The lights of passing cars illuminating her face, drawing the lines, shadowing the valleys, sharpening the edges - making her feel unreal, like the most beautiful of dreams. If you could, you would’ve stopped the time to watch the surreal painting of reds and yellows. No painter, no photographer, no poet could give Jisoo justice at that moment. Even if your eyes didn’t feel worthy of that, you watched her, careful as to not blink too often.
“(y/n).” You loved the way she said your name.
“Yes?”
“Why are you looking at me like this?” Her head bent to the side, mouth twisting into a sweet smile.
Embarrassed by her question you - with a heavy heart, mind you - dropped gaze. Your body turned towards the street where the cars continued passing each other.
“What do you mean? Isn’t that what I have eyes for? You know, looking?” Jisoo’s head dropped on your shoulder, something heavy resting behind the act of the gesture’s simplicity.
Minutes of verbal silence passed. Both the town and your mind were far from quiet though. Her hand sneaked in between your elbow and torso, then rested on your knee. Again, simple, but with a heavy undertone. One you didn’t know how to decipher. But then you realized that the position you’ve found yourself in was no ordinary one. The heaviness was right. It was the intimacy you shared with someone you dreamed of. A little worried, unsure what to think. Whether she meant the same as you did, or maybe needed a stable rock to rest on, you dared a question.
“Jisoo.” She hummed quietly, breath escaping through a small gap to tickle your neck. “What does it take from someone to be as beautiful as you?”
The weight of her head disappeared, and you looked to the side to watch her choke on saliva, half-laughing, half-covering her shock. She didn’t catch the undertone. Weird, considering the way most of your night together was built on double meanings.
“That was very sudden?” her hand patted your knee. “Why would you ask me something like that?”
“You asked me first.” At the statement, her eyes looked past you to signal contemplation. “That’s why I was looking at you before. But everyone tells you that, right?”
“Not so directly.” Now you had to snort in amusement. “I mean, not when we’re sitting so close to one another. And don’t laugh at me.”
“Sorry.” your hand went up to cover the grin, but it was the one resting on the same knee as Jisoo’s. She grabbed it before you could escape. “Jisoo?”
“I’ve been giving you signals all night. And then you start talking about others. It’s not what matters to me. What does, is that you’ve never told me I’m beautiful before.”
“Um- Well... I thought it was an obvious fact?” Oh, and don’t forget- “Signals?” Jisoo just nodded, her eyes away from you. “Signals, as in romantic ones?” Again, a nod. “Oh.”
“Yeah.” She finally dared to look back at you. “It’s not like you’re not obvious.”
“Of course.” Feeling incredibly foolish, you once again tried to break free from the hold of a hand, but Jisoo didn’t let you. Instead she pulled it to her chest. “Jisoo?”
The tip of her nose nudged yours, close as soon as you turned to face her. Jisoo’s dark eyes looked at the surprise on your face. She took you in, counted the seconds for a(n im)possible draw back, leaned forward to do the unthinkable. Softly, then with a little more confidence, awaiting the moment when you’d wake up. But who would want to wake up from a dream like that one?
JENNIE
“I’ve got to say - I wasn’t expecting that.”
Neither did you. When she first sent you a text saying how bored she was, you felt the need to save her from herself, and ended up almost instantly stepping out of your home. Just half an hour later you were under her apartment block, waiting in your car. Something about Jennie always made you want to make an effort, even just to see the smallest of smiles on her beautiful face.
“Do you mean that in a good way?” She pulled a huge teddy bear closer to her nose. It couldn’t smell good - you got it from a booth at a fair. Who knew how long he waited for your lucky shot?
“Of course!” Her big brown eyes watched you above the toy’s head. You couldn’t be sure, but you wished it was a smile she was trying to hide from you.
Still wary, because hey, who would outright say they didn’t enjoy a surprise that someone else has prepared for them, you sat back on your seat. Jennie’s eyes followed your profile. Having their attention all to yourself made you self-conscious, and you considered driving her home. You didn’t want the night to end, but you were unsure where else it could go. The possibility of disappointment loomed over your head. You were unsure what it was she expected out of your weird friendship, as well as what you wanted.
Then Jennie’s soft voice called your name. Unable to stop yourself at the sound of the most beautiful rendition of the word you’ve ever heard, you turned to look back at her.
“Yes?”
“What are you thinking about?” You, was what you wanted to say. Instead, you opted on the much safer, and much lamer “Life?”.
Jennie couldn’t hide the disappointment on her face, and you wondered - what did she expect you to say? Or maybe what did she want you to say? Now that’s what you usually tried to avoid, wondering whether the woman thought about things similar to you. Whether the crumbs your vivid imagination survived on kept her alive too.
“Do you take all your friends for evening dates at a fair?” Did she really say dates, or was it just your brain’s desire?
“Ha, you’d be the first one.”
You couldn’t help yourself, you had to look to the side, to check her reaction. How surprised you were, when Jennie’s lips landed on your upper lip. It was too short and much too sudden for you to register properly. As soon as it happened, it also ended. Jennie pulled back, obviously also surprised by the kiss. If your mind wasn’t completely blank, you’d have realized that her prime intent was to peck your cheek. Lost on options you’d have laughed nervously, then changed the subject. But your mind was empty, and you made no movement. You just stared at the woman you had the hugest of crushes on, awaiting her next words. Ones that would probably extinguish the fire building inside your body.
“Did I make you uncomfortable?”
She was supposed to turn you down, not ask things like that.
“N-no.”
“Oh, that’s good.” Jennie looked to the side, biting her lower lip in nervous excitement, or maybe to hide a big smile. “Would you want to do it properly now?”
“What?”
“You know - that or whatever.” Her cute inability to call kissing by its name finally broke the spell.
Suddenly full of emotions, you threw your head back from laughter. Jennie joined you, her lower lip vividly red from the hard bite. It didn’t last long, because now, confident of your feelings, you decided to strike back.
ROSÉ
She looked heavenly, propped on her shoulder, with face lighting up every now and then. The TV series you have found together was a good choice. Not only did it keep you entertained, it was also long enough to make a good excuse for your lack of physical activity the past few days. Nothing felt as pleasant as rejecting all social engagements for more time one-on-one with Chaeyoung. Her behavior told you that she had a similar approach to the situation.
“Oh, sorry.” the voice from her phone’s speaker was barely audible. “No, I really can’t. I’m already all set for the upcoming week.” as soon as she noticed you watching, her smile turned sinister. “Yeah. Bye.”
“Aren’t you a busy woman?”
“Oh, I have no time for myself because of the amount of arrangements I made!”
The two of you fell down on the bed, giggling conspirationally. Only calming down made it possible for you to press the play button. Chaeyoung’s head moved a little bit closer, to rest on yours. In between lines of dialogue and obnoxious noises, you could register her breathing. The sound of drawing air in and out was so close, the whistling it accompanied also reached your ears. Then, when she shook in place from laughter, you registered the smell of her shampoo, a lovely floral aroma.
“What? Don’t tell me that joke was not funny!”
Accidentally, as least you hoped so, Chaeyoung pushed you with much more strength than she expected. She ended up going so hard, your rolled off the bed and landed on the carpet face-down with a thud.
“Oh no! Sorry!” You heard the screech of springs as she crawled to the edge. “Are you okay?”
“Yeah.” but showed no sign of wanting to get up. “This rug is pretty comfy.”
Chaeyoung laughed after a moment of hesitation, her hand eventually landing on your butt with a clean sound. She clearly wanted you to return to her side.
“Get up!
Finally, you did as told. Got up first on your forearms and knees, only then did you look up. Good thing that you did, otherwise your and Chaeyoung’s heads would have collided. But because you you made the effort to look where you were moving towards- Let’s say there were worse thing than being just centimetres apart from someone.
Chaeyoung must’ve been stuck in her spot watching you. Perhaps unaware of your intentions to get up, perhaps too busy making sure that your mission ended a success. Seeing her face so close, you froze in your spot. Just as she did. Stuck, watching one another for a long awkward while.
Not gonna lie, your face felt hot after you realized. Even hotter when you noticed Chaeyoung didn’t lean back. She stayed in place, looking at you. Never made a motion back or forward. As if she was unsure herself where to escape from your presence. Maybe she didn’t want to necessarily escape? That thought made you feel like choking. Luckily, you managed to control yourself.
“Umm- Chaeyoung?”
“Yes?”
You hesitated. Was it right for you notice things out loud? Weren’t they about to scare her away from you, like a noise does to a frightened doe? The time stood in place. Dialogues in the background melted into nothingness of your empty head.
Just as you decided to speak again, this time jokingly to resolve all the tension, your puckered lips were taking a completely different way. Just a split second of them forming into a small “o” (that was meant to sound as a “wha”), and next thing you knew Chaeyoung’s plush mouth covered yours. Her eyes were closed, you saw it with your wide opened ones. She was really into the kiss. Not that you had any objections, you just never... Considered?
Her hand sneaked around your neck, to hold you close, while another one rested on your shoulder for support. Suddenly confident, because she wasn’t showing any signs of stopping, and it was the last thing you wanted from her, your hands also rested on her body. You couldn’t be sure which parts. After all, your eyes finally closed too, useless when a completely different sense took over.
LISA
➛ tw: slight jealousy (in case you do not appreciate people showing it)
It was 4:25 PM when Lisa placed her hands on the table and told you to “dish”. You knew, because you were just checking the hour on your phone, wondering whether she would even show up to your meeting. Ever since a week before there’s been a strange energy thing going on between your duo. Lisa was distant, you were unsure how to approach her, and it wasn’t until the day before that she has finally given you a date and time to see her.
“Well, hello to you too?”
Your surprised face made her take an awkward step back.
“Yes, hello.”
The clatter of cutlery filled the silence between you. For so long, you felt like paying the bill and leaving. But you couldn’t. Not when she was finally talking to you again.
“You can sit down?”
A little weirded out by her behavior, you decided to focus your strength on pulling a chair out. Lisa did take the offer to sit down, but she looked ready to escape any second, purse on her lap.
“Em- So what am I supposed to dish about?”
Lisa raised her head to look back at you, then turned it away. As if she was mad you even dared to ask her.
“I don’t know. Maybe, since when you and your cute neighbor are so close?”
“I met her like two times outside of our neighborhood by a total accident. Wouldn’t say we are close? But wait- How do you know about this?” The whole conversation was so out of character for Lisa, you felt as if you were dreaming.
“Jennie told me the first time. The second time I saw you.” Her fingers picked up a napkin to play with.
“And you’re mad at me for this? For having impromptu chats with a neighbor?”
She frowned at your words, her eyes turning distant to let you know she was processing. In the end, she dropped the now-torn napkin and stood up. The suddenness of her movement made you do the same.
“Honestly, Lisa, what’s going on with you?”
“I should go.” Without waiting, she walked away.
“What? You just came!”
Lost on options, you pulled a wallet out and dropped a bill on the table. You were in hurry, so waiting for a waiter was out of question.
“Lisa! Come on!” Only after a while you managed to catch up to her. “Talk to me. Tell me what’s wrong.”
She stopped at the feeling of your grip on her shoulder, but waited a longer moment to turn around. From her frown you could tell she was fighting herself.
“It’s dumb.” The look in her eyes spoke vulnerable. “Nothing to worry about.”
“It’s not dumb if it’s bothering you. Just tell me what I did wrong.”
Lisa dropped her gaze, fingers now playing with the edge of her skirt. Which she looked really great in, by the way.
“So, you’re not into that neighbor?”
“What?” You laughed. “I am not! What made you think so? Our two random conversations?”
“I told you it’s dumb.”
“Lisa, I told you it’s not. Were you jealous because I talked to someone else?”
The look of offended bewilderment visited her face, forcing her eyes into the shapes of perfect circles.
