#brainzcoaster talks

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Its so funny how i got the ultimate "im going to fucking kill you" mental disorder

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I have such mixed feelings with bblena bc as someone with experience having bipolar who dated someone who had schizoaffective seeing the way people talk about them feels kinda huuuuhhhh....

Also ik comic does not equal cinematic and asexuality is a spectrum and ace people can still be in romantic and sexual relationships but seeing how some people talk about yelena feels kinda huuuuuuuhhhh......

And ik fiction is a playground and im a big proponent of freedom to break free from canon but people being outraged over turning any gay character straight but crickets to turning an ace character allosexual is kinda huuuuhhh.....

And also seeing that one of the writers(?) say the harassment they were getting from angry bblena shippers is worse than angry scarlet witch fans is actually HORRENDOUS.

And seeing how some bblena shippers talk like theyre above people who dont ship them..........

Seeing how they talk like bblena should actually be canon because it would be stupid or whatever if they arent has me like huhhhhhh..........

Seeing how some bblena shippers talk like its only yelena that saved him and completely ignores the role of the whole team and the emphasis on a whole support system instead of "(romantic) love saving all" has me mmmm.......like yeah its ok since its fiction but this combined with everything has me euugh.....

Talking like both having depression and recognizing that in each other and wanting to save the other is soulmateism....

This coming from someone who shipped bblena bc I DO see how cute they are. But all this just sours the whole experience for me.

Honestly just posting this makes me feel like im going to be skinned alive like that writer(?) but I had to express all this.

I think i could still ship bblena but like...privately???? The community really kind of fucks with my head and i had to leave the spaces because it was genuinely mentally fucking with me

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Inside u r 2 wolves

U r bipolar

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Universe: here. Since you like death and rebirth so much bitch.

Me: *is given bipolar disorder*

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Maybe its her (medication). Maybe its maybelline (hypomania)

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Ofc im obsessed w sun and moon imagery. Ive been bipolar all along

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Im like if a sad person was happy sometimes

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I cant take nyquil bc of lithium interaction WTF