5/2/22. — Its talked about how hard it is to be in a healthy relationship after going through trauma, but its not always “I cant trust hell f*ck another woman when Im not around” whats hard is the “what if hes only pretending to love me” or the “what if hes not saying anything because he doesnt want to hurt me”
The hard part is stopping yourself from convincing your noggin that youre unlovable, and that your partner loves you who you are, despite all the flaws you think or know you have. Its accepting that they love you for all that and more. Its trusting your partner wont suddenly, out of nowhere, theyre gonna turn on you call you horrible things, then turn around and pretending like nothing happened. Or that they dont just pretend to want to be around you for any reason besides personal gain.
Idk man but relationships are wild, and the healthy ones just confuse the shit out of you, but you begin to adjust over time as you learn to accept that you like the healthy relationship thing…. that is until your partner DIES in a crazy yet tragic car accident. Then they become your villain story- origin.