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Destiel - 4.01 Lazarus Rising

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... I'm not a soldier.

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It’s your first cold night since arriving at Camp Chitaqua. Your first cold night without the heat of the Impala, or some shitty motel heater, or Dean to keep you warm. So you sulk. You sulk and you grumble and you huddle beneath the meagre pile of blankets you have.

Admittedly you have more than most. You feel the cold worse than others - it being newer to you that others - and though Dean only occasionally deigns himself to spending the entire night in your bed, he did give you his extra blankets once it began to get darker earlier.

But it’s not enough, and you shiver and tremble, you can see your own breath, and you’ve lost feeling in every single one of your toes. Frostbite runs through your mind, but it’s an overreaction; it’s not even snowing out, and you’re just a little soft when it comes to the cooler weather. Or so Dean said, as he handed you his two extra blankets.

That wasn’t a surprise. Even now, years after your fall, he still tries to accommodate you and your not-so-new humanity. Sure, he scowls and he glares and he scolds you for drinking or smoking or laughing, but he gives you extra rations of water on hot days, he always double checks your weapons for you because he knows you’re a target to every demon out there, and he does what it takes to keep you warm.

It’s also not a surprise when he arrives at your cabin, opening the creaky door and stealthily slipping inside. He kicks off his shows, shrugs out of his jacket, and then climbs into bed with you. Fully dressed.

And that is a surprise. The last time you and Dean shared a bed, fully clothed, was the night the angels left … every time after that, neither of you were wearing a damn thing.

You wriggle around to face him better, shaking harder than ever from the breeze he just let in. “What’re you doin’ here?”

“Fuckin’ freezing,” he mumbles, and you can’t help but notice how young, how sweet, how innocent he looks, burying himself into your blankets. “And you took all my blankets.”

“You gave me all your blankets.”

He glares, but it’s half-hearted. “Which is why you should be willing to share.”

You don’t say anything in response, but you are willing to share. Very willing. Dean’s eyes close, and his teeth chatter, and you watch him in the light coming from the window. You watch the tremors that course through his body, you watch his eyelashes flutter against his cheeks, and you watch his jaw clench every minute or two.

“Stop it,” he eventually says.

“Stop what?”

“Watching me sleep. It’s even creepier now than it used to be.”

“But you’re not sleeping.”

“Only because it’s so fucking cold,” he grumbles, and hitches the blankets up higher around his chin.

You smirk. “Body heat.”

His eyes open and his glare is full force. “You want to cuddle?”

“You want to cuddle.”

“Fuck you.”

“Or we can do that. It’s been known to work up a sweat.”

“Jesus, Cas.” He shakes his head, but there’s a hint of a grin on his face. “How can you joke around? Aren’t you damn near freezing to death?”

“I’m not sure about death,” you say, “but I did lose all feeling in my toes some time ago.”

Sock-clad feet find yours, and it does nothing for your toes, but it warms your heart and you fight hard against the smile that wants to come. Once you smile, once you acknowledge that what Dean’s doing is nice, he’ll stop, he’ll put that wall up even higher than it is, and you’ll be left cold and alone again.

“Better?” he asks.

You shrug. “S’not worse.”

“You’re a fussy little shit, aren’t ya?”

“Yes. I also recently lost feeling in my dick. Wanna help a fallen angel out?”

This gets an honest-to-God chuckle, and, cynical as it is, it does things to you. It makes your heart swell and hurt and sing. You sigh quietly enough that Dean won’t hear it, and slither closer.

“Seriously, though. I think you know as well as I do that cuddling is the only option here if we want to warm up.”

“You mean body heat.”

“Yes. I mean body heat.”

He slides closer, and whatever reservations he had when he arrived seem to have disappeared. His legs tangle with yours, an arm slips around your waist, and his face gets close enough that his whiskey-soaked breath mixes with the tobacco and weed on yours, and it’s nice.

But you don’t say that.

“S’gonna get worse, you know?” he mumbles, eyes closed again.

You nod, and slip both hands up his shirt, relishing in the heat coming from his body and the simple feel of his skin against your own. His lips brush your forehead, and you take this moment, the next however many hours you get, for what they are.

“Warmer?”

You nod again, and you want to stay awake, to enjoy this closeness with this Dean who reminds you so much of the old Dean, but your lids are drooping and his even breathing is lulling you to sleep.

