#broken writing

[initforthecache]

I am normal about a stupid children's show mood board:

[messsywriter]

I hope she makes you happy.

I hope she’s the one.

I hope she loves you the way I did. The way you deserve.

I hope she never makes you feel the way you made me feel Like I was not worth it.

I hope she never breaks your heart like you broke mine.

I hope, I really hope she’s everything I was not.

-I. A.

[messsywriter]

It’s been a while since you’ve been gone.

It’s been a while since you left home.

It’s been a while since you decided I wasn’t enough.

It’s been a while since you ended our story.

It’s been a while since it hasn’t been a story at all.

It’s been a while since I realized I didn’t need you.

It’s been a while since I have finally felt alright.

It’s been a while, but sometimes I wish it wasn’t a while.

I. A.

[messsywriter]

I expect so much from someone who doesn’t care.

I. A.

[messsywriter]

How foolish of me, I believed every single of your words, every sentence you once told me. I believed in you. Now you’re far away, and I’m in an empty house waiting for someone who won’t come.

I. A.

[messsywriter]

You think I’m the devil in this story, but let me tell you one thing. You have no idea how much I have been through. How much I’ve cried. How much I’ve cared. How broken I am. You can’t come here and tell me I’m the worst, because maybe I am, but I didn’t chose to be this way. Life has put me through hell and back to be who I am.

I. A.

[messsywriter]

At some point you will have to let someone in, and that, my love, will be the hardest thing you‘ll ever do.

I. A.

[messsywriter]

Write. Write until you run out of ink and your fingers bleed. Write until your heart is out of words to say and feelings to express.

I. A.