“Not just someone else! You called her cute yourself! How was I not supposed to feel bad? We were on three dates that I thought went pretty well, so I got worried you didn’t feel the same way I did.”
“I’m not a player.”
“I didn’t say you were. Just maybe not into me.”
“I AM into you.” You were almost laughing, until you remembered Jennie’s words from the day after your second date with Lisa.
Your best friend ridiculed you then for not kissing the girl you were so obsessed with. That you were thinking too much into trivial things. That kiss was the best feedback. Not heart emojis attached to a goodnight.
“Hey, did you think that because we didn’t kiss?”
“W-what?”
It wasn’t ideal. The feeling overtook you suddenly, without any proper warning. And just like that - you did it. Lisa stayed in place when you kissed her, frozen at first. It was a short moment, with too little material to build up the fire. The thought that maybe you were overstepping the boundaries came up, and you leant back. Lisa watched you, unsure herself what to do next. Still, her hand caught yours before the distance grew too much.
“You know, I usually wait a little longer before the first kiss. But I get it, you were just impatient for the end of our fourth date.” She didn’t smile back, instead flicking your forehead. “Oww!”
T’Challa smiled and watched as his daughter played with the thin material of the shirt that loosely fit his wife’s curvy frame, one shoulder and bra strap exposed, a piece of clothing that once belonged to him but she had commandeered once upon a time.
“What you doing?” Y/N smiled warmly as Jamyah grabbed another fistful of the shirt and stared up at her mother from her position on the bed, in between her legs. “Hmm?”
Jamyah giggled and attempted to stand up on her own, using Y/N’s body to support her own when she suddenly remembered who was laying on his side at the edge of the bed.
The nine-month-old plopped back down and turned around on her hands as she returned his smile. “Baba!” The king waited for his daughter to make her trek across the bed, playfully falling on his back as she threw her body against his. He forced out a grunt as she climbed to sit on top of his shirtless frame while shaking her tiny fists in excitement and babbling loudly.
“What of mama, Jamyah?” She questioned softly, moving closer to the edge of the bed so that there was only a crease or three in the blankets that separated her from the rest of her family.
The nine-month-old looked over at her and reached out her arm, opening and closing her hand, continuing to babble to T’Challa.
“She always did like you better.” The queen commented with a small smile, reaching out to playfully “grab” one of her daughter’s feet. “And do not try to deny it.”
He laughed quietly. “You still believe that?”
“It is true.” She shook her head. “Watch.” T’Challa’s eyes stayed glued to his wife as she got on her knees and grabbed their little girl, lifting her high up in the air, mother, and daughter sharing a moment of laughter before she brought her down to her hip.
The king was momentarily taken back as he watched Y/N inch closer to him, lifting one leg and placing it over his body so that she was straddling him. For a second, he was taken to a distant memory, one where touching and intimacy between the two wasn’t such a difficult subject.
Y/N shifted Jamyah from her hip and sat her back on T’Challa’s chest. “Just see.” She motioned to how the little girl started to crawl up her father’s body, T’Challa having to grab her and also lift her in the air. Jamyah laughed loudly as T’Challa grabbed her and littered her neck with kisses, her tiny legs kicking in response. “I told you.”
He moved his head to look at his wife and searched her face for a sign of earnestness, surprised both with the lack of seriousness and the presence of a genuine smile on her face as she watched him interact with their child.
Jamyah’s return wasn’t just bringing back her smile: it was bringing back a small flicker of her light.
“Nonsense.” He shot down. “She simply latches on to me because I am with her the least amount of time. You are with her more often than I, so she is forced to miss me more than you.”
“Not always,” Y/N murmured, her eyes darkening as she looked off into the corner of the room.
T’Challa noticed and sat up, Jamyah between their bodies. “Hey.” He cupped her face, his thumb gently sliding across her cheek. “She is back home. She is safe. Nothing and no one else shall ever separate us again.” He vowed, only to sigh when she said nothing. “I know that you do not believe me now, but you will, Y/N.” A beat. “You will.”
•••••
“Thank you for agreeing to speak with me.” Ramonda shared as she, Y/N, and princess Jamyah walked the palace gardens. T’Challa, though still on the premises, was in the midst of a council meeting and could not be with his wife and daughter. Subsequently, he asked his mother if she would spend time with them until his return, unaware of the fact that Ramonda was planning to speak to her daughter-in-law anyway.
Y/N nodded, holding her little girl on her hip as the child played with her hair. “How….how could I not?”
The older woman smiled and motioned for them to sit on a nearby bench. Y/N took off her kimoyo bracelet and handed it to Jamyah who sat between them, knowing that it would keep her occupied for a little while.
“I suppose you have questions.”
The queen paused, unsure of where to begin. “H-h-how? Does T’Cha-”
“No,” Ramonda quickly answered. “And the only thing I ask is that you keep this between us.” When Y/N nodded, she took a deep breath and continued. “When I was seventeen, still living in South Africa, I was abducted by a white man while attending a protest.” Y/N swallowed deeply. “He kept me captive for five years during which...I was impregnated twice, suffering a miscarriage with both pregnancies.”
Y/N eyes watered as she shook her head. “I can’t-I’m so-“” She couldn’t imagine the extent of Ramonda’s pain during that time. Look at what only one week with Killmonger did to her, but five years….
Queen Mother closed her eyes. “The man was a longtime enemy of Wakanda’s and when T’Chaka went after him, he found me, took me back here, and provided all of the resources needed to nurse me back to health. Physically, at least.” She stared off into the rose bushes. “I was….terrified of him. He saved me, yes, but for what reason? So he could replace the white man as my tormentor?”
“Trust is such a...foreign concept.” Y/N whispered, staring down at Jamyah.
“But not unattainable.” Ramonda chimed with a sad smile. “I was physically healthy, yes, but my heart, my soul, they were all wounded by the deep scars of my trauma.” A beat. “And yet, he never once deterred. He worked to gain my trust and even harder to earn my heart.” She tilted her head to the side and chuckled softly. “Did you know that he formed the Dora Milaje because I was so fearful of the palace guards?”
Y/N found herself grinning softly. “Really?”
“My husband was not perfect,” Ramonda trailed off, a tear leaving her eye. “But when I had nothing, he was everything.” She then reached over to place her hand on top of Y/N’s. “And you, my beautiful daughter, you have a support system even greater than that of the one I had.” Her head dropped as she sniffled, Jamyah looking up with wide eyes as though she wanted to know why her mother was crying. “You have a reason.”
Ramonda glanced down at her grandchild.
“I’m not the same person that I once was,” Ramonda.” She confessed, shaking her head and wiping at her eyes.
“And you never will be.” She informed gently. “Because you will be stronger. You are a wonderful mother, a phenomenal wife, a good friend, a blessed daughter, and a beloved queen. Yes, that man tried to break you, but he did not because there is a fire in you, child. A fire that not even Bast herself could put out. What happened to you, to me, to women all over the world does not define us. You are no victim, no hopeless cause. You are a queen, a daughter of Bast, and you are a woman. What stronger combination is there?”
Y/N chuckled through her tears as she remembered something.
Someone.
“Did you...did you hear….”
“The voice?” She guessed. “Of course, that guilt that follows you, that causes you to question if you did something wrong, if you could have stopped it. It takes time to go away.”
“But it does?” She swallowed deeply and sniffled. “Go away?”
“Yes,” Ramonda confirmed through teary eyes. “But only when your journey to healing begins.” She then moved her hand to cover Y/N’s heart. “My child, it is only when you learn to forgive yourself….can you relearn to love yourself.”
•••••
Forgiveness
Such a simple word with multiple meanings, meanings Y/N had to learn to understand.
Starting with herself.
“It wasn’t your fault.”
Every day she would repeat that statement while looking at her reflection in the bathroom mirror. Sometimes she would say it before bed, in the middle of the day, whenever she felt that nagging blame seeping in.
When she grew comfortable with that, she moved up:
“It wasn’t T’Challa’s fault.”
That one reaped more benefits than expected. She would always say it when he wasn’t around in order to ensure that he did not place further blame on himself. However, it also led to her ability to not have to be as dependant on him. Her heartbeat was still slightly erratic when he informed her that he had to leave, but the anxiety that accompanied his departure lessened over time.
His touch that ignited her to tense started to go away, slight intimacy returning between the two, starting out with him being able to grab her without her fearing what would happen next. His lips could graze her neck, his hands could roam to her backside, and they’d even moved up to makeout sessions that he always ensured to stop being things got too heated.
“It was Killmonger’s fault.”
That one was the hardest, causing for Y/N and Ramonda to spend extra time together. The queen didn’t like thinking about the man let alone letting his name leave her mouth, but she had to. He was real. What he did to her was real. Her trauma was real. And by acting as though he never existed, she was denying the existence of her pain.
She deserved to feel. She needed to feel.
She needed to accept that everything that happened was on the deceased, not herself, not her husband, but him.
Once that mantra was mastered, it was as though a heavy burden was lifted from her shoulders. She’d enjoyed the return of her daughter from the very beginning, but it was different. When she saw her little girl, she stopped seeing the innocent whom she’d almost lost forever.
She just saw Jamyah.
When she saw her husband, she stopped seeing him being pitched off a waterfall.
She just saw T’Challa.
However, when she saw herself, she still saw remnants of the woman who’d endured almost a week of hell and torture, but she also saw something else, something she thought dead.
She saw hope.
•••••
It wasn’t planned, nothing that she decided she was ready for when she woke up that morning. In fact, it happened in the most natural setting. She was in her bathroom, applying lotion to her body after her bubble bath, the door ajar as she caught glimpses of her husband ambling around the room as he spoke with Okoye concerning some minor dispute between members of two tribes.
Y/N looked in the mirror and studied her reflection, the black/silver shorts and thin sleeved pajama top, her face bare, her twists piled up in a large bun on top of her head.
She thought back to their first time together, or rather, their first attempt at intimacy and the familiarity of it all. A small laugh emitted from her mouth. There was something about that bathroom.
“Ilanga Yam,” she looked up to see her husband standing in the doorway, leaning against the siding, his arms crossed, a warm smile on his face as he briefly took in her frame to search for any sign of discomfort. “Are you alright?”
She nodded and pushed her fingers behind her ear as though she was wiping away hair, gracing him with a small smile before he turned to head back into the room.
“T’Challa.” He looked over at her and raised his eyebrows.
“Will you…” She stepped forward and raked her eyes over his shirtless frame. Y/N spent a few moments staring at his tattoo before she swallowed deeply and caught his eyes. “Will you make love to me?”
There was a deafening moment of silence, one where eye contact was maintained, heartbeats increased in frequency, and deliberation commenced. She waited for him to say something, to acknowledge her request, but he didn’t. He just stood there, staring at her with that same smoldering expression of contemplation.
“That’s okay,” she finally broke, her head dropping as she darted her eyes from side to side and licked her lips. “I shouldn't have-” Y/N attempted to disguise her disappointment and embarrassment by keeping her head down as she went to try to walk past him. “Let’s go to b-”
She stopped when he moved his muscled forearm to block her path; however, she still could not bring herself to look at him.
“Y/N.” She breathed in deeply at his use of her name, something he only did on rare occasions. Her stomach jumped as he gingerly moved the arm that hindered her around her waist and his hands went to her cheeks as he gradually tilted her head upward. “Look at me, Y/N.” It was nerve-wracking, but she managed to open her eyes, her lips parting as she forced a shaky breath out her mouth. “Will you let me make love to you?”
Again, another exhale was released, but this one was in relief as she placed her hands over his wrists and quietly nodded. She was immediately lifted into the air, T’Challa’s arms supporting her back and her legs as he led them over to the bed.
She expected him to lie her down as he normally did but instead tried her best to not show how perplexed she was when he sat down on the edge, letting her straddle him as she held onto his shoulders and he, her waist.
