Many people say that life changes when you get married—the lover you met isn't the same as the one you married. However, this doesn't seem to be true for you. Seungkwan is still the same Seungkwan you met back 5 years ago, just a little more ... bold.
Just like that one time you were in a photoshoot as Calvin Klein's newest model.
Or that one time your choreography went viral online. It's not that you didn't know he was jealous—you just didn't know he was that jealous.
The man also yearns
especially when you're overseas
Well, who wouldn't yearn for such a good wife?
But at the end of the day, he has made it his full time job to make you the happiest
Author's notes: Made this because I was so bored 😛 The pictures used are not mine/edited (esp the calvin klein!). They're taken from Pinterest and used for better visualization (delulu).
☆ Warnings: Mentions of Phasmophobia (fear of ghosts), themes of celibacy, mentions of anxiety!
☆ Synopsis: Oftentimes, your insomnia gets the best of you. Today's your first day of moving in with your boyfriend, Seungkwan, but you just can't get some shut-eye. When you suddenly wake up in the middle of the night, who do you run to?
Since childhood, you've always been the fearful type—never being able to sleep without blankets above you, always asking that the lamp stays open, and even keeping the TV on for background music as you fall asleep. For some reason, you always feel as if ghosts are watching you as you sleep (despite not having seen any in your whole life). Because of this, you always end up being the butt of the joke when you watch horror movies with your friends.
Tonight, however, wasn't any better—t'was worse. You just moved in with your boyfriend Seungkwan, and your cowardice has began eating you whole.
Moving in together was a big decision that you two were able to make only a year after being together. He proposed it for "economic purposes" but you two knew well it was just to see each other more often. Nevertheless, you still agreed to it, and if you were being honest, you secretly wanted it more than he did.
You both had a long day fixing your things, setting up furniture from your house, and even fixing your room. You could've just settled to sleep in one room like a normal couple does, but after all, it's still his house, right? The last thing you want is to be a disturbance to your already busy boyfriend. Not only that, but you both vowed to "wait until marriage", so it would make sense to sleep in separate rooms. Out of respect, he once asked if you wanted your own room when you moved in together, to which you agreed—which explains why he's helping you right now move furniture into your new room.
Night had fallen already, and you two were just snuggled together in the couch.
"What do you have lined up for tomorrow?"
"We got filming... and I have a photoshoot by dusk" he whines on your lap while watching the reality show both of you picked.
"Hmmm... okay I'll cook you something nice, what time are you going home?"
"About 8"
You nod and feel the sleepiness get to you. Suddenly, you get anxious as it's getting late.
"Please keep your door unlocked" You fidget a bit, unsure if that sounded weird.
"Oh, sure, I always do, why?"
At that moment, you could've just told him that you were a scaredy cat who still hasn't conquered her night fears, but you had to save face.
"Uhm, so I can wake you up if you're running late"
Stupid excuse, but it worked. He agreed to it while clinging to your hand which was caressing his hair a while ago. You both sit for just a few more minutes before finally doing your night routine which included shower and skin care. When it was time, he kissed you goodnight as he closed the lights to your room.
There it was again, your anxiety getting the best of you. You couldn't sleep again, scared of being alone in the dimly lit room. You tried to put on some calming music to wind you down to sleep, but to no avail, your mind still paced. Left with no option, you watch something in your ipad by the bedside. Luckily, it worked, and you were snoring in a few minutes.
The night was quiet, both of you asleep in your shared dorm. That was until you suddenly woke up in the middle of the night for no reason. This always happens when you're anxious, and unfortunately, it was tonight was one of those nights. You check your phone and see that it's 2am. To top it off, your mind keeps bringing up the horror movie that you and your friends watched a week ago. With anxiety eating you whole, you hurriedly pace into Seungkwan's room, wanting to just be with someone right now. Reaching his doorstep, he did as promised—the door was left unlocked. However, upon seeing him, he slept too peacefully right now, and you just couldn't bring yourself to wake him up. Instead of creeping into his bed, you decided to sleep on the couch instead.
You close the door behind you gently, and tiptoe to the couch by his room. Good news? He's deep asleep, and you don't feel creeped out anymore. Bad news? There's quite a pile of stuff atop the couch, and if even one falls, he'll most likely wake up. You contemplated whether to take the risk and remove everything, or just sleep on the cold floor. Anything but go back to your room.
