that in this instance, I’m the stalker. Oh, no-
Scarecrow/Jonathan Crane:
Oooh, I love Mother Mother songs. Let's see... Well, I gotta say, it does have Scarecrow's vibe. The song is about trying to force change in yourself, but said change isn't working (And you end up hurting yourself by trying to in the process.) Or...at least that's my read of it.
So, Someone tried to change themselves for the relationship and it didn't work, which ended up hurting them? Sounds like a failed villain redemption and subsequent relapse to me. (Try to be not a villain for your civilian partner, only to end up turning around later type of thing?) ...So, I'm gonna assume this is BTAS Scarecrow, then-
Brahms Heelshire:
I- I mean... well first of all, the 'dressed in green' line would imply that Brahms is the frog, seeing as his cardigan's green and I never wear green, in fact, I usually wear black or brown, which are actual scorpion colours anyway-
Tomura Shigaraki:
Ooooh, that's a nice match. Honestly, yeah, it kind of feels that way, especially with what quirk I gave my S/I, and Shiggo's quirk as well.
Sounds like someone attempting to coerce someone else into joining a ‘team’, only to finally open their heart to said person, and right then, that person they coerced gets hurt because they were joining that team? Idk, maybe you could replace that 'team' thing with the LOV? (Or the Paranormal liberation front?) Either way, sounds angsty, I'm in!
Aaravos:
Well, that's certainly not what I expected-
Okay, so what am I getting from this... Well, duality first of all, perhaps indecisiveness? So this is probably talking about me then, haha. Honestly from that context, this makes way more sense.
Newt Scamander:
Yeah, I feel like the lyrics on this one are pretty self-explanatory. Person the song is in pov of was in a bad relationship before and they’re scared to be open to their new lover.
Honestly, in the context of this involving Newt, it reminds me of this 'x reader fic' I came across at one point, that involved the reader coming home from fighting in WW2 and being severely affected by it. It was pretty good all things considered.
Prince Stolas:
Wait, isn't this song about being trans? Regardless, lyrics-wise sounds pretty accurate, to me at least, especially in the story I gave him with my S/I. Poor man didn't deserve all that hardship, he only has his daughter and his man and me, now.
Viktor (Arcane)
I swear to god, it was on shuffle, I promise- What a coincidence that it ended up being the awesome song from his own source! Though, that doesn't bode well for the relationship, I guess. Sounds like it'll be angsty, oh no. But then again, knowing who Viktor is, I suppose that's kind of a given.
I get vibes of 'everything is crumbling down around us, so let's spend these last few moments of normalcy together' from this match up. (Which should make sense with where Viktor ends up going in LOL lore.)
Rook Blonco:
I can't say I expected this one either. I also can't say I'm super clear on who in this dynamic would be the one who's pov this song is from here?
Obviously, more angst. The song is about changing yourself for someone you love, a theme we saw with Scarecrow as well. Hmm, there's a lot more angst here than I expected...
Vilkas (Skyrim):
Oh no. Vilkas, hun, don't say shit like this, you're breaking your husband's heart-
Bad snippet of the song since you can’t actually hear any lyrics, but yeah. Nothing like a little bit of ‘I don’t think they’d really love me’ to get the heart wrenching, right?
Anyway, though!
That's all the ones I'll do for now, trying to figure out how to embed stuff like this frustrated me, so- Yeah.
I don’t know why, but I can’t quite draw Newt correctly? For some reason, whenever I try, he doesn’t look quite right, and I can’t figure out why.
Also, not sure if I wrote Newt correctly either? Is he OOC? I can’t tell, I spent hours on this and I’m so tired that I feel like I’m going to pass out.
But, uh, anyway-
Newt is trans, because I said so, TERFs have no power here.
(Picture and story under the cut, haha.)
He’d caught his reflection in the corner of his eye again.
Newt desperately didn’t want to turn to the mirror, especially not today. But he caught it in his peripheral, and now he couldn’t stop thinking about it. He reasoned with himself that it wasn’t as bad as he remembered. Surely, if he turned around, it’d be fine, right?
Of course, though, when he looked in the mirror, he felt his stomach flip.
It was wrong, all of it. He wasn’t right, and the longer he looked, the more meaningless details he nitpicked about his appearance. Half of the things he saw, people most likely wouldn’t even notice, but that didn’t make them any less painful to acknowledge.
"Don’t do this to yourself, darling.” Blake’s voice cut through the silence. His dark and eerie appearance made him like an ink stain on the colourful but tacky wallpaper of the bathroom. He strode up to Newt and placed his hands on his lover’s shoulders, “It’s won’t do anything but make you feel worse.”
Newt’s body tensed a bit when he felt Blake’s hands; making Blake pull them away for a moment. There was a long, deafening pause before Newt broke the silence. “Do you think I made a mistake?”
“This is about what that red-head said, isn’t it?” The sigh Newt gave was answer enough. Blake slowly held out his hands, but hovered this time, waiting for Newt’s okay. Newt hesitated, but leaned back, quickly leaning against Blake. Blake’s hands rested on Newt’s hips, while Newt placed his hands on Blake’s. “Put all those thoughts away, okay?” Blake murmured, rubbing the side of Newt’s hand with his thumb. “You’re just as much a man as they are.”
The sentiment was nice, but Newt murmured back, “It’s not really that simple-”
“I know.” Blake muttered as he kissed Newt’s shoulder. “I know it isn’t. God, I wish it was. I just worry about you, you know?” There was another pause, as the two just settled into the embrace. “Is there anything I can do to help you, love?”
