#blogging loudly

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Happy 1 year anniversary to the start of my absolute spiral and loss of self-worth as an artist, I havent sold a canvas since last year, i closed my shop before the 1 year mark , and i still havent found an alternative to instagram OR a IRL space that accepts me 😍 it's amazing what a year can do

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hate ¾ sleeves. like what happened to long sleeves? whore

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My fucking reddit account just got banned man i FUCKING HATE IT here. that was the only website people actually bought my paintings on. 4 years of building up a tiny bit of trust and reputation GONE

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Here's how I made my totally normal, perfectly safe and not-cursed mirror

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WE OUT HERE Framed Mini Watercolor Painting

this mini is still available in my shop! Please get it out of my house. comes with a cool stand 👽 find it in my ko-fi

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"Nobody wants to hear men whining about their emotional pain" - so-called feminists

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I made a big, spooky choker

If you or someone you know needs a big spooky statement piece... check it out here

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I keep having dreams where the same girl appears, in an unrelated dream, and she's having seizures.

Both times I've seen her when someone was tending to her, and staff nearby were told not to call an ambulance or anything yet since usually seizures will pass. Both times i assumed the person next to her knew her and was used to her seizures but I was wrong since they ended up freaking out, and a few other random passers-by would do the same, so I end up telling her to just lie back and breathe and i would hold her head, and trying to shoo the strangers away so she'll stop trying to sit up and talk to them. In this dream she started making bizarre requests whenever she sat up, and eventually she was half-sitting and her neck was at an odd angle when she started seizing again, she was foaming at the mouth, so I told a staff member at the store to call 911 then and she reached for my hand again. And i woke up. Both times I haven't been able to get her name or any important info about her seizures because she's too busy trying to tell people that she's fine.

I never have dreams where I clearly remember strangers, and I find it very weird that it was the same person twice. I guess I just have a generic image in my head of what "sick person who still wants to go out and live life" looks like. But she's pretty distinct. Both times I woke up with a headache, obviously, since they were already bad dreams that got more tense with her arrival