“Tell me what you want.” He spoke with closed eyes, his forehead resting against hers as she regarded him with profound confusion. His tone was not that of a sexual nature but of some other sentiment that she could not identify. “For tonight, and as long as it takes, I am at your beck and call.”
She quickly realized that he was allowing her to be in control, unlike their typical intimate activities where he was the dominant one. No, he was going to allow her to call the shots, to make her feel empowered, to let her be in control. All complete opposites of the last time she’d been forced to engage in sexual activity, and he knew that.
He knew that being held down, having someone force themselves on you was a sickening show of authority, an abuse of power, an immoral sin. He didn’t want that for them. T’Challa wanted his wife to be as comfortable as possible and to continue her healing as well as she had.
This was a big step for her and no matter how difficult it was for him to not step into his usual role, giving her body exactly what he knew she liked, he knew that she needed this.
“I just want to feel you.” She grasped his face as her eyes watered from the sentimentality of it all. “All of you.” She dragged his hands from her face to her waist, slipping them under her shirt and she motioned for him to remove it. “Just as I want you to feel me.”
T’Challa followed her command and carefully lifted her pajama shirt from her body, leaving her exposed chest inches away from his face. His eyes flickered from her eyes to her breast as she nodded and inhaled sharply when his mouth latched onto her nipples, his tongue circling her areola while his right hand lightly massaged the other other breast.
Her eyes shut and her head fell back as she wrapped her arms around him. T’Challa’s soft coils tickled her jaw as she found her body starting to respond to the delicious work that he was doing to her bosom.
Y/N started to buck as T’Challa’s mouth explored the body he’d been craving for almost two months, reacquainting himself with her sweet skin, and the pleasure that came from hearing her soft moans. His hands unconsciously moved down to her ass, his thumbs resting on the waistband of her shorts. She waited for him to prompt her to sit up so that he could remove them, but again, he detached his mouth from her neck to receive that non-verbal approval.
She quickly nodded and got on her knees as he slid them down to the bed, Y/N lifting her legs so that they could be completely removed. “I’ve missed you.” She confessed, grabbing his face to steal a kiss. “I’ve missed this.” The palms of her hand pushed lightly onto his shoulders, forcing them both back on the bed as she continued to familiarize herself with the prolonged taste of his mouth on hers and the deletability that accompanied that.
“As have I,” he echoed her statement, his hands traveling across her backside, lightly cupping her derriere. She moaned into their heated kiss and dropped her forehead against his shoulder.
“Take them off,” she instructed, her fingers playing with the waistband of his sweats. “All of it.” Y/N took a moment to catch her breath and fell on her back as T’Challa rose from the bed to discard his pants. He was exposed to her. She took in his nude frame, his erection causing both her arousal to pool and yet her nerves to grow.
She’d almost forgotten what lied beneath her husband’s regal attire.
The king slowly climbed back onto the bed, his wife reaching out for him as she reconnected their lips and dragged him on top. T’Challa suddenly pulled away from her, his hands going to her face. “Are you okay?” He searched her face for indications of further discomfort as she realized he must have picked up on the change in her heartbeat. “We don’t-”
She silenced him with a kiss, her eyes closed as she informed him with a shaky voice. “You were my first, and you will always be my last.” It took him a moment to realize that she was referring to the fact that Killmonger was the last person she’d had intercourse with. She didn’t want that to be the case anymore. “And I don’t care what they say, I will have another child. We will have another heir.”
His breath caught in his throat at her last statement, his lips going to kiss the top of her nose. “I shall give you another child, Ilanga Yam.” She nodded, bringing her hands down to her underwear to start sliding them off. “I don’t give a damn what it takes.”
Another unsteady breath as she was now completely naked. The both of them. Mind, body, and soul.
Her arms latched around his neck as she felt him against her slick opening, proof of her body’s yearning for his coating the tip of his penis. Y/N unconsciously jerked against him, the anticipation becoming too much.
“I’m ready,” she confirmed, her wrists crossing over each other behind his head as he glanced at her with slight trepidation only for his eyes to shut as she lifted her leg to graze his hip. “Please…”
T’Challa stared down at her for a few seconds. “I love you.” He whispered, his thumb caressing her cheek.
She smiled warmly. “I lo-ahhhh,” her head craned back against the pillow as he gradually started to slide himself in her, only to stop at the sight and sound of her reaction. “No, don’t.” She breathed, sliding her hips down to encourage him to continue. “It’s just...it’s been a while. Keep going...I’m fine.”
T’Challa hesitated but obliged, watching as her facial expressions changed with each inch. Shock. Discomfort. Bliss.
“Bast,” he dropped his head in the crook of her neck once he was finally deeply nestled inside of her. “Tight…” His voice was strained as her nails lightly raked across his back, the feeling of him completely submerged one that was both suffocating and satisfying.
“Move, T’Challa.” She directed, her eyes struggling to remain open as just his entrance was igniting various sensual sensations throughout her body. She was so sensitive for him, so reactive, so receptive.
Steady gasps as the king commenced with slow strokes, mindful of the pace and intensity of his movements. His eyes never left her face.
If it became too much for her, he wanted to be ready to stop before she even had to ask. However, Y/N had no intentions of allowing him to stop, his motions reminding her of their lives before the chaos, before the heartache, before the attempted ruination.
However, she knew that he was still hesitant.
“Don’t hold back,” she encouraged, holding his face and wincing as he rotated his hips. “You won’t hurt me.” Y/N chewed on her bottom lip to suppress her moans and brought his
forehead to hers, the king almost stopping when he saw tears. “I trust you won’t hurt me.”
However, he really did stop once he heard that statement leave her mouth. Ever since he was returned to her, he’d been fighting to earn that back, her trust, her faith in him, that the actions of one man don’t mimic the actions of all. And hearing her actually say it, the sincerity in her voice, it was too much.
T’Challa moved his arms behind her back, lifting her while still buried deep within his safe haven, and positioned them so that he was on the back of his legs while she was on top. He studied her face as she released a sharp breath from the abrupt change, the tantalizing feeling of having him so deeply embedded into her.
“T’Challa,” she moaned, her hands grabbing at his hair as he buried his face in her chest with his hands on her hips. “Yes.” She panted as he carefully guided her hips in an upward and downward motion while also allowing her to maintain the power of her ministrations. “Right there.”
“Do you like it, my queen?” He forced out, his tongue licking the valley between her full breast as rode him, her speed and intensity increasing by the minute. It was hot, it was passionate, and it was needed. She didn’t know what to expect sex to be like following such a traumatic ordeal; she had feared it would be filled with images of Killmonger’s attack, but it wasn’t. “Take what is yours.”
Perhaps it was because of the time she spent with Ramonda, the therapy sessions with her doctor that both queen mother and T’Challa helped pick out, the love and support of her husband, or even the presence of her daughter. Whatever the case, there was no fear, no inhibition, no flashbacks. The only person that she could think of and was focused on was her husband, the man underneath her.
“I love it,” she moaned and squeezed his shoulders as he also increased the intensity of his bucks. “Bast, I love it.” Y/N whimpered as she felt her impending orgasm, clutching his head against her and embracing the tightening sensations in her stomach. “Ahhh,” she came while digging her nails into his skin, mouth open, and head was thrown back from the ecstasy.
T’Challa went to capture her lips in a soft kiss and lie her back down but was surprised when she shook her head and pushed on his chest, forcing him on his back.
“I am just as much yours as you are mine,” she gasped, rolling her hips on top of his as she placed her hands on his solid core to steady her body. Riding her husband always was such an arduous yet fulfilling task and she wanted to make sure that the pleasure he’d just granted her was reciprocated. “I told you I that I wanted you to feel me too.”
The king clenched his jaw as his wife bounced on him, her slick walls coating his length, her breast jiggling from the force of her movements. He went to grab her hips to help steady her, but she pushed them away.
“That was for me,” she breathed, T’Challa groaning and nearly cumming right then and there as she slowly leaned back, the sight of her slowly grinding on top of him too much to handle. It was his favorite position to see and have her. “This….this is for you.”
He’d granted her a release: now he would receive his.
The king was nearly rendered speechless as he gazed upon her body, her hands playing with her breast as she continued to work on top of him, her back arched almost entirely while alternating her thrusts with the slow grinds that she knew drove him insane.
“You are a vision, Ilanga Yam.” He murmured, nearly gripping and cracking the headboard behind him. She wasn’t the only one who missed this. “You were made for me, sthandwa sam.”
T’Challa was unable to restrain himself any longer and reciprocated her thrusts with his hips, forcing her upright as she lowered her mouth down on his while grabbing his hands and sliding them up the bed.
“We were made for each other,” she corrected, their foreheads pressed together as husband and wife met each other's passionate movements with one of equal fire. Y/N cried out softly when she felt his member start to pulsate, his hands struggling against hers as they formed into fists. “That’s it...fill me with our next heir, my king.”
Instinct and primal desire overpowered T’Challa as he suddenly grabbed her waist and forced her on her back. Y/N gasped in pleasurable surprise as his hands went to the back of her legs and forced her knees to her chest as he started to plow into her.
“Yes, yes, yes.” She cried, her head nodding aimlessly about as she transcended into an outer body experience.
“You are my queen, the mother of my children, and my Ilanga Yam.” He declared, pulling himself all the way out, only to deeply plunge back in, causing her to blissfully groan. “Wakanda starts and ends with you.” She reached for him, pulling his mouth to hers only to moan into their kiss only seconds later. “You are Wakanda, and Wakanda is mine.”
Words weren’t possible. All she could do was nod furiously, beckoning his head into her neck as her fingers clawed at his back. T’Challa felt her starting to clench around him and realized that she was near her release just as he was.
“Cum with me, sthandwa sam.” He whispered into her ear, giving a few strong thrusts that only intensified her tears of pleasure before bringing both to their climax, his seed spilling deep inside her, coating the both of them.
T’Challa released his grip on her legs, gracefully letting them down as he pulled out of her and rolled onto his back. She immediately went to place her body over his, snuggling into the warmth of his chest.
Her breathing was labored as she pecked his chest. “I love you.” His bicep. “I love you.” She then sat up and laid her forehead against his. “I love you.” He reached out to cup her face. “Thank you.”
“You are my wife,” his thumb grazed. “I will never deny you this.”
“Not that.” She shook her head. “For loving me.”
He shut his eyes and kissed both cheeks before replying with watery eyes.
“I do not know how not to.”
A/N: Soooooooo
Idk. I suck at smut, but I tried really hard with this one. To make the love scene as realistic as possible.
It just....it felt right.
This chapter was for them.
Consequently, we might have another one before the last one so the next update might not be the last. I’m not sure.
Black Pink: Park Chaeyoung (Rosé) - Inner Planet Natal Reading
💕Hello! I’m here to talk about our baby Rose today!!! She’s such a sweetheart, I hope you like her as much as I do because she’s so precious and deserves all the love in the world.
For those of you who are interested in reading about the member’s dynamics, I’ll be doing one (1) overview of them all together and four (4) separate member relationship dynamic of each individual members. The first one (1) will be looking at BlackPink as a team. While the four (4) separate ones will be more in-depth and detailed focus on how the each member fit together individually. So to summarize: we’ll get to explore the professional side of the team, and then how individual members benefit from each other (self-develop) as well.
