#britt rants

[tom-is-bae]

I keep seeing stuff from Avengers:Infinity War and think it’s new footage from Avengers:Endgame? Only 11 more days and I’m so paranoid for spoilers

[bxcketbarnes]

So this is the song you wanna listen to when ya wanna dance. I’ve danced to this song in the shower and just in my room… fun time. Great song 😂👍🏼

[swiftmendeshoran]

I think I sprained my ankle. I was with my friend over the weekend and she walked so fast. when i was walking my ankle like rolled and i was ok but now it hurts. theres no bruising or anything but ughhh i really dont want to have to go to urgent care. I'm going to New York in two weeks too ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[my100hiraeth]

Just think about how even if Gina had survived the mountain explosion, if Bellamy had still gone on his Pike-based spiral, all the angst we could have had. Level headed, peacekeeper Gina watching her bf spiral like that. Them breaking up even. Him unable to stop his quest to blame and get vengeance on the grounders that almost killed her and did kill dozens of others, not to mention the still-stinging wound of the og mountain abandonment. Her hating that she has to watch him isolate himself from his friends and family and the way Pike manipulates his fear and anger at the grounders. Her still caring about Bellamy and trying to get through to him while everyone else just blames him and villainizes him. 

Her focusing more on Raven and their friendship, and Monty and his constant attempts to seek peace. Her befriending Lincoln because he too was a calm, collected person in a land of emotionally spiraling people. 

HER BEING A NORMAL, THOUGHTFUL, NON-EMOTIONAL-ROLLER-COASTER SPOT OF CALM IN SEASON 3. 

HER MATTERING MORE THAN JUST AS A WAY TO HURT BELLAMY TO FURTHER A PLOT LINE. 

[taniasamhradh]

I just wrote the most heartbreaking letter I’ve ever composed in my life.

You know who it was to? My AMAZING genderfluid, bisexual younger sibling who is absolutely PETRIFIED that they will LITERALLY BE UNABLE TO LEAVE THE HOUSE. MY 17-YEAR-OLD SIBLING, WHO WE TOOK OUT OF PUBLIC SCHOOL BECAUSE OF PHYSICALLY VIOLENT BULLYING AND HAD BEEN HEALING, IS AFRAID FOR THEIR LIFE. BECAUSE OF SOME ASSHOLE’S BIGOTRY. The reigning comments have been “I’m going to have to go into hiding, aren’t I?” and “I won’t be able to be myself. It’s not safe.” “I don’t want to die just because someone thinks I’m broken and they can fix me.”

Fuck that. We have LITERAL HUNDREDS of years of history working to make this country a SAFE PLACE for different opinions.

And you are so, so mistaken if you think that I won’t fight tooth and nail to protect my sibling and everyone else. Alright. Hamilton said it best. “Rise up”. If this is my cue to take up the mantle of civil disobedience like so many others in the country before me, so be it.

[taniasamhradh]

I don’t know why I’m writing this, honestly. I think I needed a place to vent where I know he wouldn’t see it. Or my family. 

I’ve been trying. Really, really trying. I want to be okay. I want to not have to deal with any of this. I don’t want to burden anyone or worry people. But that’s all I seem to do.

I don’t really have friends anymore. Maybe one or two. Everyone seems to be leaving or ignoring me lately. Not that I can blame them, I’m fucking buckets of crazy.

The bipolar is kicking my ass. The hallucinations won’t go away and they’re getting more angry/violent and harder to ignore; I’m losing my sense of reality sometimes. I’ve been so stressed out at work (what the fuck is wrong with me, I hardly work 25 hours) that I’ve been neglecting the cleaning I should have been doing either while he sleeps or when he leaves for work/I get back from work. I know the mess of the kitchen isn’t helping things. I know that I need to get a straight answer from my insurance company (aka make the phone calls again) and get set up with a psychiatrist. I know he isn’t mad at me (logically), just stressed out from all the different things going on, but jesus fuck that doesn’t make me FEEL better. And his thing about go find a park or call a friend or do something low stress or enjoyable is so fucking ridiculous. I DON’T enjoy ANYTHING that’s the goddamn PROBLEM. And I’m not about to throw my piece-of-shit inability to cope on the few people who I haven’t alienated or haven’t left me.

I just want to stop. I feel like the only reason I’m even here right now is because I’m a piece of shit people-pleaser and I don’t want to be MORE of a bother to people. He made me swear once that I wouldn’t hurt myself or end things. My mom has said for years “don’t be so self-centered; do you know how much that would fuck things up for the rest of us?”. So that’s why I haven’t done it. Been ignoring what the voices say. But it’s getting harder. And I know, “it’s all in your head”. But sometimes it’s hard to tell. And sometimes it’s just exhausting.

[glassical-wearing-supernaturals]

SUBNETTING IS FOR THE BIRDS

[onecurious-b]

you know im fine with someone rejecting me I mean it sucks and yeah but what i cant stand is when ppl just flat out ignore you like you didn't exchange spit or anything at all like wtf. at least be upfront and say yo it ain't working. ooh!