I woke up to a ridiculous text message from British Twat this morning. It was a long text, asking if he could call me because he got some "news" this morning that would make it necessary for him to take a permanent break from me (for the 6th time). He said wanted to get me a parting cash gift when he returned from Italy as a thank you for my time (he's leaving this evening, I think). I was worried that either he got a diagnosis or a family member did but, at 7AM in the morning, the "news" likely had to deal with his ex mistress. He's a drama queen and, although I knew the news wasn't serious, I was still worried.
Twat called me and told me that his mistress is suing him and he's filed a counter suit. I don't quite understand what sparked this but I have known that she's been looking for a reason to sue him again. He's been gossiping about her to her family. On her end, I think she may have been texting his wife or writing letters to her. I don't know what the details are but he's been poking at her and it was enough for her to threaten legal action so, that gave him the chance to counter-sue. He'd actually told me a while ago he's been waiting to sue her and finally "put her in her place". Shrug. I don't understand it all, really.
In any case, he's having second thoughts about carrying on with me (he's feeling guilty again) and he wants to play the "good husband/father/man" role (...again). He's always wanting to look like a good man and I wish he could just accept that the fact that he isn't any of those things. It's so childish. You're not a good man or husband. I can't say what he's like as a father.
We spoke about when/how he would bring me the cash gift. This is his second time "paying me off". I told him that the cash gift was fine but was genuinely worried about him relapsing once he saw me (I'm not worried about him relapsing - I'm just sick of his drama. I'd be okay with giving up the gift just to get away from all his drama). He said he couldn't do CashApp but it would mean splitting the transaction into 2 payments and he'd rather give cash. No problem. I doubt the amount comes to more than $600 to $800 anyway. He's cheap. But, I knew he was looking for validation that he was a "good man" when he asked me, "So, do you think I'm doing the right thing?"
"With what? Giving me a goodbye payment or the way you're dealing with the mistress?"
"I'm referring to the way I'm dealing with you."
"Oh, it's very sweet for you to give me a parting gift. I really appreciate it."
That was the best I could do. He was fishing for me to tell him he's a good man I wasn't about to say that. I don't like games and I hate this kind of weakness. If you're insecure in that area, just say it. Don't be a little boy about it. Men are such children.
Or, maybe I should have told him exactly what he wanted to hear. Maybe he'd have given me more money for soothing his ego... or maybe not.
Anyway, as usual, he found it necessary to drag me into his fucking drama. I appreciate that he just didn't want to disappear on me. That was considerate but it didn't need to be turned into a phone call. A short text was all that was needed and he can just send the money by mail or whatever. But, I do love the British Twat tea. It's always good.
And, of course, he's not actually going anywhere. He might take 1 month off from seeing me. His sex addiction is too strong. Honestly, him breaking up with me has nothing to do with his lawsuit. He's just gotten guilty again and he's going through another wave of guilt for cheating on his wife. I do think the lawsuit was the catalyst for this fake shit, though. The fact that he said he wants to remain "friends" tells me that he'll be back. He's such a fraud.
Okay. Time to go get ready for my last session with Butt Boy. This shit is fucking work. Butt Boy basically gets the girlfriend experience and I stick things inside his butt. I should be getting paid more.