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Did I Start Existing Yesterday?
Because I cannot remember being in this story
The evidence says that we were happy
The pictures show me
Under the stars
Traveling and laughing and loving
And wishing on a dandelion
To never be apart
We wanted to be loved
I no longer recognize your voice
In the videos I have
We forced us to love
What we truly did not want
All for the sake of
One dandelion seed not
Dying in vain
can we at least share melatonin?
i haven’t been sleeping well. i’ve always been more of a night owl, but i’ve recently stayed up to the point where i’m inadvertently becoming a morning bird too.
you haven’t been sleeping well, either. you were always the first to sleep between the two of us, but now i see your “Active now” sign lit green on Instagram far later in the night than it should be.
are we both tossing and turning at the same times now? only turning to find that the other isn’t where they’re supposed to be? have we both become insomniacs since the only melatonin we needed before was taken in the form of our Goodnight texts?
we cannot sleep anymore. we are together again, at least, in this way.
Does this make me over it?
I woke up today
and I did not cry
got dressed today
and I did not cry
glanced at my body in the places
your hands once laid
and I did not cry.
I went to work today
and I did not cry
I made that dish you like
-but just because I wanted it
and I did not cry
heard that song you always sang
and I did not cry.
New lover met my eyes today
held my hand today
held me close today
kissed my lips today
we made love today
And all the while still hoping
That I would not cry.
Sorry that I was just what you had, and not what you really wanted.
“If you’re really back this time, just tell me you’re actually mine.”
“I want you to be happy. If happy is somewhere that I’m not, then leave me and go find it.”
Nothing hurts more than an “I love you” you can’t say.
I changed my life for you and watched you change for them, too. I thought I could win your love but the winner had already been chosen. Even so, for no one else would I rather my heart have been broken.
