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HOLY AHIT HOLY QUACK AHALDHSKSKSSKHDJDJD

I KNEW THEY HAD TENSION IM SCREAMING THEY ACC WENT THROUGH WITH IT AHAJAHSJSJAAJK

im so scared man mtmte/op is uncharted territory for me from here on out p l e a s e let them be happy 🥹🥹

Optimus Prime #21

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felt like a sleeper agent

tadc ep8 and lost light #25

they’re both so well written man and i caught up with both at the same time 💔💔 angst double whammy

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Skybound has me in a chokehold (new to transformers fandom this year besides bayverse/tf1) and my plot bunnies have been screaming with all the bricks they’ve had thrown at them,,

Spoilers ahead!!

brick | brick | mouse | brick | brick

ck | brick | brick | brick | brick | bri

what if. What if starscream/ ulchtar are a form of DID of sorts??? not the best word for it but idk what it o call it; it thought about this after the whole screamer sees the titan and reverts to ulchtar shebang. (at least i think that happened? i didn’t dream it?)

After Megatron collects ulchtar in skybound the “starscream” persona takes over as we know. But what if screamer was created by an attempt to protect ulchtar? Like how the brain tries to protect us from trauma by making us forget traumatic memories, but in ulchtars case he subconsciously constructed a whole person. If I ended up writing this as a fic it’d be with flashbacks/calls to moments where ulchtar doesn’t remember something happening and as the war gets worse the blank spots also get worse. The whole screamer-being-an-ass personality is bc ulchtars mind needed something drastic and it thought the best way to deal was to make a personality with the most prickly traits possible so no one would get close enough to hurt him emotionally. Maybe the tipping point where this starts happening is beginnings of revolution, someone heckling/accosting ulchtar bc he’s on neither side of the conflict (wrong place wrong time where he’s just passing by but there’s a street fight/riot) and he starts having a panic attack or summat (haven’t decided) and it’s enough of a traumatic experience that his processor straight concocts a whole personality.

Ulchtar doesn’t remember the things that happen when screamers there to start. but when Megatron starts to push into his mind with his oogaboogaloo gun ulchtar find that he in fact. Has a whole separate identity as screamer rushes up to wrap up “ulchtar” and messily push him into a safe little hole. At first he’s a little freaked and panicky about the whole thing (who wouldn’t be?) bc he’s become a passenger in his own body. Eventually screamer (who renames himself as a double layer of protection) is able to shout over ulchtar and make him notice that Megatron is also in his mind and it is in fact for his safety. yadda yadda and megs releases him, and ulchtar asks to be released but is denied bc it’s not safe. I imagine this as Starscream takes over the body and bears any physical pain impulses whereas “Ulchtar” still exists but has no real control over anything, external stimuli is significantly dulled but he still feels (like if the character you played in a first person pov game was aware of wha you did but could only see through their eyes and has no control over what they do). However he still has his whole range of emotions and , though “starscreams” emotions are dull to him he feels an inkling (screamer takes the full brunt of a beating. ulchtar would feel a fraction of the pain and fear and various other emotions from screamer as well as his own distress.)

Why did screamer join the decepticons, and why won’t screamer let ulchtar go? the whole persona was a convoluted attempt by the processor to protect ulchtar. It was a desperate and last ditch effort as prior attempts to just wipe ulchtars memory afterwards proved to only result in more unpleasant encounters (read: revolution escalation doesn’t help prevent conflicts, so he kept getting into shitty situations). Meeting Megatron and joining the decepticons would have seemed the most logical option considering the majority of the unpleasant encounters were due to the fact that screamer was neutral. Also bc he just watched his friend die. But screamer realizes that he fucked up the moment Megatron turns into his oogaboogaloo gun and seizes control over screamer. He can’t back out of being a decepticon, that’s historically and with the current event a dumb decision. So to ulchtars processor, the best option is to retain control over him until it’s safe enough to left him be. but as we know, that’ll never happen :(

Why does starscream get beat up so often then? I like to think that he’s got an anti-authority module. Both as ulchtar and screamer he hates having to answer to someone above him that he doesn’t respect and believes he can do better. Ulchtar was able to control these urges decently, given he wanted to avoid conflict and his emotional modules were capable of inhibiting such. However, screamer is 1. born from anger and fear and uncertainty and 2. part of ulchtars processor. He’s much more processor-modules dependent and has all of the righteous fury with little of the this-might-be-dumb inhibition. Ulchtars got some strong opinions about the autobots and Megatron and all of them too. Either way, ulchtar wouldn’t be hurt if he’s in a coma…it gets boring sometimes, just existing there. He likes to retreat into his own mind palace, and it’s not like his processors gonna stop him from being even safer from all the dangers outside. With Ulchtar in “safety” screamers got even less inhibitions.

Holy shrimp I love character studies

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very important question: who is taller genvo or starscream (skybound)

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artfight soon this means it’s ref sheet lcok in time

gosh. that’s. i haven’t done this in years eughhhhhhh

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just read mtmte #11 and cried 🤠🤠

i knew?? it was gonna happen?? but like i didn’t think they’d actually do it even though it’s already been 14 years and it’s completely canon and unchangeable but like aurhjrurhjdhhurghshrjhdhsghshs