#bonepost

[landmineblogging]

i love how nearly every time a species exhibits a random bewildering behavior the immediate assumption is that it's Trying To Fuck

[willnaib]

thinking about the complexity of levi today. how he’s the first person to suggest just burning the city down, how easy it would catch fire. how he doesn’t feel bad for the moonscorched citizens because, in his opinion, they kind of deserved it. how he still wants a home. how he wants to take up piano again. how he doesn’t register when abella asks him if he’s okay and doesn’t take a noncommittal “yeah” as an answer. how he’s only 18 and has been at war for five years. how he always offers to watch the door, guard the exit — just in case. how he doesn’t want to just be a scope behind a rifle anymore. how he’s been prepared to die his whole life, but doesn’t want to. he’s only 18.

[deviousspecimen]

muskrat my beloved

[bonepriests]

clay shimmer is god tier tbh

[landmineblogging]

think of the people watching possibilities with being a ghost though. invisibility to most + transparency i could spend eons just wandering nearby neighborhoods spending each day in a different persons life. i spend a needless amount of time thinking about what goes on behind every window in a building anyway. the haunting you thing is just like a bonus enrichment activity

[landmineblogging]

undertale is a game about a bunch of wonderfully kind and quirky monsters who would all kill a child if given the opportunity

[willnaib]

i keep seeing posts about how mithrun is some kind of yaoi bait and while i definitely understand how that could be true i feel like it's a disservice to mithrun (and to his relationship with kabru, and ryoko kui's writing, etc) to narrow his character down to that. like yes, he is an androgynous, small, pale, boyish male character with significant trauma and a caretaker relationship with another (brown, heroic, taller) man. but this is not "written as fandom bait" this is a severely depressed and disabled man who is written with a shocking amount of respect and subtlety, and kabru is not written exclusively as his caretaker who gets him to open up (if we're going to be technical about it, senshi is the one who actually "fixes" him at the end — loosely phrased because that's not what happens, but for the sake of the trope fill wherein the relationship/the presence of the other man fixes the trauma). mithrun's trauma is actually incredibly well-written, which isn't surprising since dungeon meshi handles its subject matter very well overall, but with how people discuss it in terms of prompt fills and trope checklists, i'm worried that there's going to be this intentional misinterpretation of the text where kabru is mithrun's caretaker in a more literal sense than the actual intention and desire to help out of his own good will (i.e. kabru is treated solely as "mithrun babysitter" as opposed to their actual canon mutual respect.) which is crazy because it is written well and i could write a whole lot about how mithrun's writing is one of if not the best examples i've seen of a well-written s/a victim/metaphor. it's just like. why are people who have read the manga and enjoyed it intentionally boiling a Good Character down to yaoi when they don't... want to.

[willnaib]

i wasted the last 5 hours of my life watching heated rivalry.

i'll start with the good stuff. it had some decent moments. ilya was good. the sideplot with the gay captain and his barista boyfriend was good. shane was so fucking wooden. ilya should have bottomed at least once. I genuinely really liked ilya the performance was great the accent was great the emotional depth was great and the facial acting OUTCLASSED the FUCK out of whatever was going on with shane. I also really liked the depth from the captain and his gay-conflict actually felt Good.

I hated every moment shane was on screen except for the bit where he was high on pain meds and i was like "wait he actually can be emotive????" and i get the point where he's meant to be bland but he was bland to a point of oh my god this guy is genuinely taking me out of the moments and not just. boring. Like. I'm the guy who likes stoic characters who can't express their feelings well. Ilya and the captain hit those notes for me. Shane was just a rock. You could replace him with a lamp and he would be just as interesting.

Part of this (most of it apart from the performance) is because the narrative never... punishes him? He can't express anything for Ilya past physical relationships, but ilya still spends years chasing after him anyway. Once he realizes he actually does feel something, he buries it in trying to fuck discount jlaw (which shot me in the head 27 times when i realized "x squad" was xmen. also did they lift her name from rose byrne who was also in xmen. laughing) Anyway. Discount jlaw isn't mad at him for being gay and technically leading her on. She loves him. She creams her jeans when he says he's a bottom. It's fucking weird but again: he's not punished by the narrative for making mistakes, and nothing particularly interesting happens to him to give him any emotional depth until the very last episode where he has to confront his parents and even that is undercut by his mom making it about herself (which is hilariously realistic but also OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDD). The only time he was remotely interesting is again when he broke his collarbone and was high on pain meds but that lasted like 4 seconds.

The pacing was absolutely fucking abysmal why were the first two episodes just montages instead of building the chemistry between shane and ilya??? The gym scene at the start was good but then there was no more of that, just fucking. I don't care that they're having sex! I'm not even against gratuitous sex scenes but they were a dime a fucking dozen and they didn't mean anything, which was the point at first but when it starts to mean something and the sex is still completely fucking boring then what's the point? I liked that some of the first ones were awkwardly set up but the sex itself wasn't. I'm still mad about the weird cuck chair jerkoff scene where shane throws his boxers at ilya and ilya doesn't even pretend to consider the idea of hanging on to them or smelling them. Fake fucking perverts the lot of you. WHERE WAS THE LUBE???? Even the mildly hairier gays weren't hairy even if they actually did succeed imo in making the sex scenes build their character and convincingly pulling off the "closeted in public, uncomfortable, but way more enthusiastic in private" that they tried to do with shane but failed. miserably.

i'm also coming at this from a gay-man-watches-gay-media pov and not from a Yaoi Consumer pov, which... i am well aware this is functionally a mainstream BL show. It's not realistic. There's no lube. That's fine. The problem, and why i'm still considering it as a "gay media" show, is that it's gone so mainstream that people ARE considering it as a Gay Media show. It's not. It's PWP AO3-worthy fanfiction material, but it's not like. the adult coming of heartstopper. or maybe it is i never actually watched that but like. god. i hate everyone. i hate this show. i'd give it a solid 2.5/5 stars because i did genuinely enjoy it when i enjoyed it but the parts that i didn't enjoy i wanted to DIIIIEEEEEE. if ilya bottomed it would be 3 stars, but he didn't.

EDIT: Oomf just told me it's possible heated rivalry is reskinned stucky fanfiction which would genuinely make everything make so much more sense and answers a lot of the characterization questions i had. Laughing. That's kind of incredible