If you have any other suggestions for ‘themes’ or ‘topics’ to touch on, please feel free to send in an ask! 💕
If you’re here for Black Pink astrology, here is the Sun-Moon post! As well as Lisa, Jennie and Jisoo’s Inner Planet Natal Reading! I also have a Masterlist if you’re interested in other groups as well! 💕
💕disclaimer: I’m not claiming to be an expert astrologer nor do I know these people personally. These are my interpretations and how they’re working based on my experiences/studies on them. Everyone has different opinions/studies in astrology, please be mindful of others and all interpretation/experiences is valid to an extent. However, feel free to make your own post or skip if you strongly disagree. There might be inaccuracy and difference in opinions. But the point of this post is to entertain and relate. I’m hoping to help people with similar experiences and get people excited about astrology. Also, since we don’t know most of their birth times, I’m using the standard 12.00pm💕
Roseanne Park/Park Chaeyoung (Rosé)
February 11, 1997 (Auckland, New Zealand)
Aquarius Sun - 3rd Decan (ruled by Venus/Libra)
A goddess amongst us mortals 💕
Aquarius influenced by the planet of love and social relationships often have a dreamier quality to them, it doesn’t make them much less intimidating, but there’s a softness to their eyes that makes you want to get to know them better.
Sentimentalism comes through more easily, the intellectual barrier Aquarius Sun native tends to stick up in order to ‘bounce’ negativity can just as easily be a double edged sword for them.
There’s an innate need for individualism (in fact, Aquarius of this decan tend to exaggerate this even more to ‘stand out somehow’) since they’re more people-oriented (as in, they think about people more).
But with that, they do tend to exhibit more of their emotions, such as moodiness and more complicated feelings as well.
They’re emotionally sensitive to other people’s feelings and well-beings, and are highly ‘aware’ when others are feeling down. They can easily sympathize with others, and often be there for them when they need them to be.
However, when they themselves are feeling down, they can tend to repress it to just their personal barrier. What this means is, they need time to think about their own feelings.
They’re often much more comfortable analyzing their own emotions, debating what they’re feelings and need to step back and just -- think about the validity of feeling a certain way sometimes.
It makes them cautious in letting people in, even though they’re keen to learn more about others/be there for close friends.
There’s an emphasis here for keeping a close group of friends, and perhaps a large pool of acquaintances and people who support/admire them for who they are.
Social relationships really do guide an Aquarius of any decan to a certain extent, but with Aquarius-Libra there’s an actual connection even to those they might not necessarily like as much.
Aquarius-Libra are often highly romantic people. Not in a sense that they’re in love with someone or something very often, but in a sense that they tend to have an idealized view of things sometimes.
Much more in-tune with the concept of those around them and perhaps, seeking perfection in the form of an idealized humanity. It makes it all the more harder to love humans/people around them without finding faults, flaws and critically evaluating them all the time (which is why they’re sometimes moody/more reserved about relationships sometimes).
Rose-tinted (get it?) glasses especially when they find a thing that they love (often inanimate, like an activity) -- there’s a serenity to them that comes with loving something. It can be as simple as -- a self-care routine, a favorite series of books, or even certain types of music.
There’s a sense of inner contentment, but also prideful emotional satisfaction with just things that they enjoy. It becomes their sense of-- finding comfort and grounding in the world around them, their individualism is externalized through those activities (for Rose, it might just be music)
Aquarius Libra natives exudes a charm to others, often physically beautiful and clearly intellectually stimulating (their eyes light up when they engage in conversations they’re interested in) -- you want to impress these people with your mind rather than your wealth, your goals or your emotions.
They often put in effort to they way they come across-- aesthetically, they have an eye for picking out certain objects that would enhance their physical features/attractiveness whether they realize this or not. Self-expression helps with keeping them ‘guarded’, but also drawing people in. Those who aren’t intimidated by them past the first round, and they like it better that way sometimes.
They let their aura speaks for themselves, often times they tend to be the most--quiet out of the bunch. Considering how Aquarius-Gemini or Aquarius-Aquarius engage others in conversations to make up their mind about them, Aquarius-Libra can often just ‘read’/analyze people just from the way they dress/form relationships with others-- and are much more content being observational before they engage with another person (if they’re not too shy to engage with them).
With Libra in their decan, they seek out others who has a liveliness to them. Unlike Aquarius-Gemini who exudes their own personal brightness, Aquarius-Libra likes to find traits in others that in contrast, amplifies their own sense of serenity. (It becomes tied to their sense of self and pride in themselves).
Since they’re much more intune with their emotions and can often feel shy/weighed down by their own thoughts/feelings, people who are naturally exuberant or brings more motions/activities to their daily life draws them out of their shells because they can stop thinking about it. If only for a moment.
It’s necessary to feel accepted in society for the Aquarius-Libra, even if they’re rebellious about certain concepts or ideas within that society.
It’s crucial for them to be themselves, but at the same time feel that they are still loved/accepted. This might lead to a fear of opening themselves up completely in relationships (platonically or otherwise) since they don’t know how it works.
There’s a degree of balance to everything, and the Aquarius-Libra likes to keep this all the time. So sometimes when they feel like they’re genuinely upsetting a balance, it leads them to finding difficulties in being their true selves, or trusting others to accept them as they are.
Besides the emotion-aspect of Aquarius-Libra, it’s also important to note how just they are. Often takes a high road, this is where the idealization comes from. They’re often analytical and deep-thinkers. Usually in forms of concepts ( ‘that wasn’t fair, it was wrong of them to treat you like that’)
They tend to see the best in people, but this comes from a deep-rooted value system. It’s a stance where it’s not necessarily any person’s fault exactly, but socially we’re all groomed/conditioned to behave in a certain way that can be detrimental to us/others around us.
There’s always a better way to do certain stuff. And being morally/socially conscious of it will help us all better in the long run. Engaging in a fight to re-do our behavior should be a main priority for everyone, in order to achieve self care/healthier relationships with each other and therefore-- a better society.
This placement can also make her strive to aim for perfection which fuels into her insecurities, because her sense of self, her self worth and her ego is all tied to becoming this ‘perfect idealized person’ she often analyze/criticize herself compared to other people for it.
Aspects:
Sun (Aquarius) - Opposition- Lilith (Leo)
She doesn’t think she can make it, some self doubt particularly when it comes to her own worth (sense of self) and a little to do with her ability to perform (the public loves her/her artistry)
It might also have a little to do with her unique voice, she finds herself too ‘untraditional’ and feels wary/cautious of the traditional public.
Her shyness/reservation can also be part of this. Since Lilith feels like an inner subconscious fear she may have even though she wants to achieve something from it. It can manifest in forms of insecurities, whether the person realizes this or not.
Although she knows she wants to pursue something in the industry, she wasn’t sure if the society was for her.
She also doubts her own attractiveness/charm, often compares herself to others. Particularly those who seems to be more vibrant, exude more energy or just--- confident in themselves (Leo) or has more artistic promise.
It’s interesting cause Aquarius and Leo are sister signs, so she sees people who craft themselves and still able to ‘be’ themselves as-- something very courageous and great, she aspire to be just as authentic.
Often feels like people can see right through her sometimes. Or through facade/defensive barriers she might’ve put up.
Wants to be ‘enough’ and even though she’s admired for being enough, she still wants to be more. Dissatisfied and often very cautious/wary of people around her even when she doesn’t have to be.
Aries Moon (1st Decan)
Aries Moon in combination to her Aquarius Sun can sometimes makes her overthinking sense of self (Sun) go ‘ah fuck it’ and does things unexpectedly (Moon).
If you think about it in terms of weight, her Aquarius Sun may have more substance and controls all her worries (weighs down her sense of self) that it limits her ego/self-worth. While her emotions are the lightest part of her, and give her motion she needs to instinctively pursue her goals.
It can be sort of -- relieving for Rose to have this Aries Moon. One moment she’s overthinking and weighing herself down (’what if I’m not enough, what if they don’t like me?’) and then the next minute, all her fears are proven wrong when she actually does something about it. (’that was easier than I expected!’)
Constantly amazed and equally baffled by herself. At the same time her heavy Aquarius placement can feel like ‘woah maybe I need to slow down, think about it more’ and her emotions are going ‘no! you’re always overstressing yourself! you won’t know until you do it’ -- causing her even more unnecessary worry (over-analyzes herself- Sun) when she has time to process the things she’s done/stuff she wants to do (Mercury).
It’s not quite-- a push and pull dynamic, since her Aquarius does tend to see results from this Aries Moon. Usually it’s very positive results, but she always worry about the downfall.
Balance, remember? And then this Aries here just goes barging in one direction without playing her cards in a way that might save her later.
She’s worried she might have to do damage control, Aquarius wants control, but Aries is ultimately good for her.
This is a really good example of how Aries moon can benefit someone, since people tend to give a lot of shit about having one.
It really brings more positivity to her life, it brings her prosperity and joy and often fortune, but still the Aquarius is reluctant on accepting it.
It’s mostly to do with credits. Like the Aquarius didn’t feel like it did anything, so it’s reluctant on accepting any credit or enjoying the benefit even though it’s clearly given to them for free (Libra-Decan, remember? has to be Fair.)
Because they feel like they’re not contributing to the success. it wasn’t ‘theirs’, it was the Aries. Even though the Aries goes ‘here, see? this is all for you. We’re a team now.’ If it’s not the Aquarius way (if they don’t have a degree of control over it) then they’re reluctant to accept even the percentage of the success-- it doesn’t feel right. (Prideful/Sense of self is compromised.)
The Aquarius definitely has a right to be worried though, since Aries can tend to do things so fast and decisively that it leaves no room for fore-thought or after-thoughts.
The relatively balanced and steady-footed Aquarius would feel abit ‘oh god, oh god’ around the quick-to-act Aries-- particularly when it comes to their decisions or temper.
Aries moon needs instantaneous gratification, they’re often responsive and reactive-- if they find something funny, they’ll let it be known that it’s funny. If they find something offensive, their face will say it all.
Not one for being dishonest or putting up a front-- if they find you unsavory, the least you will see from them is a distrustful face or completely dismissing you.
Perhaps they may have a harder time withholding their tongue, but they can have tact (to an extent) and they will use the high moral justice Aquarius-Libra has to judge you.
Often feels frustrated being boxed in with routine or every day life, there needs to be some sort of stimulation for them to feel emotionally gratified.
Perhaps a new adventure today, or they’re trying to break into a new habit. Their personal goals can often seek to be motivations, but also hinderance because success doesn’t come fast enough for the Aries Moon.
They want to be something immediately, and sometimes a couple of practice should be enough to achieve that, right?
What would help them is setting up realistic goals that caters to their tolerance/temper. Like, they can have an abundance of will-power, energy and ambition, but what they really should be looking at is breaking it all into mini-goals according to what will give them enough emotional gratification, y know?
A step-by-step approach to reaching mini emotional gratification should help them, and before they lose all patience/tolerance for something (’gosh this is taking so long’)-- they should take breaks in between and let themselves drift to a different goal as well (multi-tasking between goals).
It can be like, being on a treasure hunt. There’s a big goal at the end, but what matters the most to Aries moon is perhaps breaking it off to mini goals or ‘stages’ in order to get to the biggest goal. There should also be ‘side paths’ to keep them entertained, because they will get bored of continuously pursuing the long-trek to the end goal.
Distracting themselves by moderating a reward-system for themselves, instead of trying to push/force all their energy towards biggest goal would help alot.
It just helps with being more thorough, and perhaps with strategizing their energy/temper as well. It’s self-regulating in a way. But the key is tricking themselves into doing it. They’re like-- cats. Lose interest fast but in the moment can get very zoom-y.
Anyways this Aries Moon is definitely helping Rose to a certain extent. It seeks independence, like true independence. It puts her out there in the world and make her be something. It pushes her to work harder and harder, brings passion and instigation into her life.
She’s emotionally tied and in-sync with her inner self, she feels things passionately and can relate to others in the same manner just as well.
She’s often very private, has a personal side to her that she lets people in and is emotionally enriching to be around (like, a cave by the sea shore). She often brings activity to those who might have more stagnant moons (Lisa and Jennie) and she’s often highly defensive of her friends because she is close to them.
