Here comes the annual Aubree is one of my best friends and we have such an odd friendship of “I’d likely do some life-saving act for you despite the distance because you’re so important to me (even if we only talk on occasion) because you’ve been there through most of my big life changing events in the past five years”
Aubree has been this influential symbolism of the ‘voice on your shoulder’ through the past five years. Her ‘voice’ might fade at times, but it always pops back up to give me feedback, and some comforting connection to remind me why we were such good friends in the first place.
She is honestly one of the most beautiful people I know. Her heart is probably the reflection of the moment the Grinch’s heart grows too big for the frame. No matter how much heartbreak she has to endure, she always manages to keep surviving. She is this battle warrior of beauty and brains and the type of person you write heart tensing songs about. She has seen me at my worst, and when I used to have a ‘best’ she was there for that too. We can stay quiet, just communicating through glanced at tweets, or Instagram, or Tumblr posts, with little interaction, and message each other out of the blue with a big life story, or update and pick right back up where we left off.
Even though she’s not dancing currently, she’s always been that type of a symbolism for me. I always associate her with that constant movement, and emotional response, and meaningful inspiration or bond that you can witness from watching someone pour their soul out on a dance floor - no matter the style. Aubree puts so much heart into things, and I’ve seen way too many people cast her aside for that. She is so profoundly important to me, and I put so much weight in hoping she achieves her dreams since she deserves them so much. I have never seen someone go through some of the life experiences she has and come out with the battle scars, only to keep trying for another chance. I have never seen someone be as symbolic to a lyrical connection as Aubree. Maybe that’s why she finds such deep song connections, because she is that symbolism herself. At least, that’s how I see her - this heartfelt, soulful ballad with bass boosting guitar riffs that pierce through your veins, and lyrics that scar your heart because they are just that raw, and melodies that dance around your entire being like a patronus. She is truly something magical, in my opinion.
Whether everything we’ve endured in the past five years is some test with a greater meaning of our purpose in life, or just experiences to check off that we’ve bounced back from, I have been likely the most raw version of myself around her. Even if we don’t email daily anymore, and I am paranoid of Skyping, and feel so guilty for it since it seems like a blatant act of avoidance, she still understands me better that I’ve had someone do in a long time - if ever. I have never felt apologetic or vulnerably uncomfortable around Aubree. She has always respected me, and shared her similarities to help me feel at ease that she’s not just exaggerating or projecting on me. Aubree is probably the only friend I can truly say I don’t let my BPD trick me into believing that they’re lying to me. Aubree is probably the only friend I don’t feel paranoid around, convinced that they will leave me for someone better.
Maybe that’s because we’ve both been through such soul crushing abandonments from people we trusted and loved, and maybe it’s because they happened at similar time frames, or that we just share so many connections on an emotional level? But I can never thank her enough and express that gratitude properly through my words, despite my English Major Degree and Creative Writing hobby.
Aubree is like a fairy light of sparkles and fire and haunting mist that you can never forget. Aubree is like the faint sounds that fill your ear through the leftover conch shells on a deserted beach. Aubree is like a record you can never tire of looping, with every since song on the album speaking to your soul in a way you never thought anyone else could understand or know about you. Aubree is like that nostalgic memory that maybe has frayed in your mind, but because it’s a core memory, it will always been influential to you no matter how the rest of your life changes and adapts.
Aubree is a mystical being in my perspective, who has traits of unexplainable gifts that some people overlook, missing out on the true powers she has to offer. Aubree is like Cabeswater to me, that always has a haunting remembrance of a magical aura, and soul capturing presence, and imprinting effect that a fair few experience, while the others can’t see the shimmering glamour hiding it’s true nature.
It is still my hope that this year brings her everlasting memories of a hopeful future, and a introduction of those fair few who can truly appreciate her worth, and not criticize or abandon her for it. It is my hope that she finds her own gifts inside of her soul, and use them to her advantage, becoming some reigning queen of self-confidence, and self-empowerment. It is my hope that she finds a path to her dreams, even if it’s a fork in the road where she has multiple options to choose from, and the ability to change her fate for a positive outcome if the previous options lead to a dead end. It is my hope that she is able to experience more glorious memories in the future, and find a stilling peace that she’s been searching for.
