#blurry.soc

[system-of-clouds]

As a majority-trans system of color, we cannot understand the insistence that introjects with names that don’t match the body’s race, ethnicity or culture have the change their name.

It seems like an incredibly cruel and unnecessary demand for introjects specifically. In our system, when we first spilt all we have is our name.

Also why do they have to change their name? If you’re that against them using their name, why can’t they use a nickname or an online name? Not that they should have to do that but why do you think they have to change such a core part of themself?

And asking for systems’ personal information to figure out if they have the “right qualifications” to use a name? That’s the opposite of internet safety practice, why would you encourage that?

We understand the argument that people should not lightly choose the names of marginalized groups but introjects don’t choose their sources or names.

[system-of-clouds]

Us: knows we are a system

Also us: forgets we are a system “Why are we engaging in X hobby, I like Y hobby better?”

[system-of-clouds]

One funky thing about the way some of us join the system is through dreams. Dream headmates are a similar concept, and we do have a few of those, but most of the time when we gain a member through dreams it’s different.

We think it has to do with the way we dream. Sometimes in our dreams, we become different people, we live entire days, weeks, months as someone else. It’s as if everyone left front and this new person, the perspective viewer of the dream, is now in front and we now live as them. When we dream like this, we are not any of ourselves, we are someone new, someone else. And sometimes, we don’t gradually wake back into ourselves like normal.

Sometimes the person who wakes up is the person we lived as in our dream.

Whether they stay or leave appears random.

Unlike dream headmates, new members do not follow the dreamer out and no one is able to control or seek out headmates through dreams.

We’re definitely not a dreamway system since we are no longer a neuronarrator but we like to call ourselves a “dreamingway system”

[system-of-clouds]

We are all for traumagenic and disordered only system spaces. It’s important to have those communities. Just as it is important to have communities that are inclusive to all. Though the lines should only be placed by the systems themselves, mixed systems exist and should have access to the spaces they need.

What sketches us out is when the space is traumagenic or disordered only, and it allows singlets to join.

How would singlets benefit from a traumagenic or disordered only system space, genuinely? If it’s so that they can ask questions, why aren’t non-traumagenic or non-disordered systems allowed? Even if they were a questioning system, how do you know if they are traumagenic or disordered? If they discover they are a system but their origins or functionality are “wrong” are you going to just kick them out?

[system-of-clouds]

There is something incredibly sad about waking up from a vivid dream. Those people are gone now and as I climb to the waking world I lose the memories of our time together. I would have given my life for them and now I can barely remember their face.

[system-of-clouds]

Very tired today, might add to the queue