Loyalty is very important, especially since she has a hard time letting people in (Aquarius Sun). When she does let them in and let them experience this private side of her, she cares deeply for them.
Aries won’t ever let them feel like she’s not protecting them, in fact she’s often very defensive of her friends. She can get confrontational, but it’s often more emotionally enraged.
Her feelings are richly responsive and passionate/bursting, when she’s hit with sudden news (like her pets dying) she can tend to react without thinking in the sincerest way (absolutely no fronting, and in this case-- ends up crying). It makes her an honest and caring person, someone you really want to take care of and look after.
People think that having an Aries Moon doesn’t make you temperamental, but it does. It goes through emotional fluctuation, and emphasize this even more because of the Libra-Decan in her sun. With an Aries Moon, she can find herself frustrated one moment and then motivational the next.
She tends to externalize this outward- unlike Cancer/Pisces Moon who withdraws into themselves. There’s a sense of being connected to the outside world at all times, and most of the time it’s regulate-able just by doing certain activities/distracting herself.
Aspects:
Moon (Aries) - Sextile - Venus (Aquarius)
Her emotions are often in line with achieving her goals and visions (what she want), because her Aries Moon can often translate whatever she ‘wants’ into what she ‘needs’ -- making her passionately driven towards the things she feels like she ‘needs’ most in her life.
Therefore her Venus often feels satisfied without ever needing to do much externalization itself.
In a way it’s sort of like-- if her Venus plants the seed, she makes it a mantra. And then when her emotions acts up, she goes for it.
It’s subconscious for her since it’s been planted for so long, that the growth process is so quick and fast.
She sees results and her Venus feels satisfied, albeit also baffled by how things came about so fruitfully for her.
With a positive aspect to her Venus, it’s most likely she faces good public opinion of her.
Her instigating, direct and often action-ready attitude makes people really feel like they could rely and depend on her, like everything is going to be alright.
In a way, she doesn’t need to exude optimism, she invites other people to feel optimistic just by her actions alone.
Moon-Venus aspect also makes her appear more soft, and a great listener to others.
People feel like they’re being taken care of, or truly listened to by Rose.
It’s just-- there’s a connection from the outside (Venus) to her inner self (Moon) that’s so wholehearted and true? She often finds herself in company of sympathetic people, or people who might need a little sympathy themselves.
It also gives her that feminine look to her fashion, since she tries to show herself through her fashion.
It makes her have a ‘bad bitch’ kinda vibe but also a ‘big softie’ one as well. Both Aries and Aquarius are kind of like that, they’re big softies even though they seem like a bad bitch.
Moon (Aries) - Opposition - Mars (Libra) (R)
Her emotions are passionate, yet her actions are much more passive. There’s a natural collision here between the signs and the force of the aspect.
Most of the time her, immediate defensive posture is to attack-- before she can rectify or meditate the situation completely.
This causes some inner tension where she often thinks after she reacts ‘ah I really shouldn’t have done that/why did I do that’ and tries to act in an even more peaceful, serene, complacent manner.
To make up for her true self/thoughts (Aries Moon).
Even if she feels dissatisfied/she’s being unfairly judged, she sucks it up just because she feels bad about reacting in the first place.
Most likely, it has to do with upper management or elders. Things that can’t really be logically justified that makes her upset about apologizing at all.
If it was fair, or just-- like her actually wronging someone (with legitimate reasons) she wouldn’t feel bad about apologizing and in fact be whole-hearted about it.
This also leads to feeling like she has a boundary to her, like she needs her space and can get volatile because it’s a conflicting aspect.
People naturally know when to stay away and when to approach her, since it can be clear in the way she snaps or get moody in the situation.
It’s inner restlessness, a frustration that’s externalized. Although there’s nothing bad about it, aligning herself in a more grounded manner might help her feel less ‘judgmental’ about herself and scaring others around her.
Moon (Aries) - Sextile - Jupiter (Aquarius)
Gives her a good impression to people around her, even those who doesn’t know her personally.
She feels serene, and is naturally remembered for her kind-natured and more composed self.
Her Aries is taken in a good light most of the time, although it can tend to alarm others.
She’s remembered for her intellect, and her ability to think on the fly-- and take action as needed.
Her confrontational attitude is assertiveness, not really a vice to her from other people’s perspective.
She’s also remembered to be intelligent, often merciful and giving to the world around her due to Jupiter and Aquarius nature.
Becomes some sort of older figure in the way she gives back to people around her (Jupiter) offers solid advice, and her Aquarius has a soft-light to it making her easy to just-- rely on.
At the same time she can feel like she fits in with people who are younger, or share the same mental age as those who are abit more childish.
She’s a dichotomy of older and younger at the same time. An innocent and pure kind of charm, mixed in with wisdom.
Moon (Aries) - Conjunct - Saturn (Aries)
This part of Rose comes out alot.
She wants to take more of a stable approach, keep her feet on the ground with everything that’s going on.
Despite feeling doubtful, she’d rather live daringly for the things she wants than never tried at all.
She tries to control her actions through her feelings, but it just makes her Aries all the more successful.
She wants to discipline her instinct/control this drive inside of her but finds that she can’t, atleast not to the extent she wants to.
Learning to love her Aries and not fearing it would really benefit her.
But that also means confronting why her Aquarius wants to control her life and relationships so much as well.
She’s afraid she’s going to fall hard and fast into an unbalanced or deceptive relationship (platonically or otherwise) that she can’t get out of until it’s too late.
Control in this case is a defensive mechanism, while Aries itself is her natural defense she should use.
Moon (Aries) - Sextile - Uranus (Aquarius)
She feels align to her higher sense of self, usually her Aquarius takes precedent and her imaginations/idealizations are out of the roof.
Despite all her fears and wanting to be ‘in control’ -- her Moon here understands the subconscious better than she does.
In fact her mercury might be detrimental to her in the first place (since it’s also in Aquarius).
She draws in like-minded people, people who can teach her and she can learn from.
People who genuinely like her and feel inspired by her, she really has-- too much self-doubt sometimes that she doesn’t trust herself to know this.
Has moments of clarity and thankfulness when she lives in the now, and takes off the self-delusion she sets on herself.
Moon (Aries) - Trine - Pluto (Sagittarius)
She does well when there’s change, particularly through travels.
Often times, meeting new people benefits her greatly in adapting and accepting herself more.
Since Sagittarius and Aries are both fire-signs that when they focus on the doing aspect, they’re both less stuck in their self-suffering that way.
Aquarius Mercury (1st Decan)
Naturally intelligent and inquisitive, they’re often engaging conversationalist who seems to simply surprise others all the time.
Often has interesting questions to ask, or opinions on something.
They’re not the type to be people pleasers, and generally tends to contribute more to the conversation by posing more questions and expanding on things rather than giving a straight answer.
Everything is debatable, but also not restricted to change.
Unless they clearly made their mind up about something (usually when they feel attacked for their opinion or has to take a defensive position) they can be very stubborn and fixated individuals who will cling on to their opinion and fight till the death for it -- it’s just a matter of pride (does it out of spite/personally offended).
With Aquarius Mercury she likes to persuade others by suggesting a different perspective. Since she can often times detach herself from the line of thought, she can offer fresh and new ideas to consider and add to the pot (conversation).
You can think of it as -- witches potion brewing together. The conversation and accumulation of ideas is in the cauldron, and they take turns stirring to make the potion. Rose’s the one who guides the formula, she seems to know what ingredients to add to balance and stabilize the potion, so it doesn’t explode in the end.
It’s productive, and conductive. She acts as a mediator but also the devils advocate.
Can sometimes argue for the sake of arguing, or take on the ‘bad cop’ just to theorize scenarios.
She’s mischievous this way, but not necessarily mean-hearted or ill-intended.
Often times she knows when to joke and when to take things seriously.
Might ask more questions or be more wary than others, due to her brain thinking and processing the ideas at a faster pace.
(this gif is such an Aquarius-mood, not like mean-spiritedly but just-- how truthful the song is.)
She’s playful, and often likes engaging with others for ideas. Sometimes she just needs to soundboard herself off of someone.
Relies on her social relationship to help her edit and fine-tune her ideas (since it can get Loud inside of her head)
She likes to communicate artistically, reading and writing or composing is more of her style.
She enjoys putting her creativity outwards into self-expression, particularly when it comes to fashion choices or artistry.
Venus often blesses her with a positive charm to things she produces or says, she can often encourage others/make people feel touch by her sentimental words and softer-side.
Mercury (Aquarius) - Trine - Mars (Libra) (R)
Her actions aligns with her thoughts, but often times not really with her emotions.
If she plans and does something, she tends to do it well. Is gifted in this aspect to appear more harmonious, complacent and serene.
Although she can be firm in her opinion, it’s often not grating for others to give in to her.
A big aimer and the biggest thinker, she possesses a need to help others socially through her visions and mind.
She wants to create a percentage of reality that would benefit from this vision, gives back to the world her way.
Willing to participate in larger/collaborative projects if it means a wider audience, she’s agreeable and tolerant of others if it means the greater good will be met.
Highly intelligent and often very very fair, she won’t stand for injustice and will feel personally offended by it.
Mercury (Aquarius) - Sextile - Saturn (Aries)
She wants to put her mind to work, most of the time it comes with controlling and organizing herself.
Her inner-world is often trying to figure out how to concentrate without losing patience, and she often has great focus when it comes to apply what she’s learnt into reality as well.
She has a need to take things one by one in order to build ‘long-lasting support’ (Saturn) yet at the same time, she likes being a bit unorthodox in the way she approaches things.
Dreamier quality to her voice and her singing ability, it really brings to focus why Rose’s just the slightest bit more ‘floral’/’sentimental’ look than the rest of the members. (arguably)
She feels connected to her subconscious, and has an easy time drawing from it into reality.
But also clearly astute to what their intentions are.
Nice and to the point with this one!
Aquarius Venus (1st Decan)
Aquarius Venus really puts an emphasis on being as open-minded, socially aware as possible.
In a way that; yes, they know what’s happening (is aware of the conventional) but at the same time they are different from it somehow.
Overall scope of things: there’s a need for freedom here-- a need to just break away from what they know and engage in something new. Perhaps a change of pace is necessary for Aquarius Venus to truly feel like they’re in control of themselves. ( ‘birds gotta fly’ kind of deal)
Oh yeah btw, I’m going to address Aquarius Venus in sections.
Overall philosophy, ideas/expression, fashion choices and then people-related matter.
To help you understand the complexity of it and how it all ties in together under Venus ok?
Because it’s not just all about love, its about other things too. This will help you understand Venus better as well!
So, their take on expressions, ideas and freedom as a whole usually make them a bit of a trend setters, they has their own way of doing things.
They may be a bit rebellious but other’s often view it in favorable light.
Not really people who places great emphasis on like -- ‘look at me!’ type of deal when it comes to freedom of expression.
They don’t want to appear like they tried very hard, they want everything to look effortless. Even when they did try very hard to appear that way.
In terms of fashion, she might want to make a statement, but she doesn’t want to walk out and make people think she's failed at it.
Like ‘oh yeah that could work but it’s not exactly working’.
There’s a deep fear there, despite wanting to fit in there’s a need to be different.
It’s about acceptance and tolerance. That’s why they preach so much about being open-minded.
So most of the time, Aquarius Venus tends to go for comfortable yet stylish. It’s all about feeling comfortable on them, so they can always have a back up reason for wearing what they’re wearing ( like ‘feel it, its the texture’) That's the best summary for Aquarius Venus fashion choices.
Now onto Aquarius Venus in terms of people.
To them, there’s a hierarchy to everything they appear to be (what other people see them as).
They try very hard to keep a certain standard and not be outrageously ‘bad’ at anything.
