" STOP PRETENDING YOU KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON. " @borgbutcher
could it be considered pretending if one was confident in only a single aspect of what was going on? hanging onto confidence with tooth and nail, refusing to give up on what she did know, as there was clearly a great deal she could never ( and would never ) be able to wrap her head around.
what rogue knew, what wasn't for show and what was as far from pretending as one could get, was this ; she was, despite all else, still herself. she was inhabiting the same body she'd always known, and within said body lived the same old belief, hope, and fear.
she knew what was right and wrong , and knew that her current situation was WRONG above all else, just as she knew there was no way out of it. she knew that she was being punished ( though she didn't understand why ) and that the luxury of feeling was no longer one that she could afford.
that was what was going on. that was what she knew.
what wasn't known was how the fuck she was supposed to deal with it, and why he ( out of everyone ) had to be the one to ( knowingly or not ) point it out.
boredom and defiance were clear in her gaze as she looked up at the other, shoulders squared as though that meant anything at all when speaking to something someone like him. " it isn't your job to worry about what i do or don't know. fuck off. "