#brainissues

[shewillbeshelby]

I could have the best things in my hands and find a way to fuck them up. My brain impulses infuriate me, why the hell did I do that plays in my head like a broken record. Begging for forgiveness in my head while my mouth stays tightly shut afraid ill say the wrong thing again. Getting angry and embarrassed and sad when someone rightfully gets mad at me for whatever the hell I just did.

Let's text an ex

Let's throw shit stupidly in anger

Let's knock over your wife's drink accidentally because brain said throw the yarn at her head to be funny and end up getting grape koolaid everywhere.

Now we stay on the couch embarrassed and sad all night.

I hate me

[ericlvargas]

So I think I've had my first hallucination in awhile...I hit my favorite comic shop on the way back from Bellingham, and as I was flipping through their box of previews catalogs, I swore I saw catalogs for July and August in the box. But, then I realized the catalog I was flipping through that I thought was for July was actually the one I already read for June. And upon second inspection only catalogs for June and May were in the box...I think I might be finally losing my tenuous grasp on reality... #ericlvargas #brainissues #insanityimminent