As in, they physically take care of themselves, emotionally balance themselves out, being social-media savvy, engaged in the world somehow on a lot of different topics.
There’s a very clear line of thought to how they crafted themselves out. And that’s deliberate on their part (developing Aquarius).
Now, there’s a criteria of how other people should react to them if they want to get to know them.
Besides being hard on themselves, they are also hard on others.
Keep in mind this criteria can be abit unorthodox so when I say ‘hard on others’ I don’t really mean hard on others. Just difficult to get to know. Like a maze.
First of all, at the very top of that hierarchy, Aquarius Venus evaluates on morality/moral codes.
They’re the type to be like ‘ok, but what’s their take on this issue?’ because they’re critically aware of others and wants that inner depth or engagement. Show them some personal oomph, be as socially aware as them if not more, don’t be dick about it. They need stimulation at the intellectual level. That’s their main thing.
Following that, it comes autonomy and sense of independence.
What’s the other’s view on respecting other’s boundaries? What’s their view on their own independence? Are they reliable people? Are they rebellious? (With a cause?)
This is Aquarius Venus seeking whether or not the other person might ‘fit’ or ‘accept’ them. It’s them vibing the other person out.
Everything below, is just about accepting them as they are. This can seem kind of abrupt, but it makes perfect sense.
It’s about personal freedom and self-expression. If the person isn’t too much of a bore/nag/critical of them, then Aquarius Venus are usually fine with it (unless Moon placement says otherwise).
Usually, this means Aquarius Venus tends to gather a large pool of admirers and acquaintances, but not necessarily for the sake of romance.
Aquarius Venus prioritize accepting humanity first, which makes them have this large lee-way of personal acceptance in others as well. After that, It all just comes down to personal engagement, y know?
Repeating back to the top main priority in their list again and again, will possibly give the anyone a good chance of becoming part of the Aquarius Venus’s inner circle. It’s about proving yourself, without trying too hard about it. Whether or not they’ll become something closer/more, depends on the nature/balance of the relationship.
The other person absolutely cannot control the Aquarius Venus from having these large pool of people (friends/acquaintances) or restrict them, because that’s essentially part of the Aquarius Venus.
It’s like asking someone to cut off their arms so they can depend on the other person for life? It makes no sense to do that/ask that of another person.
They don’t like being criticized, so the other person can’t be nagging them about their personal rights/freedom of expression.
It’s not a matter of what the Aquarius Venus native values in the others, it’s just a matter of what they can tolerate in others that keeps them from connecting fully to another (platonically or otherwise).
Aquarius Venus can tolerate a lot of things about the other person, as long as they feel respected/admired to be themselves as well.
I hope this helps with understanding Venus abit. I know its brief for each section, but I’ll hopefully expand more on this later with another Aquarius Venus in my future posts (for now, these are just my thoughts).
Aspects:
Venus (Aquarius) - Trine - Mars (Libra) (R)
She likes relationship, or rather she likes the idea of relationships.
Whether it’s romantic or otherwise, there’s always a sense of care about her when she engages in any type of relationships (platonically, friends, family, otherwise).
She doesn’t like being restricted, and can sometimes be indecisive when it comes to -- committing to others.
Like she wants to, and sometimes she likes the idea of intimacy. But actual intimacy can scare her because what are the boundaries? What are the limitations? She’s most often fearful of the restriction than the actual giving part.
She gives and puts so much effort into making sure all her relationships are engaging and personally stimulating to her.
It feels almost unfair that she might have to restrict herself to just one and imbalance all the others she’s carefully crafted and cared for already.
She’s generous, and often willing to go a distance for others. Although she’s no fool, she often has good advice to give that benefits others around her.
Has a good head on her shoulders and can sympathize to people who might be more intellectually inclined (Jisoo’s Aquarius Moon)
Venus-Jupiter aspects makes her easily popular and approachable to others, she’s charming and full charisma.
Venus (Aquarius) - Sextile - Saturn (Aries)
She understands, essentially, that to an extent her activities/activeness helps her through the in life. It helps her become more successful
She doesn’t tend to show off and isn’t frivolous with her spending, she often takes care of people around her-- particularly giving back to her family members.
She thrives on being connected to others, on the bigger meaning of life.
Often times she is scared of losing these connections to people, and it becomes stagnant in a way that she feels stuck between what her heart wants (to be open) but also what she fears to do (opening up).
She likes people, and she likes helping people. But at the same time, it can feel like people want more from her-- particularly emotionally. That she’s not willing to give (yet).
Venus (Aquarius) - Sextile - Pluto (Sagittarius)
Does well with change, in fact she often embraces it. Most of it means activities, getting out from the norm and getting to learn different things, meet new people.
Challenging herself to adapt and change helps her.
Libra Mars (R) (1st Decan)
She’s deliberate, often doesn’t like acting without thinking.
She tends to worry alot about what other people feel/think of her before she does something.
In a way she’s very people-conscious, or self conscious.
Her Mars being in retrograde creates a lee way for her emotions (Aries Moon) to get out of hand, it takes the role of the Mars sometimes and she does things without thinking.
Often, her Libra feels unsupported or flounders at trying to keep it’s domain. It seeks help from her Aquarius, who tries to control her Moon (emotional response) and restrict her more.
To Rose, balance really is what she aims to have within herself, but her initiative/action oriented response is what’s helping her forward.
There’s a power struggle here because on one hand, she can see and appreciate her Moon for what it does to help her (aspects to the Moon) but on the other hand, she wants everything to align and work together.
Her emotions are kind of just ditching everything else about her in the dust, makes her feel unbalanced or unsure. It’s like 20% of her is always on the go and the rest (80%) of her didn’t even realize.
Imagine it sort of like a group of friends discussing what to do on a road trip together, they’re at their destination and they’re talking about whether they should break into groups for lunch, shopping and adventuring or resting. There’s that one friend that got impatient and already went off on their own, so the rest got worried and tries to follow. It’s kind of like that.
Since it’s in retrograde, she often feels very unstable of her own action sometimes. She feels like she lacks initiative or action in the way she wants things to go (smoothly, peacefully, like a Libra) and her Aries Moon way isn’t fulfilling all the emotional criteria she needs.
She’s indecisive, but knows her indecision is going to just make her frustrated with herself and go ‘ah shit might as well do it!’ (Moon).
Patience is not really something she has for herself, and the way her Moon is treating her Libra Mars can often make it feel helpless/powerless.
Redistributing power and being firm like ‘no, let’s keep it fair’ would help her.
Although her Moon might be huffy about it, if her Libra learns how to be more forceful within itself she can take control over her life (instead of relying on her Aquarius which is Just Doing It’s Best even though it’s Possibly The More Self-Destructive Solution And She Knows It)
Watch for not being so passive-aggressive because of built up frustration. Particularly from her Sun as well.
She can tend to play the victim/innocent even though she’s actually in the wrong, or stirring up emotional drama if she projected this outward without a reason.
Interesting mix where her Libra is her weakest but is actually developed the most, her Moon is her strongest but needs to develop more. Her Aquarius is trying to fit it all in between.
If the problem lies just within her Mars - Moon, she could fix this issue of power redistribution and then she’ll have an easier time dealing with her Aquarius. Since the problem here seems to be more of a power struggle between Libra-Aries. Her actual Sun is influenced by Libra as well, which made it confusing to distinguish what is having a problem with what.
The Aquarius/Libra Sun comes into play because she has the weakest link coming from her Sun itself. She’s not fully developing her Aquarius but rather the Libra side of her Sun. And she needs more time/energy to focus more on that instead of being distracted by controlling her moon.
Aspects:
Mars (Libra) (R) - Trine - Jupiter (Aquarius)
She has good luck with being seen as generous, her actions often aligns with the way people perceive her.
She likes to do things for charity, often for other people and has a way of diplomatically subduing situations before it arises into actual conflict.
Mars (Libra) (R) - Opposition - Saturn (Aries)
Doesn’t think she can do certain things, can have conflict thinking she behaves brashly sometimes.
Can tend to pick up a hobby and then drop it, causes even more inner frustration at her ‘indecisive’ nature.
Mars (Libra) (R) - Trine - Uranus (Aquarius)
She has a great ability to help others, particularly her open-mindedness and tolerance for a lot of things.
She is patient and often kind, willing to listen and offer advice. She won’t cut her words but she has a way of speaking that’s persuasive enough people think she’s helping them (which she is).
Asteroids
Scorpio Chiron
Taurus Juno
Conclusion:
She has so many aspects from her Moon and Mercury that in contrast the 1 aspects to her Sun stands out.
Her lack of confidence in her sense of self makes her seek it out in others.
Particularly when it comes to her Taurus Juno. She wants to feel stable and warm externally since it’ll help with her internal self.
Also fits in with her ‘ideal type’ (’a handsome guy who can play the guitar’ - Aquarius/Libra decan are attracted to poets/lyricist somehow.)
She’s much more confident in her ability to take action, think critical and do things because it silences her self-doubt, her view of herself and her self-image.
Has a growing self-esteem that she needs to address and see what’s really true and what she’s just projecting as herself, can tend to play victim in a lot of situation if this self-delusion continues.
Sensitive and sentimental she mostly projects this outwards.
Known for being particularly generous, she links her own beauty to being ‘nice’ to other people. Not actually ‘kind’ to herself.
Despite having a Libra Mars, all the aspects connecting to it acts more aggravated than how it naturally is. In a way she can tend to overthink things and let her Aries Moon take action (emotions over planned execution). Making sure she realizes this and doesn’t let it happen as much would help.
Fun-loving, yet soft-spoken. Exudes a sense of comfort within herself and can project into self-confidence (Aries Moon) for an extent of time.
She’s really more of a softie who needs a lot of love. Whether or not she’s a Pisces rising doesn’t really matter, since her placements are already pointing to her being abit shier/more sentimental than a typical Aquarius tends to feel comfortable showing at all.
💕The internet has been really wonky so I had to do this in parts. I hope you’ve enjoyed the last of the Black Pink girls Inner Natal Planet Reading analysis! Next up is going to either be their overview or Lisa’s Member Dynamic. I’ll probably post the overview first due to it being requested before I do the 4 part series. I’ll also be continuing the SVT series now since I got Jaebum’s chart out of the way. Although I have to admit I have this intense need to finish Namjoon’s Inner Natal Reading but I know I’ll burn myself out completely doing it. So who knows what will come next for the boys! Hope you enjoy this anyways! 💕
Okay so this is supposed to match Part 1 of a fic I’m dropping soon. It’s sloppy lol I used Pic Collage bc I didn’t have the patience to deal with Canva and I did it on my phone🤷🏽♀️
Okay but imagine Jennie being really into superheroes, she gets really excited when she talks about them and its always discussing who can beat who while the other girls try to follow along, one day she gets really intense when discussing why none of the avengers can beat Thanos alone until shes interrupted by Jisoo who says that Saitama from one punch man can kill Thanos in one blow and Jennie just stares at her.
Rays of sunshine shining through strands of her hair, looking like a crown. You’re trying to capture her royal smile on the camera, but it’s hard to catch the image when you’re lost on breath. All because of the woman behind your camera lens, a lookalike of a goddess. Her smile turns wide and earnest, the flirtatious smirk now just a memory abandoned few takes ago. “Beautiful.” is what you mumble all of sudden.
Waiting for her call after she walked you home. It’s the evening, and you have all sorts of dark possibilities keeping you wide awake. What if she gets lost? What if someone picks on her? You start typing a message for the fifth type that evening. Before you can even wonder whether to delete or send it, Jisoo finally calls you.
The smell of exclusive shop she has taken you to. Its heavy and exotic, making your insides turn from how alien it is. But even if you’re unsure of how to feel, you can’t leave. You stay on the seat, waiting for Jisoo’s head to pop out from behind a curtain, and be followed by the rest of her body, now dressed in an expensive pair of jeans.
