I can't get over the way Eddie really struggles to talk about what happened to Mills here... It's too heartbreaking. 💔
I believe Eddie chose to call Mills out of the other three because, from what we've seen from his flashbacks, she seemed Iike the strongest of them all. She didn't seem effected by all the death and catastrophe around them. She could joke about it, push through the pain. Maybe she was the closest thing Eddie understands as "normal". Being unaffected by the all the package that comes with being in the middle of the battlefield.
So when he found out she of all people chose to kill herself... This is terrifying for him. If the strong, the positive, the "normal" one broke under the weight they all curry, then how will he make it?
All of this in the same day he witnessed a case of a woman trying to end her life for reasons Eddie can definitely identify himself with. I just know the possibility of him being Mills one day crossed his mind and I want to CRY.
