#brokenbutterflies

[assassinsdressedinblack]

Whoa. Three people just followed me in 2 minutes.

Y'all are hella fly <3 ;3

[johngreenhasthetardis]

Who i am....

My original tumblr was i-will-always-be-a-wallflower, i felt like that name didn't fit who i was so i became http://brokenbutterfliesandlostdreams.tumblr.com/ . That blog is the blog i am ashamed of but it's a part of me a part of my life that will never go away. But i need a new place a where i'm not reminded of the downs of my life, i need a tumblr where i can post my writing and interact with people and not be scared of what they think of me. Yes i still think like that a lot but the only way to get on the path to recovery is to actively want to recovery, i don't know if i want to right now but i hope sometime in the future i will want to. I want to get away from any impressions that people have of, to start of new, but i can't just delete brokenbutterflies, that is as much a part of me as my disorders are, it was there during my darkest point, it helped me through the worst situation, it made me closer to people and it helped me find a second family. both will be active just this one will hopefully be more active. my ask box will be open always if you ever need someone to talk to or if you just want to chat

[brokenbutterfliesflynomore]

My FAVORITE song atm.... have a listen.

[beynd-obsessed]

Broken Butterflies - New fanfic

Ameli's pov

Love is what drives us. It's our hope and happiness. Our sadness and fear. Our anger and annoyance. Love is what makes us human. The moment a mother looks at her child for the first time. When your dad tells you the boy is no good. When a sister is overprotective, trying to don't let you make the same mistakes as her. A brother who will annoy you and tease you, does it out of love. When you fall in love with someone and can't stop thinking about that person. When you hate that person after a fight. And when you love someone so much it hurts? Then you know it's real love.

Let me introduce myself. My name is Ameli Delilah Dawson. I am 16 years old and live with my mum and sister in London. I have short red/brown hair and eyes that change color. I know.. Weird huh? One moment they're brown the other blue! I am around 5'9 and have an average figure. To say I'm happy with it is a bit optimistic. But I'll cope with it. I have olive-colored skin, my dad is from Indonesia and have this weird little mole on my temple. I love reading and writing. Singing and dancing. But most of all I like food.

I typed in the weird introduction form and an example of my writing and clicked send. I sighed in relief. I did it. I replied for the best school in London.... I did it.. Oh my god no! I did it! What if they don't accept me?! What then.. I have no other schools in mind. Shit! I leaned back against the headboard and closed my eyes. You're such a stupid pig Aimes! 

"Ameli! Hurry up! Mum is going to kill us if we won't be on time!" My sister Ines yelled from down the stairs.

"You're going to kill me if we're not on time, not mum!" I yelled back as I jumped out of bed and shot into my jeans and shirt. Pulling on some converse and putting my hair up in a messy bun I grabbed my phone and ran down the stairs. 

"Finally!" She scoffed as she walked outside and got into her car. 

I opened the car door and sat down in the passenger's seat and turned the radio on as she pulled out of the driveway. 

"We're actually meeting him.." She whispered as she started at the road ahead of us.

"Okay, one thing! Focus on the road! I don't want to die yet.." I muttered and giggled. 

"But just.. We're meeting him." She sighed.

"We met him before.. Or you at least." I said. 

"You did too. You were just too little to remember." Ines explained.

"But why are you freaking out if you met the guy before?" I wondered.

"Well.. He has changed. He's very charming now and what not. Last time I saw him we were nine. Now we're nineteen." She said. 

"Fair enough." I sighed as I leaned my head against the window. 

"Maybe he'll hook you up with Harry!" Ines giggled. 

"No thanks.." I muttered as I watched our hometown turn into a highway. 

Ines sighed and turned up the volume on the radio. Humming along and squealing when she heard a One Direction song as I drifted off into a restless sleep. 

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Three hours later and she woke me up. As I opened my eyes and looked around I saw my mum standing next to the car with Maura. I smiled. I loved Maura, she's like a second mum! Ines was already bouncing out of the car and greeting Maura with a big hug. 

I groaned as I felt a headache coming up and stepped out of the car into the chilly autumn air. I looked at the apartment complex and cringed. It looked like a haunted mansion! I closed the door and walked over to mum and Maura giving them both a big hug. 

"How are you girls doing?" She smiled as her accent made me giggle. 

"Good! We're doing good." Ines answered for the both of us. 

"He's so excited to finally see you two again! I have been rambling on about you girls!" Maura laughed as we followed her into the building. 

"We're very excited to see him too!" Ines said happily as I looked around the old creepy building. 

"Aimes probably can't remember.. You were two and a half when you last saw Niall!" Maura said. 

"Yeah.. I can't remember a thing! The only thing I remember is the big lake close to the house.." I muttered. 

Mum smiled, "Oh yes.. The lake. How much time did we spend there Maura?" She laughed. 

"Way too much!" Maura answered as we climbed the stairs. 

As we reached the floor and walked through the creaky corridor a door opened at the end and Niall stepped out. 

"Hello!" He smiled brightly as his laugh filled the corridor.