Since you had a long schedule tomorrow, you couldn't afford back pain getting in the way. Slowly, you begin taking the boxes and books above the couch, taking extra precaution not to drop anything accidentally. After what seemed like an eternity, you were finally able to remove everything on the couch. Just as you were about to lay down, your pillow hit the books above the pile of boxes, causing them to fall off loudly.
You only manage to curse under your breath as you turn to see your boyfriend slowly wake up. His face scrunched as his eyes try to make sense of what was happening around.
"hmm...y/n"
"What are you doing there?"
Great. Now you disturbed his sleep.
"Sorry sorry— I— I couldn't sleep so I—"
"Come here"
And so you do, walking to his bed and sitting on the edge.
"I'm sorry, I suddenly woke up at the middle of the night and I was scared. I really didn't want to wake yo—"
That was all you could say as he took your hand and pulled you into bed with him.
"Shh, okay let's sleep now" Seungkwan muttered as he enveloped you in an embrace, combing his fingers through your hair. He even hummed out a lullaby in the process.
Everything felt too good to be real—being enveloped in Seungkwan's arms while being under the same blanket, and even his voice humming just for you. Had you known this was what sleeping together felt like, you would've done it a long time ago.
Suddenly, nothing else mattered. There could be 10 ghosts that your mind made up watching and laughing at you right now, but Seungkwan's soft and melodic hums, along with his beating heart, are the only things you can hear.
— ✧ Bonus
The next morning, he woke up before you due to his early schedule, so he just left you a note.
I cooked you pancakes, they're covered on top of the dining table : > I love you, fighting!~
You felt your heart flutter upon reading it, but l felt it beat faster upon realizing the time—you woke up late.
Later in the evening, you cooked his favourite dish just in time before he comes home. At around 8:30, he got home and was greeted by your hug and welcome kiss.
As you two were eating in the table, he couldn't take it anymore and began asking you about the instance the night before. You told him that you really get anxious alone at night, and you had trouble falling asleep.
"Oh, is that so...."
"Then....uhm.....do you want to sleep in my room instead? I— I don't mean anything weird! I wont do anything weird, I promise! It's just to help you sleep better"
You've never agreed faster than before. However, you worried about your room going unused.
"Oh...but my room? It's going to get wasted isn't it?"
"It's okay, we can make it a guest room! Or even a cinema room! Or we can sleep there when we feel like it!"
Instead of feeling upset, he was even trying to comfort you for it. It has been a year of being together, but he still makes your heart beat so fast. You may never have conquered your night fears, but at least you've got the best boyfriend who always makes sure you get the sweetest dreams.
Author's note: Hello I am back on tumblr after dying for almost a year. I'm sorry I'm so inconsistent, I only write based on mood :((. But don't worry! Just drop some requests and I'll try to make them! Hehe it's currently our vacation, I've got a lot of time to spare
Reader is a solo artist, Seungkwan is ... Seungkwan. They met through promotions and being under the same entertainment. The two have been dating for three months now, but it seems like the reader still feels afraid of being vulnerable with him. These all changed due to a hectic day that 'took out' every last bit of energy from the reader.
It's just a week before Christmas, but it didn't feel like it—you were still finishing promotion videos, recording special covers, and the like. Although doing this was something you enjoyed, you can't help but wish for rest ... even just for a day.
"Y/n, our last two takes are in 3 minutes, let's get prepared now" said your manager, quickly waking you up from your half-asleep state. Work began to be tiring after a month without breaks, and if your manager weren't watching, you would've escaped and went to your boyfriend's filming location to hug him as you listen to his daily stories.
Things took a turn for the worse. What you thought was a 5-minute take turned into 30 minutes.
"Try holding this flavor instead"
"Hmm... wouldn't this poster be better"
"Let's try a different dress, one that would suit the new flavor's vibe better"
The company you're endorsing for came unprepared, and now you had to deal with it. Although your inner monologue has been spitting out curses since they started making sudden changes, you remained calm and professional on the outside. Sooner after the shoot was done, it was time to go home to the one you loved the most.
You absolutely adore Seungkwan. If you could give him the universe, you would. And so it became a hobby of yours to care for him each day; make sure he never leaves on an empty stomach, pamper him with the things he needs when he's in a hectic schedule, and even massage his head when he's exhausted. None of those felt like chores to you, as they felt like privileges that God has given. Your love for your boyfriend was one that didn't expect anything in return.
