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Private Journal: Entry 2

How exactly does one prepare to have gay sex for the first time?

It's crazy. I'm terrified. I'm going to let him down, I know it. He's so amazing. Last night when we finally kissed for real for the first time off stage... wow. It just... It absolutely blew my mind. And then he said "I'm gay, Dallon. I blame you." "Wait... you what? Why me?" I asked him. He said "You made me realize..." And of course I had an idea of what he was saying, but I had to be sure.

So I just asked him. "Do you... like me?" And his reply couldn't have been more clear and non-delayed. "Yes. Yeah I do."

I couldn't believe it. I felt my heart skip out of my chest and run into his. He holds it for me now. It's his. Completely.

Now I feel... nervous. How exactly do you go from having sex with women your whole life to falling in love with a man and finding out he has feelings for you too... to him whispering those deadly words in your ear "I want you, Dallon."

Shit.

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What can I say? I like to push Brendon around stage with my head.

I know, I'm a freak.

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And if that Ryro rp who reserved Ryan thinks they're gonna get with Bden, ooohoo, they got another thing comin' lol.

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Journal Entry 1: Private

Not to mention, what would the fans think? Sure, there are plenty of them who like to see us kiss and grope each other on stage. They eat it up. But what if it were real? What would they think then? I know I shouldn't care, I really shouldn't... but I can't help it. I just really don't know what to do at this point. Fuck.

I love him.