12/12/12: Looking Back, Looking Forward
This is an out of character post. You have been warned.
I'm tired as hell and can't sleep for some reason or another, but I suppose this is a good time to post this as any, considering I'm not sure if I'll be able to drop by tomorrow evening as I initially planned.
12/12/12.
A year has passed since I thought it would be a good idea to click on that blue sign up button and bother some Shinjiros around the place.
Read as: Aki-mun celebrates the first year anniversary of this account today. What follows is a text vomit regarding some history as experienced by the mun, and of course a ton of special mentions among other things.
Time... flies to say the least. I'm having a hard time believing that it's been this long since I first roleplayed with cookwithanaxe (now hierophantchef) and thesecondarcana, and of course, doing some silly and stupid things along the way.
I started this account out of curiosity at first, piqued by arcanagambler's stories and adventures in this site called Tumblr. Back then, I was choosing among Akihiko, Mitsuru, and Shinjiro as possible muses. I chose Akihiko back then, for during that time I believe there weren't any active ones around, and I fondly recall James saying that they could use an Akihiko on the site, so I was like, why the hell not? Mitsuru was someone I had a bit difficulty pulling off, and Shinjiro... there were already several great ones around, so why should I compete with them? xD
Shortly after my first roleplay, I met crimsonxheadphones (where should I even start with you?), spearsxmilk (an amazing Ken roleplayer with a lot of shota swag to boot), bootsmadeforkickin (Kotoni! <3 I miss your Chie, though it's still nice seeing you around my personal and here), ask-hamuko (A talented writer and artist in her own right), thebluehairedboy (A Minato roleplayer whose prose and posts are simply breathtaking), untz-tofu-girl (Aqua, my fellow Fairy Tail enthusiast and a talented Rise RPer), getbentpunks (Sarah, a really good Kanji roleplayer and one of the earliest people I managed to get along with OOC), the-star-teddie (Nick! Amazing voice, amazing Teddie >w<), fortunesgolfclub (Louie, ah, the king of swag, no doubt about it), foul-mouthed-saika (Mago-mun, the shenanigans, the love, the everything. I miss you, and I hope you return soon.), theprotagonistnarukami (An amazing Yu, artist, and mun ;u;), apathystation (Another amazing Minato roleplayer, and very insightful as well), among other people, the lattermost being a talented Minato roleplayer I introduced to Tumblr roleplaying.
Along the way and not too long after I began, I was welcomed into an amazing, almost magical Skype group. Each day in there was filled with surprises and fun, and every Friday was a day to look forward to, for it's either King's Game night or Karaoke Night. It was a group I learned to lose sleep over, and the oft battle cry of "What is sleep?" has earned me a lot of "LOLs" so to speak, some notable ones being fortunesgolfclub's dramatic reading of My Immortal and dealing with its serious after effects, a swag showdown between fortunesgolfclub and overlordxabel (deactivated, sadly, was amplexusxdevil) and bearing witness to ohtani-hanako's debut on Tumblr over voice chat.
But it was too good to last. A dose of reality caused things to change, and for better or for worse, I suppose it depends on who you ask, but sometimes I wonder if I may have done some irreparable damage that day. Then again, I think that's a rhetorical question.
It was a huge impact on the way I deal with things now. A learning experience, one might say. Learning when to keep my mouth shut and when to give less fucks being some of them--GET YOUR MIND OUT OF THE GUTTER I COULD HEAR YOU SNIGGERING FROM ALL THE WAY HERE.
Ahem, where was I? This was around the time I was busy fulfilling my duties as a student who hoped to get her degree in Computer Science. It was a time filled with many hiatus announcements on my end, but it was also the time I was acquainted and welcomed into a group dubbed as "The Fried Chicken Arcana". There, I met the-fresh-prince-of-port-island (Ghetto Ryoji Mochizuki is swag of the highest order, as is Mochizuki's Fried Chicken. I admire how well-spoken you are, and I do miss talking to you.), lifeafterrisette (Someone who does not take shit lying down, in addition to being a very talented writer, two things I admire.), windsweptlovers, windkicked, kungfusteak, and reacquainted myself with crimsonxheadphones and indistinct-protagonist.
That place was almost reminiscent of the good old days, until... people drifted apart, among other things.
Alas, life went on, and as time passed, my drafts folder grew, along with the amazing people I got to know better (some I knew before, but here you go)--missingarcana (a precious Miki roleplayer, wise beyond her years, and has some interesting art), zealot-grenade (despite her muse, she is one of the nicest people to talk to and amazing at what she does!), little-lost-child (now little-lost-shadow, a very proactive member of the fandom and fellow jam lover~), distorted-littlesister (A mun quite unlike her muse, with a lot of sunshine to spread around, as well as being creepy awesome), wishmakermagic (Nao-chan, adorable, Y/Y?), askthatunluckyyoukai (now betweenangelsandmonsters, aka Pimp Bro and Taco Bells), purrfectlyamewsed (Inaba.fucking.amazing.Cat), rise-chan, pershoona come to mind, with the two lattermost people being people I associated with on my personal a lot more. Ohoho.