However, your boyfriend loves you just as much as you do. He always tries to take you home safely by personally driving, and gives gifts (which he rarely does to others!).
This day had been a tiring one, and it has ended. Now all that's left is to go home and see the love of your life after war (a long day shooting).
After the 2-hour shoot, you open your phone to missed calls and unread messages from Seungkwan.
"Where are youuu?"
"Should I pick you up now?"
" :-[ "
Instantly, your face lights up.
"I'm sorry boo, schedule was tight, I couldn't read them earlier"
"I'm at XXX district, I'm about to go home, don't worry"
You pack your bags to set off to go home, 'til your phone vibrates again. Seungkwan has replied in an instant despite your hour-late reply.
"Okay, I'll come there :^) wait for me"
There it is again, your heart beating like crazy. Being practically half-asleep right now, you start wondering if you are dreaming; but thank the heavens, you aren't. A part of you wants to tell him not to come since it's already late and he too should get some sleep, but you yourself knew you couldn't go home at this state too.
While waiting for Seungkwan, your seniors pull you over and take you along.
"Hey, that's the last shoot for this month, let's go celebrate y/n"
"But—"
"Oh come on, don't be such a kill joy"
In a matter of seconds, you find yourself dragged outside in the snow. It took all the energy you got to let go and reject their offer.
"Sorry, I really can't right now"
And then came a chorus of sighs, but it was inevitable. If you drunk now, you'd probably wind up dead tomorrow.
Out in the cold, you could no longer think straight. "Should I go back inside?" but the building is far from you now. "Where could seungkwan be?" and he has just started driving by now. "How longer will my eyes stay awake?" and you're basically sleep walking right now.
It was useless, all you could do is walk back to the building or else you'd freeze to death. Half-asleep, you start making your way back to where you were before getting dragged. With your state right now, one wrong step and you'd stumble on the snow. You start waking yourself by slapping your face, which barely made a difference. Suddenly you hear the a familiar car horn—it was Seungkwan.
He got out of the car and waved his hand to you.
"Y/n~"
Ah, it's that cute smile coupled with his chubby cheeks that made you fall for him.
"Kwa—"
The thing you so feared of happening, finally happened. You stumbled on snow and are now like a kid trying to make a snow angel. You could hear Seungkwan's giggles getting louder as he runs towards you.
"HAHAHA— are you— HAHAHA— okay?"
"you need some rest, let's go home"
You look at him with a sarcastic smile as he helps you up. As he glances at your face, his mocking slowly turns into concern.
The moment you sat on the passenger seat, you fell asleep. It was just a 10-minute ride home and you could've just waited, but the land of the dreams were already pulling you in.
Soon, you woke up to the sudden feeling of stopping. The moment you opened your eyes, it wasn't your apartment through the window that you saw; rather, your boyfriend's front camera snapping photos. He was taking selcas of you together while you were asleep.
Seeing you open your eyes, he immediately stopped giggling while posing and hid his phone.
"I saw that"
"...sorry"
"I know you like my face so much, but can't you just wait until I wake up?"
There is it, your cocky tone that makes him flustered.
"Whatever...! We're home"
You step out of the car to battle again with your fatigue. Just like the usual night routine; half shower, change clothes, and the last thing—properly remove your makeup. They put on so much makeup on you earlier that it was so hard to remove. Thanks to 'that' company's indecisiveness, your makeup remover has now run out. With no options left, you go to Seungkwan's room.
"Kwan-ah, can I borrow your makeup remover?"
He pointed to where it is—just infront of the make up desk. His makeup desk was much grand compared to yours thanks to being an idol for longer, might as well remove your makeup in his room, too.
As you were removing your makeup, you were in your last straw—using up the last bits of energy and consciousness. The cold weather wasn't any help too, now that it is lulling you to sleep. Seungkwan was scrolling through his phone, but his attention was on you minutes later as you fell asleep on his desk.
"Aigo~ Y/n"
"You haven't finished yet, you'd irritate your skin if you sleep like that"
But his efforts were futile, you were already asleep.
He took matters to his own hands. Gently, he removed your makeup for you and cleaned up right after. Since you two sleep in different rooms (something YOU yourself wished for), Seungkwan was thinking whether or not to wake you up. A part of him felt scared of you getting uncomfortable sleeping in his bed, but another just wanted to cuddle with you and adore you as you sleep.
Amid all of this thinking, he didn't realise that his shuffling woke you up.
"Oh, sorry, did I fell asleep?"
