#bpd crush

[dearrachel]

How do I miss you when you aren't even gone?

[dearrachel]

I don't want your unconditional love. I want everlasting adoration. I want to know that you'll find me fascinating for the rest of your life.

[dearrachel]

I'm grateful for what you've awakened inside of me, but mourn that you aren't here to bask in the rewards of the love I've sewn from your light.

[dearrachel]

Don't forget how to love me.

[dearrachel]

I need advice: The crush that's not responded to me since last Thursday will be off work now and for the next few days. He still hasn't responded to my texts. I want to text him to say what's up, but I don't know if I should? On one hand, I'm afraid it'll look desperate and ignorant that I can't take the hint that he's gone. On the other hand, I want to shove my insecurities away and just demand his attention. But see, i'm afraid of falling into old behavior of begging the wrong lover to love me. Should I just keep myself away from him or just text him and deal with whatever response or lack of that I receive?

[futuristichoagiehandsslime]

¿Quién carajo te mandó a hacerme reir? Ahora no puedo parar de pensar en ese momento

[dearrachel]

I love the way I make myself question everything. Insufferable doubt is sexy.

[dearrachel]

Yes, I am a fucking creep who is way too attached too quickly. 🙃 life is fuckn grand. But dont worry, I just curl into a ball and regret myself. No harm.