i have offically become someones booty call.
why. idk. cuz i have supper low self a steaam? and i love it when any guy looks at me and it makes me feel specail like the time trike** used to love me and want to be with me and want to kiss me.. so noww i turn to any guy that will give me the time of day.
he picks me up. we drive somewhere. and we get in the back of the seat. and we start hooking up. he takes off my shirt, even tho i try to tell him no life 5 times, he jsut doesnt give up. ok so now my shirt is of and i can feel all my fat hanging out wich makes me wana cry and put a huge sweatshirt on. but i dont i just continue hooking up with him... then he tries to take mmy bra off. the fisrt time i was strong enought and just kept saying "im not easy" which i am. but then this time he slid my bra strap off my sholder and put his hand inbetween my bra and my boob. and if that wasnt bad enough he then un straped it in the back even tho i had slapped his hand away once before. so now i am full exposed. i hate it. exxpesialy ii have supper small boobs. idk if he just looks past that cuz a boob is a boob. so we make out more and he just does what he pleases. but i have not let him get inside my pats yet. he doesnt seem to mind b/c that would just be more work for him. a couple time he will take my hand and put on his penis. i mostly always take it away. but he always beggs me to do it. he always said its not that hard. or its easy or whhhy not? i always break down adn jsut do it. i know kinda a lot about the boy body because of trike. he used to tell me everything in order to get me 'better'. so i know what to do. and i know how to make him finish quickly. which is what i want because i dont like to do it. but he doesnt want it to be ovr so he stops me and waits for the....exitment to go down, then he would have me go againg... this will be repeated like 4 or 5 t times. then finally he will reach into his gloe boxxxy thing and get a napikin so he doesnt get his stuff everywhere. he tells me to go again and then puts the napkin over his head and tells me to go faster. i ofcaouse obey like his dog..or his bitch more like it. fiinaaly he finsishes and he tell me im done... then thats it really were done hooking upp and he just drives me home.
i hate that i dont respect myself. but i really feel that i dont desirve to be respected. no guy liikes me. they all look at my pretty friends. fuck.
** trike. trike is the name i am giving to my ex boyfriend again it has nothing to do with his reall name
