When I turned 18 my mother told me that I should be grateful that she was letting me stay at home as long as I want bc she got kicked out when she turned 18
And she doesn't want me to move out. She keeps saying that she wanted me to wait until I had some more schooling and bla bla bla
BUT!
She also says when I move out that that's it! I can't come back home and I can't store stuff bc she's going to repurpose/rent out my room
One: weird contradictory ideas but w/e
Two: this terrifies me on a very deep level bc while I don't understand when parents keep their kid's room exactly as it was so it becomes almost a shrine of sorts and I'm not expecting that. But to deny me the ability to move back home should I need I've had a extra cushion removed incase I fall and also to repurpose my room so fast when we have at least one other bedroom to use. . .
I don't have anything to tie me to where I am and my bedroom is proof I exist and to remove it as soon as I leave the house feels. . . Almost like erasing the fact I was there? Idk if that makes sense
