I found out that i may be gay when i was 13, i was always looking at other girls in the changing rooms and wanted to know what they were like and i didnt know what that feeling was like untill i grew older, then just before 14, i liked a girl, well i thought i did and she pretended to be bi to have some fun and experiment, but she wasnt and i then realised that the feeling i was getting was because i liked girls, at the time i still liked guys aswell, but when i lost my virginity, which was to a guy and i regret it but then who doesnt ?, i started to not feel as attracted to them as i was girls, i always carried on going out with guys cuz it seemed the norm to me , i always liekd guys personalitys but over a piriod of time i became less attracted , it wasnt that i had bad expirences with guys , or that i just need to meet the right guy, its litrally they didnt turn me on, then it was at the age of about 16 nearly 17, i had my last boyfriend, by this time i had completly gone off the male organs shall we say ;), i decided i was only staying bi becasue i didnt want top commit because i thought i strill liked them in that way, but i actually didnt, i was always having sex with them for their happiness and not mine, so i finally turned gay, and over 2 years i now find dick vile! I have been gay for 2 years now and am perfectly happy. I get on with guys so much hence why most my best friends are guys, just because we all can talk about the same subjects and i have more in common , including xbox :) i have had enough girlfriends and experiences to know that i am fully gay now and theres no going back, but then nobody can predict the future can they, but im not attracted to men so therefore i will not be going back . :) Hence the tattoo ;)
I am so lucky to have understanding and open parents, that it didnt make a difference to them at all when i came out, in fact my dad loved it as i cant accidentally get pregnant ;) We sat there and spoke about how hot pink and other woman are for the rest of the evening as i haver never been able to agree with him when he says it about people on tv.
My mum found out the day i was going tell her anyway because i had left my myspace on , on the same day, and it had that i was bi on there, i came home from school and wanted to tell her and she said is it something thats on your myspace and i was like, yeah O.O haha, and she like all parents thought it was a phase , but still did not have a problem with it at all, she told me that probably all parents are worried their daughter is going to home home with a big scary tattooed bold butch girl and wisk me away, which for one im not into those sorts of girls so wasnt going to happen ;), but once she got used to the idea, nothing changed, she loves it and tells bloody everyone im gay ahah !
I told my dad im gay in the middle of my mum and dad getting a divorce, i know this seems like the worst time, but everyone was being truthful and i knew it would be shelterd by everything else going on so dad wouldnt think about it as much, but i was right, he didnt and he didnt care anyway, and my parents are back together now btw ;) :D, anyway, i just want to say that no matter what happends and when you come out, it gets better, parents will get over it, they have to they kind of dont have a choice, and theres life outside of school, but dont hide who you are, i didnt come out untill i left but only becasuse i was okay with hididng it for a bit because i was bullied in school as it was, but i wish someone could of told me theres life past school back then!
Life is amazing now and if you would like to talk to me about anything and i mean anything :) please let me know :)