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Prompt by watchingpornwithcas, but I posted the ask, then had to delete what I posted, so now it's gone ...

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Oooh, I got tagged in a thing! (tagged by justacasgirl)

Rule 1: Answer the questions the person who tagged you asked and come up with new ones Rule 2: Tag people and link them to the post Rule 3: tell them you tagged them

1. What internet browser do you use?

Chrome!

2. FMK: Castiel, Jack Harkness, John Watson?

Uh, fuck Castiel because Castiel. Marry John Watson because I've never seen the show, but he looks very cuddly. Kill Jack Harkness

3. What one fictional character do you want with you in a zombie apocalypse?

Is Dean WInchester too obvious? I don't care.

4. Favorite dessert?

I can't choose. Either a chocolate self-saucing pudding with hokey pokey ice cream, or upside down pudding with french vanilla ice cream.

5. What was the last song stuck in your head?

Currently "How Long Will I Love You" by Ellie Goulding.

6. If you could download any skill or ability to yourself (like in the matrix) what skill/ability would you choose?

Oh, the ability to rock out on guitar.

7. Think of a romantic place. What does it look like?

It's a restaurant in town. It's not a romantic place, but it's romantic for us.

8. Do you go through life wishing you felt like you fit in more, or wishing you had some quality that made you more extraordinary?

Constantly

9. What position do you sleep in?

Usually on my side.

10. What dOES THE FOX SAY??

Nope.

MY QUESTIONS:

1. What was the last thing you bought?

2. What is your middle name?

3. What life would you see if a Djinn caught you?

4. What was the last movie you watched?

5. Coffee or tea?

6. What is the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you?

7. Favourite fruit?

8. If you had to listen to one song on repeat for the rest of your life, which song would you choose and why?

9. Favourite non-TFW SPN character?

10. Can you dig Elvis?

TAGGING:

blueberrycas

lovedoesthatitchangesus

watchingpornwithcas

suitcifer

destieldamnit

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i was tagged by jo (what a poopieface)

Rules:

Always post the rules.

Answer all of the questions the tagger has asked, and then make 11 new ones.

Tag 11 people and link them to your post.

Let them know you’ve tagged them  no

Her Questions:  

1) If you were a shape, what shape would you be and why? 

I'd probably be something round. A circle, maybe. I'm boring and I tend to stick to routine.

2) Are you allergic to anything? If so, what?

uh well, i have seasonal allergies but that's all.

3) Where was the farthest you’ve ever been from home (country/city/place)?

i went to florida when I was three years old, and then again when I was eight.

4) Cats or dogs?

dogs

5) Have you ever tried sushi?

oh god no way man

6) Do you think Ezekiel is evil?

i think he's going to try to take sam as a permanent vessel the way hael wanted to take cas, but i dont think he's truly evil.

7) Are there any upcoming movies you are excited about?

i haven't seen catching fire yet, so yeah. oh, and that "frozen" movie, or something.

8) What is the weather like where you are right now?

it's so shITTY OMF, LI ke it gets dark at 4pm and the sky hasn't been blue for like a million years and the clouds are all full of friggen snow and hail and it's so bad. someone pulled the fire alarm in school today and we had to stand outside in the goddamn fourteen degree weather for like a half an hour.

9) Favorite pokemon?

*coughs*

10) What is your wishlist? (for Christmas/Hannukah/your birthday/St. Patrick’s Day idek)

a pupPY im getting a puppy (it's probably not a super good thing that i know what im getting but whatever omg)

11) What was your first url? 

woW um i think it was my name with some numbers because i wasn't entirely sure what a url was at first.

my questions??

Last song you listened to?

What was the last movie you saw in theaters? 

What song do you listen to when you're feeling down?

Name three Disney movies that you adore.

Do you play an instrument?

If you were an animal, what do you think you'd be?

What would you do with 1 million dollars?

Do you have any pets?

How do you feel about where you live? 

If you could be anywhere else in the world right now, where would you be?

Where'd you get the shirt you're wearing right now?

I'm going to pester the following people..

hashtagnerdswagger

johnimholmes

awckles

isthatsomesortofsandwich

blueberrycas

colorfulcas

fallenbrothers

nvak

sexmisha

angelwards

iamthelastofthedaleks