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Chapitre I

“I fear that you’ve journeyed far ahead, While I’m still anchored by threads of dread.”

I laugh in bitterness, a mask I wear,

For chaos stirs, and cowards leave me bare.

I buried my scars, cast doubts aside, Hoping this time love would abide. I tore down walls, let my guard descend, Risked the fall, dared to mend.

Yet fears of history whispered near, Their echoes laced with doubt and fear. With trembling heart, I let you see, The raw, soft core of vulnerable me.

Our spark burned vivid, a fervent flame, A harmony woven without a name. A fleeting moment that had no name. Your mind, your depth, a masterpiece, A fascination that would never cease.

Through midnight talks, we built a rhyme, Of shared truths and differences sublime. You spoke of futures, hopes so vast, Each syllable echoing promises cast.

But as I opened, you turned away, With fleeting words that left me gray. Your mind adrift, your heart unsure, While I stand raw, aching, pure.

What sways your thoughts, makes feelings regress?

Does knowing me more mean liking me less? The more I know you, the harder you seem to pull away.

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Chapitre II

This sorrowful, soft melody grows ever lonelier.

Now, as I listen alone, the memory of you clings to me.

The song we once exchanged, now only echoes in silence.

The first time it played, I felt butterflies in my stomach.

Now, the butterflies have died in my heart.

Music, both a balm and a blade,

When joy fills my heart, I find comfort in the melodies.

But when shadows fall, the lyrics pierce like daggers.

This is the painful torment I find pleasure in,

For it keeps your memory from fading.

There were songs I dedicated to you, bold and raw,

But I embraced them, for they spoke the truth of my heart.

A grin twisted with bitterness,

 As I taste my own blood from the wounds I’ve opened.

Still, I confess, I long to hear this song again and again,

To feel your voice in the words,

Believing that these melodies could bind us once more.

Darling, if you don’t know how to return, Just send me a song.

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Hello, newbie here but I have many writings (poems) kept in my notes that I will share here, hope you read them :)

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Whelve

Some words don’t need to utter Some thoughts better unsaid either For our hearts might shatter We better keep the secret forever Kill the feelings while it doesn’t grow any further And cherish the moment that we had each other.

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Euphoria

Your words give a thrill to my body; Your comfort made me lose my sanity. Heart with burden now light as a feather; Can’t stop my lips grinning; Just the thought of your name; Never thought anything could be better; Your presence is the only thing that matters. -2.5.21-

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“Anagapesis”

I'm afraid, everything seems to fade What if I never liked you? What if I never loved you? What if all this time I’m just making myself believed Forcing my mind to think it’s affection Now I can’t feel any weird reaction Thinking your face, smiles, and memories I have no inhibitions Have I gotten rid of my obsession?

02-18-21

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Giving Up

You didn’t come now my hope is over Things may be unclear as fog But like the blue sky, this emotion sparks when hit by the rays of the sun Keeping an eye from afar Like those stars that stared with a hopeful glance Talking to you but you never answer But you my star and star don’t talk instead they shine even lighter when loved and stared You’re my right among wrongs I would accept a slap from sin Cause I don’t see you as my mistake Though even the world stands between us I would reach you ‘till I got you in my arms But… You keep on walking from those thorny paths Step by step it tears me apart I could see you too close but when I extended my hand to you You suddenly space afar I’m always chasing after your back Yet you’re chasing another’s back I ran miles and crossed doubts But like wind it’s unseen It’s all gone, I mean I have to make this done Too heavy that I can’t walk after you I can no longer make myself believe with my false hope You are into another star. And I can’t love that star, I hate those that don’t give so much shine. It can’t light up my dark world

02-2021

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Eccedentesiast

She’s good at it Showing everything is fine Lug the sweetest smile Smile that squeal with affliction Yet it’ll be invisible if u don’t see how petrified her soul is Behind that delightful smile is her appalling story. -2.5.21

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A night to remember

I don’t know how to explain this Is this what I’m longing for? Just can’t believe that for how many years I thought of it then finally it is here God knows how I want this night to be longer than it should be I actually can’t sleep because I’m afraid that morning will come quickly I just want to cherish this night Remember this night that I dreamt of sleeping next to you then finally here we are sleeping in the same room This is just felt so great At least before I totally forget I have the memories and the dream come true happened in my life Though we are meters away from each other, badly want to sleep right next to you To hug you from the back sounds silly it might be I know that we're not really meant for each other and that we are meant to be what we have right now This is forbidden I know I’ve been fighting against my heart But why does every time I look into your eyes I can see something We barely stare at each other because we can’t help but to laugh We don't know why we laugh but I know you feel it too. There are glimmers in your eyes that somehow gave me hopes

I wish that I was not blinded by my emotions and that the sparks I see and feel every time our gazes meet are real

But how long will I hold onto this hope?

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Your One Call Away

I waited for you to call me I would cross miles to reach you If you just say so, I will come to. You have my back when you need me, If you don’t, I’m still there looking after you, I can be your shoulders to cry on, My arms are open where you can lean on, You have my words when you’re confused, You have me when you need company, I can give you a hand anytime, I can save you amidst your battles, I can accept you even at your worst, I can shed your light in your darkest, I can bring you to the path of everlasting happiness, A lifetime of joy where faith and trust is your map, Come with me, together we’ll knock on the door of eternal life and call Him, There, we’ll no longer suffer wounds of pain, scars of sadness He will heal

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WHAT IF?

What if I told you? Could it be better? Will it turn everything bitter? What if I’ve been brave? Would it be enough to win you? Will I endure the sting of losing the fight for you? What if everything is just an illusion? Will you clear up my confusion? What if you will only puzzle my emotions?

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Undeniably Hurt

No matter how I denied Even I pretend that it’s someone else My entire being yearns for you I keep on aiming your attention I thought showing you I’m after anybody Would make things easier for me That it’ll get you envious and annoyed But whom I’m fooling? it’s only me after all In the end, I'm the one who feels remorse and pain. The green-eyed monster root of my lonely skies

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I can motivate you with my words Inspired you with my stories Comfort you in your breakdowns Lift you when you feel so down Make you laugh when tears stream down your face Give you light amidst your darkest And encourage you to keep moving. I will make you become well when you feel unwell, I can take care of you when you couldn’t care less of yourself. I can make you smile and convince you that things will be fine Every time I helped someone get up from their worst I forgot my worst cuts and how miserable I am I can’t explain the feeling of beyond bliss when I made someone overcome their dark phase I forgot that I’m drowned in this horrible place And now I stared at this shadow in this room Eyes wide open felt something cold fell Overflowing thoughts kept flashing infinitely Gripped into this cloth for strength and grope comfort from it Where are those words going? Where are those thoughts that should be popping up to calm me now? Why I can’t heal my own? Why I couldn’t convince myself to calm down I’m confused about what to do when in fact I’m good at fixing other’s confusion Everything went blank and my mind shut I can’t even calm the storm inside me, Why I cannot use those words and comforts in myself, Perhaps, I just meant to fix others but not myself, I can mend their broken pieces yet cannot pick even a piece of myself. Someway, seeing you doing all fine, made me fine for the time being.