#blog commentary

[wishmaker-astra]

The fuck is the Rust Syndicate?

[eglcollagefun]

Sometimes I think to myself that i should go back and tag everything with themes and substyles.... and then i look at the THIS

and go take a nap instead

[ancientforgcd]

"Which motherf*cker destroyed the moon?" Don't mind Kiana, her clothing and hair were singed. "Seriously, whenever I find who did it, I'll kick their arse."

[helluva-hazbins]

"So what have we learned tonight, folks?"

"That's right, don't poke at Adam unless you really want to incite a mess."

[swordswoman-z]

I am happy this blog is obscure enough that people don't try to flirt with me... or compliment me...

[ukitakejuushiro]

@seasparrow HOW ARE YOU REACHING THE VERY DEPTHS OF MY UKITAKE POSTS (ALSO HELLO HAHAHA I hope you're enjoying your time 😂)

[apalestar]

Astarion, right now:

He hates it here, and everyone that caused this mess to happen. Especially you Sebastian.

[subukunojess]

As de Coeur (A Self-Indulgent Mini-Fic)

April 26nd, 2022 Lalotai, The Realm of Monsters

Tonight, Jess had a dream...

Near the entrance of a certain large and colorful lair, she had appeared through a cool-colored portal, her black sneakers touching the sand with a nervous hop. She had decided to wear her black pants and a purple and pink blouse that night along with the jewelry that she had been given years before: a heru in her straightened shorter brown hair that let her speak the language of monster crabs, clip-on earrings that let her understand monster crabs, a bracelet that let her change size, and her trusted amulet she wore around her neck that had saved her from death multiple times in several ways that she could not ever imagine.

How long has it been? Three or four years? Was she even allowed back? With a tentative breath, Jess stepped inside one of her many homes over the recent decade.

Tamatoa's lair looked just how it was before the surface changed. The same glittery sand covering the clearing. The claw-crafted bone cages. The several ledges that she was placed on that sometimes had pools of water or soft moss to sleep upon. One thing about Lalotai and living with a creature who had lived for thousands of years was that most things were kept the same.

There was no sign of Tamatoa, but something in the human's mind told her that he was buried in the sand, most likely molting. Or maybe he had left to go searching for treasure or hunting for prey. Regardless, Jess took deep breaths as she sat down by the edge of the clearing.

"Hi, Tama. It's me, ton pion!" She called out, her voice soft, but loud enough for anyone in the lair to hear. There was no response. Jess continued.

"It's been a while, huh. I know I tried to stay here as much as I can, I had to go back to the surface... to the other dimension? I'm not even sure anymore. I just know that it's been a lot over these past few years. There's so much I can tell you. The world is dealing with a lot of major events all within a short amount of time. New worlds have been made. There has been loss and sorrow. But most of all, I discovered things about myself that I never thought I would be able to. I'm seeing a therapist now, so it's interesting. I still have my flaws, but I'm working on myself each and every day. For a time, I've been growing distant and making several mistakes. I'm learning about being an adult and how I handle stress. I even got accepted in the Master's program for Creative Writing at my school. There's a whole lot more, but I feel that it'll take me weeks to tell you this."

Jess paused to breathe, her eyes darting back and forth as she licked her top lip and rocked back and forth a little. She lost her train of thought for a moment before she got it back.

"I just want to let you know that I miss this place so much and I want to come back here. Sure, maybe I can't stay for long periods of time, but to me, this place is home... as dangerous as it is. I don't know where I would be if I haven't gone to your lair five years ago or so.... So, thank you. I don't know if you could hear me or if you are even here, but I wanna say just take your time. You don't even have to come at all if you don't want. I just wanted to say how meeting you and coming to a place where I can challenge and relax myself has made me so happy."

She sniffled, tears pricking the corners of her eyes which she dabbed them away with her fingers.

"I think the big takeaway that I learned is that life's too short to worry in the long run. I always tell myself that life isn't a race and that I could take my time. You'll be happy to know that I got more confident since we last spoke to each other and I'm still working on my self-love. Look what I got!" She took out two pieces of paper from the backpack she took with her to Lalotai. "My Bachelor's degree in Professional Writing and my Distinction of Writing award! Later on, I'm going to get my Associate's as well. You are not obligated to come, but I want to invite you to my graduation next month. You can be there in spirit." Jess put away the degrees that she earned.

"I think that's all I can think about to say for now-- wait, um, I got something! I was thinking, and it's a little selfish, but I feel less like a pawn and more like something else, you know? Like I don't mind anything we do out of prying eyes, but with me being more confident in myself, I feel like I need an upgrade. I feel like an ace of hearts! Or diamonds... I'm not sure, but I wanted to put that out there if you do come back. If that's okay? Love you."

With a shaky breath, Jess closed her eyes and meditated, letting all her nerves and emotions flow through her body as she rested for a bit. She was so focused on relaxing that she did not notice the ground shaking or the sand shifting or that the skylight in the air was getting covered. What she did notice was that something large and warm pressed against her forehead as the sound of purring followed by deep content chirps rang in her ears.

Jess opened her eyes to find Tamatoa pressing his forehead against hers in a hongi, being mindful of not pressing his head too much against her body. She smiled warmly... only for her face to fall in shock and awe gradually when Tamatoa pulled away to reveal himself. Why, he looked radiant with his bioluminescence being a little brighter and his chitin seemingly new. His antennae pulsed with a steady pink color as always. One of his eyes lowered so it was about a few feet apart from her body. It was then that Jess realized that Tamatoa was... larger. Much larger. He could still fit in his lair, but the once open space seemed smaller. He smiled with teeth that were once washing machine-sized, but were now nearly twice as that. She swore that his eye was just as big as her body or almost. If Jess had to guess, he was at least 100 feet tall or more.

Jess's cheeks burned a bright red as her eyes widened and she covered her grin, bouncing in place. Of course she was flustered and filled with joy at the moment, but she did not want to accidentally scream and make him lose his hearing. A deep, soothing as honey voice chuckled.

"Loving the view, mon as de coeur? I don't mind any cheers you have for me." Tamatoa smirked. Jess uncovered her mouth and squealed audibly as she flapped her hands and bounced some more. She would also cover her eyes, take a quick peek, then hide her eyes again. There was no doubt that she loved it and the fact that he was the reason Jess was stimming so happily made Tamatoa's ego and smile grow bigger than he was after his recent molt.

"Hello~ As you can see, I am much bigger now. Hungry, I might need bigger space, and I definitely need to upgrade my shell. Would you like to help me, mon as de coeur?"

Jess grinned and nodded with a bubbly, adorable laugh as she hugged herself. Tears started to fall from her eyes again. She smiled at the future that was heading her way as she and Tamatoa spoke in unison,

"I am very proud of you, Jessica."