Graduation day thankfully rolled around for me, and my hard work paid off for I managed to graduate magna cum laude--a surprise considering the good number of hours I spent on this account. A pleasant surprise, nonetheless.
I think it was around this time that the fandom started growing slowly but steadily, and it was a time I met some amazing roleplayers--starryemperor, magicians-fool, kenprettyshorts, minatovstheworld (now legendasalvatoris), grey-witch (now pizza--witch), cheerfulfool, nihilfists, shieldofemperor, mmamagician, thefoolminato (now oblitus-memoria), and acquainted myself with kazemahou and hanamura-yosuke.
And of course, this was around the time I asked empressrapier (a lovely Mitsuru roleplayer and mun, but she has sadly decided to close her Mitsuru account) to ship her Mitsuru with my Akihiko. Some... drama I won't go into happened around this time as well, but it was fortunately resolved, though it admittedly almost sent me over the edge and it left me scared of this account for quite a while.
Regardless, it was during this time that I learned who were my real friends so to speak, and I guess if one good thing came out of that bad experience, it was that. It brought me closer to those people, and they to me.
Let's... fast forward to the present. Right now, I'm more often than not, busy as hell because of work, and it's partly because of that that my drafts folder's about to hit 60. And of course, my tendency to shoot myself in the foot with roleplays I really want to get rolling. xD Regardless, it's been a year! Personally, I did not believe I'd last this long in this community, but I managed to. Why? It's because of the people--my friends--around me. Though I'm a loner by nature and am perfectly fine as a solitary animal, it was admittedly because of them that I found the strength to carry on, and the strength not to just flip a table and disappear off this site when frustrations ran high.
So, thank you, really. All of you who stuck by with me, my dearest followers, yes, you all too. Each one of you who started following me did manage to lift my spirits with the follow you have blessed me with, and I hope that I continue to do justice to this character I bring to you all.
With this post, I thank some people I've known for quite a while, and though some names would be unfamiliar to you all, they are part of the reason why I'm still here, still standing, despite wild overtimes and fickle muses.
James (arcanagambler) - Even if we don't really talk that much, I thank you verily for indulging me whenever I bothered you over IM during the latter half of the year 2011. I'm glad that Tumblr has served as an opportunity for me to get to know you better and as a channel for me to meet other awesome people as well. Thanks for pointing me to this wonderful place!
Dia (whispered-epiphany) - You. The first ever personal account to follow me. I'm flattered and touched that you have chosen to stick by me throughout this year, and I'm grateful for it, really. ;u;
Quinn (whatever your URL is right now) - I'm aware we don't talk much nowadays, but you've been a person whose life has managed to put a smile on my face, and I was really flattered when you told me that I was one of the people who got you into Tumblr RPing. I hope you've enjoyed your stay here thus far and I admire the efforts you make towards reaching out to others, and thank you for welcoming me to your personafam. xD
Shel (hierophantchef) - For the longest time, we did not really talk to each other. Things seemed to change past June, and I'm glad we managed to overcome whatever barrier used to be between us. My dear Otouto, I thank you kindly for being there. ;w;
Cheska (crimsonxheadphones) - Wow, I don't know where to start, really. I've rambled on about you on several posts, and I'm not sure if that's even enough. xD You have become a very important and precious person to me. Honestly, I wouldn't know what I'd do with out you and several others on this place as well. So... thank you for being there, and not judging when others would surely do. My dearest lesbian lover, let's keep S.S. ChesKat sailing, shall we? ouo
Jay (indistinct-protagonist) - Strange circumstances have brought us together, and though it's left to interpretation as to how one would regard it, I'm thankful I got the opportunity to get to know you better. Crack!partner-in-crime, and your URL on my dash is always a pleasure to see. Thank you for indulging my long-ass Skype rambles and thought processes. Also, the day you get to use that icon would be a glorious one indeed.
C (theoptionc) - You keep me grounded in my purpose, and do a very excellent job of deflating my ego when needed. Lmao. Seriously though, I'm in need of that. Your advice is always greatly appreciated, and so far you're one of the four who have been able to give that constructive criticism I do so crave, as well as fueling my drive to improve. You are a talented writer with the wisdom and confidence to go with it, and I really hope to reach that level some time, someday. Thank you for your patience with me and the feedback you take the time to impart.
Eirlys (eirlystylluan) - You are a dear friend I managed to make in an unexpected place--a talented artist, a swell writer, and a kind, yet honest soul. If it weren't for you and your patience in dealing with some of my moods, I don't think I would have made it past my slump in August and would have deactivated all together. So with that, I thank you kindly for the continuous supply of protein you have blessed me with.