I love Aubree with all my heart, and wish her a stupendous birthday celebration today and hope this message suffices to explain at least a little bit of her importance to me as a kindred spirit. x
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Name: Sarah
Nicknames: little one, Birdie
Birthday: August 27
Gender: Female
Sexual Orientation: Demisexual Panromantic
Height: 4'11"
Favorite Color: Sunsets, burgundy, evergreen, dark colours
Time and Date of current moment: 2:15 p.m. January 7, 2015
Average hours of sleep: I honestly do not know.. It changes daily
Last thing I Googled: 'Magic Beyond Words movie'
One place that makes me happy: Dalton Academy
How many blankets I sleep under: 2
Lucky Number: Don't have one
First word that comes to mind: Tea
Current obsession: Rewatching old animes.
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Name: Sarah
Nickname: Birdie, Leigh calls me ‘Little One’
Birthday: August 27
Gender: Female
Sexuality: Demi-Pansexual
Height: 4’11”
Time zone: Eastern Standard
What time and date is it there:3:28 p.m., September 2
Average hours of sleep I get each night: It varies but around 6 if I’m lucky.
OTPs:
Brody Callum/Lynette Talbot (Leigh’s original characters)
Peter Pan/Wendy Darling,
Mirai/Ahkito (Kyoukai no Kanata),
Aria Montgomery/Ezra Fitz (Pretty Little Liars),
Erik/Christine (Phantom of the Opera)
Kurt Hummel/Blaine Anderson (Glee),
Nick Duval/Jeff Sterling (Glee/Dalton),
Rose/Ten (Doctor Who),
Todd Hendricks/Dwight Houston (Dalton),
Reed VanKamp/Shane Anderson (Dalton),
Julian Larson/Logan Wright (Dalton),
Jean Prouvaire/Courfeyrac (Les Mis),
Enjolras/Grantaire (Les Mis),
Bahorel/Feuilly (Les Mis),
and you know some dumb 5SOS ships that I like to pretend will canonically happen.
The last thing I Googled was: Avery 16282 labels
First word that comes to mind: Idiots
What I last said to a family member: Good luck (My Dad had to work at/ brother had to start school today and we carpooled)
One place that makes me happy and why: Concerts because it’s the closest thing I’ve ever felt to complete happiness and magic
How many blankets I sleep under: One, but that varies in the Winter
Favorite beverage: Coffee, tea
The last movie i watched in the cinema was: Labryinth
Three things I can’t live without: Music, Literature, Coffee
Something I plan on learning: How to write fancy coffee shop typography designs on a chalkboard wall/mirror
A piece of advice for all my followers: Don’t be afraid to talk to people and share your interests, even if it’s intimidating. You can make really great friendships, and even brighten someone’s day with little compliments you admire about their blog, etc. Spread the love around.
You have to listen to this song: “John Hughes” by As It Is. Or anything by them, tbh.
My blog(s): I have an RP account, and premature sideblog with a few cutie pies to chat to. But I may make another one in the future and not make everyone suffer through my multi-fandoms.
She and I have been friends for about four years now, which is actually mental when you think about the length of time, and copious experiences and memories we’ve shared. She was one of the people I actually logged into Skype to talk to, and I remember sitting on my porch skyping her on my iPod and sharing life stories and discussing fanfics and it just makes me smile because she’s been through so much and a huge part of my life. I’ve talked to her about everything, and no matter how distant we’ve been because of work/school/two different country time zones, she is always there for me.
We’ve both had our fair share of heartbreaks in that time, whether it’s friendships, relationships, or family drama, she’s someone I can always rely on to understand where I’m coming from, and not bullshit the truth. Sometimes we both run out of answers and solutions because our problems are so close to home, and/or similar, but the fact that she still replies and gives me updates on her own life, and some advice is so appreciated.
