Congratulations, you’ve used your knowledge of the heart’s noblest emotion to manipulate and destroy someone. *from bash. chair is exiting stage left and hiding from char's rage*
REIGN SEASON 2 || ACCEPTING
HE’S STANDING IN A RUN DOWN INN. it was the last place he could think of anyone looking for him in. after he’d seen sebastian in that tavern, quite nearly POISONING his veins with alcohol, he’d known he couldn’t stay so close to the castle any longer. not when his heart tried to CONSTRICT itself around his mind every time he so much as THOUGHT of sebastian. it was MORE THAN HE COULD BEAR. even feeling the gaze on the back of his head now as he REFUSED to look at sebastian made his throat close up.
“—- but if i am wrong then send me away. if i’m not wrong, then KISS me, damn you, and be with me and give us the END we deserve.”
THAT’S ALL SEBASTIAN HAD SAID. that’s the only part that mattered the rest wasANGRY & WELL DESERVED. liar. coward. cruel. they were all words that fell off of sebastian’s lips like A C I D on the prince’s ears. he knew each was TRUE. what kind of man RAN from the one he loved out of FEAR? the one currently staring out of the window, apparently. every word leaving sebastian’s lips drove the STAKE farther into his chest, chipping away at the crease in his brow until his face became STOIC. he could not bear the weight pressing down upon his shoulders. he’d gotten in too deep —— done something he’d SWORN he would never do —— FALLEN IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED PERSON.
NOW HE’S STANDING THERE; unmoving, utterly silent. how he WANTS to turn to him & kiss him & apologize & make him forget he ever had a WIFE to begin with. but he doesn’t. he CAN’T.
❛ THIS ISN’T A CHOICE I’M MAKING OUT OF FEAR. i’m TRYING to take care of my people. my family. YOUR family. what do you think would happen if we were CAUGHT? you would have shamed your WIFE. your brother. your CHURCH. i’m a PRINCE, sebastian. i can’t linger in a castle with a man i can NEVER marry. marrying claude would have FORCED me to live alongside you & kenna’s CHILDREN. i couldn’t bear it —— && DO NOT LIE & SAY YOU COULD. i have to think of my people. i cannot give up my countries reputation for you, as much as i would LIKE to, & trust me when i say that i would marry you if it were possible, sebastian. but it is NOT, & we have to stop ignoring that fact. what we F E E L does not change things. not when i’m a PRINCE& you’re a bastard of a DERANGED king. can’t you merely look at our time together for what it WAS?exciting, & fun, & PASSIONATE. but that is all it can ever be. you knew that from the beginning, didn’t you? ❜
HE DIDN’T MEAN A WORD OF IT. he was RUNNING. he was fearful. he was IN LOVE with someone unattainable. it was SAFER to go back to condé && be with women who meant NOTHING than be with the one person who meant TOO MUCH. he could only suck in a sharp breath & find one last thing to place the final nail in the coffin.
❛ I’M LEAVING. i’m returning to condé. i have duties that i cannot ignore, & a queen that is probably quite FURIOUS with me for abandoning my vow. go back to your WIFE. make her happy. have children. forget EVERYTHING i ever told you because it matters no longer. what i feel for you changes nothing. if anything, just think of all of this as a LEARNING experience. i told you when it started that i was merely showing you the ROPES. ❜ make it sound like you don’t care. ❛ i’ll make sure the invitation to my marriage, whenever it does happen, gets lost on the road. just don’t tell me when your first child is born, either, ❜ he murmurs quietly. he couldn’t bring himself to say none of it had MATTERED because it DID. he can’t look at him.
BUT THAT’S WHEN HE MAKES THE MISTAKE. he DOES look at him. his throat constricts & he clenches a fist at his side. he’s crossed the room & placed one last FIRM kiss to sebastian’s lips, hands cupping his face tightly. he knew he was doing NOTHING but encouraging their affair. & that’s why he breaks away after a moment, eyes closed tightly, brows knit close together. ❛ STAY ❜ the word escapes sebastian. louis can only shake his head, hands sliding down to the male’s neck & across his shoulders before leaving him. ❛ our love will D I E in that castle, sebastian. i’m afraid i’m not willing to let it LIVE first. ❜
AS HE BACKS AWAY, sebastian is ANGRY again. he has a right to be. louis desperately wishes the male had never come looking for him. it would have been an EASY separation. not GENTLE, but more easy than THIS. he listens to the harsh words about manipulation leave sebastian’s lips & quickly FORCES blurred vision away from his lover. ❛ MEN. we’re leaving tonight. we’ll reach condè by morning if we hurry. ❜ his men rustle in the hall, gathering their things. louis picks up his sword & coat before stealing one last glance at sebastian. ❛ i’m sorry. ❜ he says simply.
AND JUST LIKE THAT, HE’S GONE.