Her hand feeding you sweets when you’re busy with work. Being unable to give Jisoo all of your attention makes you ashamed, but she doesn’t mind. It’s something you have to take care of. The least she can do is keep you well fed.
Falling asleep on her shoulder during a night out with your friends. You don’t remember when the consciousness left you, neither does Jisoo. She’s used to the weight of your head. Some friend points out your state, and Jisoo only smiles. In her eyes it’s the sweetest thing imaginable. When everyone is focused on someone else, she places a small kiss on the surface of your forehead.
JENNIE
The smell of her hair shampoo filling your lungs. The closeness of her body warming you up. The softness of her skin under your fingertips. You want to tell her how much it means to you to have her in your embrace, but you get so lost in the way she feels, you forget your speech. When she notices you’re not letting her go, she giggles.
Acting indifferent when she takes your food without asking. You have every right to be mad, but you can’t even come close to the feeling when it’s Jennie behind it. Instead you just watch her from the corners of your eyes, fondness blooming inside your chest. When she isn’t looking, you push the dish more towards her.
“Wait.” Jennie does as asked, eyes widening at the sight of you kneeling in front of her. She stammers a “what”, looking for more words to ask you, but nothing comes out. When you’re finished tying her shoelaces, you stand up and offer her your hand once again. She takes it. “I could’ve done it myself.” “Yeah. So?” The two of you don’t expand on the conversation.
Struggling to wash stripes of liquid lipsticks off of your forearm. They’re a consequence of your visit at the shop earlier that day. As you’re scrubbing your skin raw, the smell of Jennie’s perfumes reaches your nose. It’s momentary, but still makes you smile.
The coldness of her expression freezing you. As heart-melting as she can be, her angry side is one to be reckoned with. Jennie doesn’t want to talk, and you’re in no position to stop her from walking away. Later when you make up, you ask her why does she leave your side whenever angry. “Because you’re too adorable to stay angry at.” is her answer, followed by a pinch of your cheeks.
ROSÉ
The casual way she places a hand on your thigh in the most random moments. She doesn’t seem affected by her own behavior, comfortable the way she is. You don’t want her gone. It’s just nice to notice her doing that, feel the warmth of her palm, sense the honesty in her gesture. “Nothing.” you say once she gives you a questioning look.
Braiding her hair out of boredom, while she’s too taken by the TV screen. Chaeyoung doesn’t realize what you’re doing. At least not completely even when you pull on a stray lock, causing her small pain. She turns around, thinking you wanted her attention, then looks back at TV. The day after, both of you laugh at the results, half of her hair curled, half straight.
Walking down the street, huddled together under an umbrella. The weather is ugly type of cloudy, and the heavy rain has already soaked your feet. Neither you, nor Chaeyoung speak. All that matters is to get somewhere dry as fast as possible. In the most random of moments, you catch her humming quietly a familiar melody.
Leaning over the kitchen island, eating your homemade casserole straight out of the heat-proof dish. Chaeyoung giggles happily at the taste, excited to announce that she was right to make changes in the recipe found online. You nod in agreement, your mouth too busy chewing to speak.
The thudding beat shaking the ground beneath your feet. The overwhelming smell of sweat. The pain in your ears. Chaeyoung’s body is rubbing against yours as she jumps along to the melody. Others are also pushing at your silhouette, but that’s the magic of concerts. When your date notices your hesitation, she pulls you under her arm, asking whether you’re alright. You say you are, and Chaeyoung kisses you for a short moment, only to then pull you into dancing with her.
LISA
Holding hands under the table as you await your meals. You’re talking about your days, smiling, frowning, laughing as you listen to one another. When the waiter brings you plates, you forget about your interlocked fingers, and just start eating with the other one. “Hm?” you turn to look at laughing Lisa. “Nothing, nothing.” and she follows your lead.
Being scared. Not of her, but of the consequences your disagreement may be the origin of. You spend hours turning over her blunt words, worried that some of the hurtful ones may be right. Even when she apologizes and locks you in the tightest of embraces to show you how much she’s ashamed of ever hurting you, the possibility of her being honest haunts you.
Pieces of clothing you find around your home. Their appearance is a product of pure coincidence, not ulterior motives. Lisa tends to be forgetful when spending her time at your place. But can you really blame her? How can she focus on anything other than you? (Her words, not yours.)
Attempting your best to keep straight face when you’re play-fighting. Lisa knows you’re not really angry at her, but without seeing your smile, she can’t be 100% sure. So she does one thing you can never survive without melting inside - act as cute as possible. Lisa’s pouting, pulling at your hands, talking in pure honey. All until you eventually relent, and give into the gentlest of kisses that follow.
The contests of speaking in pure cringe that you so often busy yourselves with. They consist of lines, all made of pure filth, all almost impossible to choke out without frowning. Chaeyoung often asks you why are you doing this to yourselves, but you can’t figure it out either. “It’s just a couple thing.” you conclude one day, and Lisa only nods is agreement.
Black Pink: Lalisa Manoban (Brief Inner planet Natal Reading)
💕 I saw a photo of Lisa and I’m overwhelmed with love for her. This is new test for a different text-format/’theme’, unlike the ‘overview’ series I’m going to go through her chart one by one (w/o houses), looking at the planet and it’s aspects and the decan it’s in. We’ll see how it goes! 💕
💕disclaimer: i’m no expert on astrology but these are my interpretations of the signs and how they’re working based on my experiences with them. Everyone has different opinions and studies in astrology, all interpretation and experiences within the realm is valid, however feel free to make your own post or skip if you strongly disagree. There might be inaccuracy and the point of this post is to relate to someone, entertain and have a fun time, validate people with similar experiences and get people excited about the girls+ astrology. Also, since we don’t know their birth times, I’m using the standard 12.00pm💕
Sun in Aries - 1st Decan/Ruled by Mars (Aries)
I’ve already went ham into this with the ‘BP: Sun & Moon’ but I’ll give a brief reintroduction on this as well! 💕
Sun in Aries especially in the 1st Decan, exhibits traits that emphasizes their Arian nature- energetic, lively, uncomplicated and innovative. They’re often already on the move, most likely to get things done physically rather than wait on long-awaited plan or drawn-out emotional speech that would ‘inspire’ them. They’re quite pragmatic, and although they admire and respect other ways of doing things, they’d much rather just get on the move and actually do it to achieve what they want
Impatience and impulsiveness might be a vice, however their greatest strength is their ability to move on and direct their energy forward.
They’re not big on planning ahead, but that creates space for innovation. They live in the now, and unlike other signs, they benefit a lot from this kind of mentality.
The way they go about things is pretty direct, active and straight forward. They often get a bit whiplashed if someone tries to play games with them, as they’re pretty forthcoming people and expected the same back.
They can be careless, lack tact, impulsive and reckless to a fault without realizing what they’ve done. But they’re quick to want to atone for any mess they might have made.
Aries lives simply in this way, they know what they want and they do whatever is necessary to achieve it. They don’t mind cutting corners, but often they see it as underhand or unnecessary, it’s the journey that matters to them.
Most of the time, Aries appreciates challenges in their life. They feel best when they can overcome those little objections and feel ‘progressed’ in how far they’ve come. They like things clean and tidy, a fresh slate or a fresh start to the day.
Sun (Aries) - Conjunct - Venus (Aries) [1 degree]
This is a good aspect to have! Conjunction around the lesser degrees, between aspects of the Sun-Venus can help the native Arian showcase their much more charming side to the public and smooth out rough edges they might have otherwise.
Lisa already has this working for her even when she wasn’t in the limelight, people with Sun-Venus aspect tends to exhibit harmonic, pleasant and charming traits (think Libra/Taurus) and places an emphasis on their Sun that they want to be perceived pleasantly this way.
They tend to be alot more easy-going with this aspect, working that Arian charm in a non-confrontational manner and bringing abundance of joy and enthusiasm to the people around them.
There’s a like for social interactions and pleasantries, diplomatic and often generous. They can sometimes become pushovers when they’re trying really hard to please someone (in the industry) or don’t know any better.
The ability to attract people to her through her charm (Venus) is convert, she exudes her individuality and self-expression (Sun/Ego) and if the person responds positively, she might find interest in them. This however, can mean that she might need validation from other people or put pressure on herself if she doesn’t receive positive affirmations. Learning to balance it with validating herself and finding a mixture of self-love within her own body might benefit in balancing out and stabilizing this aspect.
Sun (Aries) - Conjunct- Saturn (Aries) [3 degrees]
Again this is a good aspect to have especially when it’s conjuncted. I kind of do 3 is the max and 5 is pushing it, but I know some people accept it at lower degrees than I do and that’s fine too!
Sun conjunction Saturn can put a damper on the Sun but in a way, it might benefit them more in the long run which is what’s happening in Lisa’s chart.
She understands responsibility and long-term commitment, and she’s not afraid to sacrifice abit of her vitality in order to achieve it.
When it comes to commitment, she puts in hard work and acts cautiously. She rarely makes impulsive decision that would damage or effect anyone else (family/members) long term, she has the forethought and sight to be mature when she needs to be and handle responsibility well.
She sees and understands the significance in establishing long-term relationships (members) and has patience, tolerance and loyalty to them. She puts in work and dedicated effort into establishing this bond, and expects back on their relationship. People who lacks this Saturnian trait would turn her off.
Sun (Aries) - Sextile - Uranus (Aquarius) [1 degree]
Although it’s a harmonious aspect, Uranus is a generational outer planet ruled by Aquarius, having an Aries sun there can mean her individuality is expressed fighting for the underdog.
There’s a fiery quality to it that both Aries and Aquarius posses, a strike against tradition and you can see it in the way her ego (Sun) expresses her style (Venus) in how she dresses/performs.
Black pink is amazing because this aspect comes through very vividly, like 2NE1 the unusual styling and effect their stage performance and music has is trans-generational. It doesn’t cohere to just one aesthetic taste, it’s something most people can get into very easily. I suspect the other members probably has similar aspect in this area as well. They’re standing for something they’re comfortable in.
Sun (Aries) - Trine - Pluto(R) (Sagittarius) [1 degree]
Sun is the planet of the ego and Pluto is the planet of transformation, this emphasizes her moon even more since it’s in Scorpio (ruled by Pluto) she often feels that she’s going through different phases of growth and transformation all the time.
Between comebacks and stages, Lisa is constantly evolving and she realizes this. It’s a double whammy for her both in her moon and the aspect.
Her ego shifts along with her transformation, but at the same time her pluto is in retrograde. She might not show it as often but she is going through alot of these changes.
She can be slow in incorporating it into her ego, or letting her inner change/growth show in other aspects of her life. She feels it, she knows it. But that doesn’t mean she has to show it (abit of an escapism)
Moon in Scorpio - 2nd Decan/Ruled by Neptune (Pisces)
Again, I’ve touched on her moon in the the ‘BP: Sun & Moon’ but here’s a brief description of it here as well 💕
Scorpio moons can go through many intense emotions and internal growth rapidly, they often feel overwhelmed by their emotions and their thoughts transforming at a pace and intensity that even they can’t control. This can be devastating and amazing, depending on how one views it- their emotional growth goes through periods of death and rebirth and often pushes them to go through serious transformation within themselves throughout their entire life. It’s exhilarating, giving and tiring at the same time.
Scorpio has this intensity inside of themselves that, when projected outwardly onto other people you can see the storm inside of their eyes. Their emotional intensity doesn’t just stop there with themselves, but they can also evoke this kind of intensity in other people as well.
Lisa’s moon is ruled by Neptune/Pisces, which rules her subconscious and her dreams. Most likely her Moon in Scorpio is influenced by these elements, and her transformation often has to more to do with herself and her own growth than any external output.
