I discovered BB when I was in eighth grade, so about in 08-09ish. I was going through the worst of the worst. I was depressed, had a shitty relationship and even contemplated suicide I was so miserable. One night I was on iTunes looking for music and in the top 100 was “I will not bow” so being myself I was like okay this sounds cool. shortly after that I started looking into more music of theirs, and the deeper I went the more in love I became. finally I found a band/artist that truly spoke to me, that almost understood what I was going through. Their music did more then make me happy, it pulled me out of suicide and gave me back my life. I know it’s basic or weird to think a band saved someone’s life, but they did. especially Ben. His voice reached out and spoke to me and I can’t thank him enough for everything he’s done for me, even though I’ve never personally met him.
This past July, the 26th to be exact, I finally saw my favorite band in concert. I was so nervous it was crazy! my anxiety was off the charts and I almost had sort of a mini panic attack I was just all over the place. as soon as the intermission was done after Starset played (another amazing band that you all should check out), the lights went out and they walked on stage. my heart bursted, and all my nervous anxious feelings went away in an instant. I never felt more at home then I did at that concert. I wish I got the opportunity to talk personally to Ben about my experience and how him and the rest of the guys really saved my life, but I didn’t. one day maybe, one day. Fortunately, after the concert they tweeted a photo (the one of Ben posted above looking on to the concert) and I tweeted to them about how incredible the night was, and Ben favorited it. What made me so happy was not only did my favorite artist actually notice me, but he noticed me out of all the other people that have been tweeting him and the band for months! as you can see above, my tweet has been the only tweet he’s favorited this year (other than the second post under mine). it’s like I felt so important in that moment and I got so close to tears of joy.
Ben, if you ever see this, thank you for everything you’ve done. whether you honestly realize this or not, you truly saved my life and you truly gave me the willpower to say fuck it and keep going no matter what. I’m so glad you & the boys are back, and I’m so happy that I could’ve been apart of your comeback. I’m so fucking happy you gave music and touring another chance even with the amount of pain you were/are in. I fucking love you and your music, I hope one day we can meet and sit down and talk together..until then..ROCK ISNT DEAD! ❤️