I can motivate you with my words Inspired you with my stories Comfort you in your breakdowns Lift you when you feel so down Make you laugh when tears stream down your face Give you light amidst your darkest And encourage you to keep moving. I will make you become well when you feel unwell, I can take care of you when you couldn’t care less of yourself. I can make you smile and convince you that things will be fine Every time I helped someone get up from their worst I forgot my worst cuts and how miserable I am I can’t explain the feeling of beyond bliss when I made someone overcome their dark phase I forgot that I’m drowned in this horrible place And now I stared at this shadow in this room Eyes wide open felt something cold fell Overflowing thoughts kept flashing infinitely Gripped into this cloth for strength and grope comfort from it Where are those words going? Where are those thoughts that should be popping up to calm me now? Why I can’t heal my own? Why I couldn’t convince myself to calm down I’m confused about what to do when in fact I’m good at fixing other’s confusion Everything went blank and my mind shut I can’t even calm the storm inside me, Why I cannot use those words and comforts in myself, Perhaps, I just meant to fix others but not myself, I can mend their broken pieces yet cannot pick even a piece of myself. Someway, seeing you doing all fine, made me fine for the time being.