I have said it a bunch of times, but she ultimately deserves the world. She’s a genuine sweetheart, and so mature and wise for her age. I honestly have learned a great deal from her, despite me being older. I feel like she is the person I can come to with concerns, questions, and generally anything, and she has a great supply of advice and empathy to answer back with. We have been through so much together, as dark as our lives have been, but I don’t think I would really change it. I know there are experiences I look back on with sorrow, or regret, or triggered memories, but I have a fair few people that stuck with me through all of it, and Aubree is probably the number one person that has been that consistent.
I have had a lot of faded friendships, but she has stuck with me despite everything, and been a warrior through all of the hardships she’s faced. I know things aren’t perfect, and still sting but the fact that you’ve made it this far, and have gotten the chance to work in the most magical place, and grow as a person, and achieved your dream of going to Valencia, and now are branching out with your English interests, and such, is huge. I remember us both talking in our bedrooms and having heart to hearts about our home lives and whether we’d ever escape that lifestyle, but we’re approaching that individuality in my opinion. Plus the fact that no matter how much we blamed ourselves for these stupid coincidences and experiences and ultimate bullshit we’ve gone through, we are still here to tell the tale. We didn’t want to be from time to time and even tried to escape completely, but we survived. We survived and we are still surviving and there have been some great memories to look back on because of that.
I sincerely hope today has been wonderful for you, and you’ve been appreciated by the lucky people who get to see your gorgeous face every day. (I still have hair envy by the way.) I really want this year to go a significant amount better than what you’ve recently been through – especially. I hope this new school does wonders for your social and personal life and you get to try new things, and meet new people, and finally feel happy and free and the beautiful self I see in you. Sometimes it’s very hard to remain happy by yourself, and not reflect on the hardships and loneliness, and mental illnesses, but you’ve come so far from that, even if it’s hard to see and admit. I really hope there is a spark of hope that ignites for you this year, and you get the chance to feel like you belong, and are loved by everyone the way you deserve to be. (Because you know if I could manipulate them all into seeing you the way you truly are, and not letting you go, I would.)
I love you so much. You’re one of my best friends – and I really don’t have many of those who stick around as long as you have. I cannot thank you enough for being there for me through these past four years and growing along with me. You are absolutely stunning, and I am so glad we are friends. Happy birthday, Aubree. <3
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What’s your middle name?: My middle name is Elizabeth! Pretty victorian badass I think.
What’s your favorite video game?: This was hard because I like a lot of them, but I'm gonna say it's a tie between Bayonetta and Bioshock. Bayonetta for the content and Bioshock for the story/time period.
Did you/do you sleep with a security blanket/stuffed animal?: I sleep in a nest because I need to feel like I'm secure, and I also sleep with a black neck pillow that I cuddle with. I can't sleep unless I'm cuddling with something.
Morning or night person?: NIGHT OWL AW YEAH
What’s your favorite pair of shoes you own?: I have a huge shoe fetish so this is hard.... I'll just say the new oxford heels I got.
Do you cosplay?: Yes I do. Currently, I cosplay Dr. Newton Geiszler from Pacific Rim.
Are you allergic to anything?: NOPE
What’s your favorite singer/band?: Frank Sinatra
Do you like masculine, feminine, neutral people, all, or none of the above.: As far as friends go, anyone. Relationship wise, I like feminine types.
HI EVERYBODY. I miss you all! (I played Ezra a loooonngggg time ago here.) Hope you all are doing well. <3 :) Just stopped in to say hi and see what you all have been up to.
Aubree! Thank you for stopping by! This was sweet to see in the inbox. Everyone here is doing well, and I’m sure they’ll be happy to see that you stopped by! We hope that you’re doing well, also! Hopefully life is treating you well, outside of the rp world.
Hi guys! If you don't remember me, I used to play Ezra awhile ago. I just popped in to say hello and I hope everything is going well!
Aubree! Of course we remember you! For anyone who doesn’t know, Aubree played the infamous original character of Dalton Academy graduate Ezra Eckley (Cameron Mitchell FC) who was Harmony Pearce’s high school sweetheart.
Everything is going swimmingly, dear, and I hope everything is going awesomely for you as well! Please stop by at anytime to give us loving and let us know how you are. I know everyone misses you dearly. Much much love, Bree numero dos.