Pressure she puts on herself, her dreams and aspiration she carries for her family to do well in foreign lands, insomnia, lethargy and depression might be prone to these individuals (again, I’m not certified to diagnose anyone with medical help, and I’m not trying to do so, if someone is suffering from mental illness or requires assistance in these areas, please consult a doctor or a medical assistance if they want to seek available help)
They might have the tendency to use sleeping as a coping mechanism and escapism in order to avoid going through these transformation too much (escapism or fighting to simplify the situation aka ‘im fine’ ). It can lead to repression of emotions or inner growth in order to stabilize her body.
Her Virgo Mars is the only earth sign capable of stabilizing her, but it’s also the only out put to her emotional transformation. She might’ve learnt to utilize this subconsciously in an unhealthy way to cope with how much she’s feeling and how much she’s going through. Most likely she did so anyways, especially with Sun-Venus and a strong Taurus/Venus influence on her Mars. She needs to unlearn how to do this and express herself when she needs to, or seek help when she needs it.
She desires stability but it she needs to realize it doesn’t need to be internal. She can seek stability externally through support and close friends as well. She should show this through consistency in reaching out to people, but in order to do so she needs to vocalize it or exert her Mars and Mercury into helping her with her Moon.
She might also be prone to having transformative dreams, or going through upheaval inside her subconscious. Suppressing these emotions during the day might point to having to confront them later when she’s in the unconscious realm, this can lead to very emotionally taxing dreams or adventurous ones, having to confront and balance negativity to positivity at some point. But it’s in no way unhealthy compared to the above (better dealing it through dreams than actively trying to repress it all the time conscious OR unconscious).
There’s a restless quality about her when she ‘can’t deal with her moon right now’, she tends to seek outlets that can extort her resources (i.e. retail therapy, shopping, negligence) a square is a difficult aspect but it’s capable of overcoming.
Her moon (emotions) has a direct impact on her luck (Jupiter) through her actions. Although it’s in 3rd degree, it might not be working strongly for her since she can easily learn to self-discipline.
She can become aloof, cold or negligence to those around her when she’s dealing with her emotions/internal turmoil. Absentmindedness or too coldly observing, she can neglect or make others around her feel like they shouldn’t support her which doesn’t reflect her natural charisma.
Lisa can have her moodiness, and its in this aspect how it effects those around her and her immediate resources (money, luck, etc).
Again, her moon is working to bring her down. All her internal turmoil is effecting to some degree her relationships with others and her ability to perform sometimes. With her moon (emotions) squaring her Uranus (rebellion/innovation/technology) this can be interpreted in so many different ways.
Bigger picture is, she might find herself at odds with the people around her, slow moving and unstable or unsupportive at times because she’s lost in her own turmoil or has some doubts, her friends can feel unsupported or in-stabilized by her when they require her vote of confidence in them.
Lisa can be disagreeable to rules or authoritarian figures, or act out/lash out in a way just to prove her point across if she feels she’s unheard or misunderstood (her Saturn is too strong and working too well for her to do that, but she might have instances)
She might find bad news due to technology (it might bring her grief) or does something online she might regret later (hope it’s retail therapy)
Anyways its not a bad thing to have difficult aspects in your chart, all these are capable of the person who owns the chart to overcome and they can absolutely do it.
Mercury in Aries - 3rd Decan/Ruled by Jupiter (Sagittarius)
Curiously this is un-aspected, but it seems to be working strongly in her chart and is very good for our girl Lisa! 💕
Mercury in Aries natives possesses an innocent charm about them, this is directly amplified by Jupiter’s influence (Sagittarius) her Arian charms becomes expanded upon, and her youthful vitality and charisma that makes her so lovable is put into a softer light. She acquires a happy-go-lucky trait to her that has people falling head over heels to do as she asks, often popular.
People like her because she’s straight forward and simple, she’s often humble and enthusiastic which is refreshing to be around.
Mercury in Aries are also magnetic in a way that they possesses great self-will that their Aries sun already has. The way they think and talk about things are quick and to the point, fast and decisive.
She can streamline progress and gets points across simply and easily, she’s amiable and likes helping others with a jokester kind of joviality to her. Often capable of lightening up any situation, she’s great at taking the weight/heat off of shier signs like Virgo or Capricorn who might get embarrassed by a mistake.
Mercury Arians in the 3rd decan likes to help others out, they possess an expansive open-minded quality to them that likes to learn and give/take equally. They’re willing to help people in worse situation than they are if the opportunity arises.
Venus in Aries - 1st Decan/Ruled by Mars (Aries)
Aries in Venus says alot about her charisma on stage and her style that draws people into her. Her powerful performance really came through with her artistry, and it’s all in her Venus amplified by her Sun and Mercury of the same sign and similar element. She has so much passion (fire) in her chart (Aries and Sagittarius) along with the magnetic quality (water/Scorpio and Pisces) - the clash of the two elements in force makes for a powerful charisma in a person.
Venus in Aries in general, has a pretty daring and up-front style about her. She has a cheeky smile but also a confident, independent women.
Venus in Aries often has this quality about them (especially in 1st degree) anyone who wants to be with her has to match up to her in some way. She won’t ever settle for less than what she deserves, and if she finds you unworthy- well, she wouldn’t even give you her time of day.
That’s not to say she’s a minx all the time, Aries Venus charm extends to more than just her confidence. Her innocent childish charm complements the tougher side of her personality well, even the aegyo and possible tantrum she might pull is endearing.
There’s a fun-loving quality about them, like they’re not hard to please but you have to do it well. However, if you take too long to approach them they’d already be gone. They don’t tend to stick around, even if they’re going to give you a chance. They’re turned-off by wishy-washy behaviors, too much ‘games’ and not enough stimulation (slow burn) and not enough activities.
They’d rather take the lead in love and other areas in life, let them have their moments. They also like a little bit of competition, and likes games in the spirit of having fun. If something is done with intensity or mixed-up emotions (i.e. complex emotions directed towards them) they’d probably say no to that as well.
Phew Im relieved for her! Venus conjunct Saturn can help trim and regulate the more impulsive habits of a native Arian.
She’s much more thrifty than the typical Arian, and less likely to spend her money impulsively if it isn’t going to serve her long term. Saturn itself has a quality to endure and likes to establish long lasting relations. It wants to establish longevity within oneself and with others.
She’s faithful and loyal to her friends and family. When in love, she exhibits more of her deeper, caring and nurturing side Aries also have.
She understands her traditions and her duties to the people around her, and can mature her Aries up a little to becoming more reserved and humble. She also can appreciate a little bit more sensibility in people, suitors who only wants to have fun doesn’t catch her attention unless they show the same quality and good sense as she does.
This really helps her Aries plans ahead in her future as well. Although there’s an innate need for the immediate now, she’s not oblivious to how long-term planning can benefit her and her activities.
The planet of love (venus) and the planet of innovation (Uranus) can sometimes mean she’s more adept to nontraditional relationships within her life.
This can be in her love life, associates, working relationships or personal relationships. She’s bound to have an abundance of different relationships that she might not even know how to categorize.
But when she feels comfortable with this aspect, she’ll be ok with it. The idea might unnerve her at first, but sextiles typically come to fruition if she works on understanding herself and her expression better.
She can accept different types of people she’s met in her life, her open-minded sincerity (Uranus/Aquarius ) is met with pleasant charm and a refreshing disposition (Venus/Aries) .
She can also see insincerity in people. The charmingly quick wit of Aquarian and the intensity of Scorpio can bring this about even more in people who has this aspect. She likes to meet people at a middle ground (Aquarius) somewhere they can compromise to being in between.
She’s freedom loving and likes to give back the space to other people because she feels that’s what they need in order to grow.
She likes her independence (Aries) and even when she has that intensity about her, she doesn’t mind if others are a lot more cooler or different from how she is- as long as they give the same respect back to her.
God this is the tightest degree she has. And I’m really glad for it too.
Her areas of passion and interest (dancing/performance) is transforming her life (Pluto) this is the aspect you can really see how she belongs on the stage and why Black Pink is so so good for her.
She has a needs to do something with her passion physically (Aries) and she finds it in the form of dance. It saved her. She found ‘it’. She doesn’t really know what to do with it yet, but she dances because she loves it. She wants to show it to the world, to more and more people.
Pluto talks about transformation, and Sagittarius talks about learning and travelling. Being able to transform and learn every time she dances, she thrives on it. When she can travel with the group on tour, and she can dance on that stage, she lives and breathes passion. She transforms herself when she dance.
She can express her venus fully and comfortably, she takes on a whole new persona every time and she feels so lively and bright when she can show and do things she’s passionate about.
This aspect is working amazingly well for her, and her charisma, her stage presence her magnetic aura (Scorpio/Pluto) it all comes and leads down to this. I’m so happy for her and this aspect. God.
Mars in Virgo (R) - 3rd Decan/Ruled by Venus (Taurus)
Again this is un-aspected, so it’s probably working like her mercury. Usually un-aspected planets are working strongly for the person or it can be hard to find. I think personally for Lisa, she might not find this aspect in herself (un-relatable) especially since it’s in retrograde. It can be abit more slow moving for her to realize or self-actualize than others.
Mars in Virgo are focused, detail-oriented and often busy people. They can become nervous if they don’t work a lot (when bp comeback doesn’t come, most likely Lisa NEEDED those modeling ads to keep her nervous energy at bay) they become restless if they feel like they aren’t being productive, and do their best to serve or work towards a project.
Mars in Virgo can be prone to micromanaging alot, and this might affect them personally. They can appear abit scattered or all over the place (trying to do everything at once) as well as micromanaging their feelings or emotions ‘not right now, lets do that later’ - this especially in retrograde, makes them notorious for being harder to anger than even a Capricorn Mars (who actively repress their emotions) Virgo still needs to explode, but more than righteous anger they are more prone to bursts of verbal attacks and creative criticism than anything else.
They’re less confrontational, and would probably not even realize they’re angry or upset until days later. Lisa having this in 3rd decan AND retrograde, she’s much more prone to neglecting her emotions until later or not realizing them at all, with an innate need/influence to keep peace and positive emotions at all times- she can even neglect her own emotions in order to keep the balance or diplomacy in situation.
However, if it overwhelms her (both Virgo and Taurus are earth signs, they’re good at suppressing but that doesn’t mean they don’t feel deeply.) she can breakdown pretty easily when she bottles it up too much and be overwhelmed with emotions. It’s good to realize this sooner and learn how to manage her concerns in a healthier way.
Conclusion:
God I love her.
That Venus-trine-pluto aspect at 0 degrees really did me in. It sealed my coffin and I’m forever in love with her please write that on my grave stone.
Usually, Venus-Pluto aspected people tend to have a charm to them. The sexy Scorpio type charm? Even in square or opposition aspect it can come across as magnetizing to other people. Lisa having this working FOR her is amazing to her own benefit. She deserves the world and if she could have one thing in life, it’s this. Her dance IS her escape from her mind. Her performance and travelling and being the group helps her with her personal growth and development, it saves her vitality and her life. She found a good output for her energy and she can finally learn how to unwind and relax.
Lisa has a lot of nervous energy about her in her signs and aspects, especially in her Virgo Mars being un-aspected and her Uranus/Jupiter squares. She’s actually doing pretty well not having a lot of difficult or ‘disharmonious’ aspects to worry about or overcome. At the same time, her mind is her biggest enemy and that in itself takes a whole lot of energy to conquer.
💕gosh this was really fun to do, time consuming but less taxing on me to provide in-depth explanation on how they’re all working together. I just had to do them separately. Anyways, I’m really glad I did this because I got really excited for her on that one aspect (as well as other areas in her life) I really hope to explore her chart further, maybe romantically or sexually because I totally pg-ed it out on here to save materials for next time 💕