"I'll go back now, goodnight baby"
It was one of the rare moments you were vulnerable, and he knew 'cause you started calling him "baby." Now flustered and desperate to adore you as you sleep, he started retaliating.
"Ah~ Why don't you stay here for the night? C'mon, you can't even walk"
At this point, you had no sense of rationality left in you, so you just spouted out the purest of your thoughts
"But I sleep really noisy, and I don't want you to see me in the morning bare faced"
"But I want tooo~"
Seungkwan was acting like a lovesick boy, despite the fact that you two had been dating for 3 months now.
"And I...I'm shy...to sleep in the same bed as 'THE' Seungkwan"
"I promise I won't do anything weird!"
You suddenly blush
"I-I know! That's not what I meant!"
You started thinking of excuses to escape the situation when the real reason was just that your heart races every time he was near. The fangirl in you still can't believe that you're dating him, and will probably become very clingy if you slept on the same bed. With your drunken-like state because of fatigue, you made the stupidest excuse ever known.
"But... it's warmer in my room"
"Oh baby, but it's cold outside"
He himself can't believe he said such words, and is now a blushing mess.
"...I meant, it's cold on the way to your...room"
Great, now you can no longer resist.
You finally sigh in defeat and put your weight on him though a hug. He quickly understood this and helped you walk towards the bed. The second you laid down, you start wondering why his bed was much comfortable than yours. Was it the matress? The sheets? Or was it simply him being there?
Those thoughts were dismissed once he started poking your cheeks and stroking your hair.
It was the first time in your life someone not your parents has done so, and you could no longer fight your intrusive thoughts. Suddenly you hug him tightly and act all clingy. He reciprocates anyways with a forehead kiss. You two are basically fools in love right now.
"I love you all the time, but I think I love you more when you're like this"
He didn't realise that you were asleep already, and he was basically talking to himself. Still, he continued hoping that his teasing will he heard in your dreams.
"You can't even stay awake for a whole minute, how can I trust you with 20 steps to your room?"
"Ah, you've been overworking again, I told you, you aren't going to lose popularity just because you haven't done a comeback in half a year!"
"Really, you're so stubborn"
"...and I love it, too"
A few moments later, he also drifted to sleep, and whole night was just you clinging to him like some sort of koala. He enjoyed this, though, and will now coax you everyday into cuddling with him until you both fall asleep.
Extras ; [the next day] !
The next day, he woke up first, and did what he's good at—taking photos of sleeping people. This time around, though, you didn't catch him. When you woke up, he was wearing a grin that looked like it told a thousand words. Was it a cocky, embarrassed, or smitten grin?
Your thoughts weren't composed yet right now, but as soon as you realised you were sleeping on the same bed, you sit up and panic.
"W-Why am I sleeping here?? Did I do anything crazy? Oh God"
Seungkwan giggled a bit at your actions, but immediately calmed you down by giving you a recap of what happened a few hours ago—just that, it's his version now.
"Well, you were soo tired and you basically wanted some cuddles from the most handsome man in existence, and so you asked me kindly if I could shower you with love. I didn't mind doing it at all since you asked nicely."
And there it is, he's starting to get cocky again. Luckily, you remembered last night because of his twisted story.
You were about to protest until his phone switched on for the morning alarm, and you saw his lock screen to be a collage of sleeping faces. What's worse? They're all pictures of you.
He tried to hide it but it was too late.
"Hm? What's that?"
"... Nothing ...."
Since he was caught red-handed anyways, he used it instead to tease you.
"Ah, how cute, I got a sleeping koala with me~ hehehe"
This obviously was embarrassing for you and it required drastic measures.
"Kwan-ah ... what do you want?"
Your tone was serious, and that took him aback.
"Hm? ... What I want...?"
"The latest American-style store or the hamburger shop down the road ... you name it..."
"Why?"
"...in exchange for ... changing your lock screen"
He suddenly burst out into laughter and started getting all demanding.
"Hmm... can I have both?"
You look at him with a defeated expression
"Well, I have two versions of the lockscreen, can't have one showing randomly, right?"
With your sleeping face getting exposed to the other members of seventeen on the line, you just follow his request. He ends up paying for the food anyways and turns the food hunt into a date.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Hello I AM ALIVE AGAIN ON TUMBLR but now writing for Seungkwan 😄 This fic is not proofread or what, PLEASE BEAR WITH ME !! thank you 😊🌸
