#sad prose

[quilaudatur]

I spent too many nights hoping my absence meant something to you.

[thebluewaitingroom]

how silent do i have to stay for you to hear me?

august 26th, 1:27 am.

[parisdimi]

i wonder if i ever (really) made you happy, or if i was just convenient—just there. i wonder if i was the anchor you needed until it became too much, until the weight was unwanted, and you remembered how to live without me.

— yshro.

[inlovewithpsychos]

THINGS YOU GOOGLE BY THE TIME YOU TURN SEVENTEEN

Trending party songs / how to reconnect with old friends / low effort bedroom decoration / why is time moving so fast / how to do makeup / nihilism meaning / quick ways to get thin / signs of anxiety / ways to get clear skin in 3 days / why do I not feel like doing anything anymore / overnight fake curls / do sock curls last long / easiest methods to get a flat belly / signs of depression / why do I zone out so much / maladaptive day dreaming / signs of maladaptive day dreaming / how to do a cat-eye tutorial / signs of bisexuality / am I demisexual / am I asexual / difference between aromantic and asexual / how to dress to appear taller than you are / am I a gold or a silver person / why do I feel like dying suddenly / binge eating disorder / symptoms of depression in teenagers / what colour pallette am I / symptoms of anxiety disorder / what does sleep deprivation do to your body / signs of binge eating disorder / how to make yourself throw up / easiest ways to lose weight / cute hairstyles / bipolar disorder / signs you have bpd / symptoms of bipolar disorder in teenagers / how to be thin / easy exercises to be thin fast / symptoms of major depressive disorder / inability to write / inability to focus on anything / inability to climax / inability to hold a proper conversation / why does everything feel so hopeless / signs of anger issues / did Judas love Jesus / how to be normal / why does nostalgia hurt so much / can paracetamols cause an overdose / how many paracetamols does it take to cause an overdose / pharmacies near me / how many tablets of paracetamol can be bought at once / is a paracetamol overdose quick / things to do for your birthday / why do I not feel like celebrating my birthday / why is talking to people so fucking tiring / how much blood does one need to lose to die / cutting of which vein is fatal / meaning of cutting crosswise / meaning of life / was there ever a point to any of this at all

[an-elveinthesky]

Not a single wound on my soul has been inflicted by an enemy. Not a single dart pierced in my heart has been thrown by my nemesis. Not a single one.

—Akshita Singh

[nusaibaaaa]

we aren’t supposed to be self sufficient.

no, i’m not supposed to pick myself off the floor when i feel parts of me seep through the cracks of it, forever lost, as if merging with the ground. with loss, anguish, surrender. i’m not supposed to be able to talk myself through it like a second person, cannot be both hurt and healer, the dark and light. is it so sinful to want a lighter for this match? a cure for the disease? can i not want medicine as the sick without pretending to be both patient and apothecary? what if i am just that, a single, separate patient? a dependent? pathetic, symbiotic and needy. human?

how degrading it feels to be human.

[snehaunveils]

[tulipinthevalley]

runaway

I dreamed that I cut the cord, unweaved our basket, dropped the bridge, broke the tv, packed up and ran, but didn’t know where to go.

Did I look at your face as I left? What were you thinking? Was your brow creased? Did you beg me not to go? Were you horrified at me?

I sawed you off my hip, but I’m not sure my tools were sharp enough.