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Motivation

Matagal nato. Dapat nung January pa kasi nung January naman to nangyari. Post ko lang kasi memorable para sakin kahit ang babaw naman. lol. Naaalala ko pa yung feeling ko nun. Stress na stress, antok na antok. Yung ulo ko para nang sasabog dahil sa letseng (sorry) thesis na yun. 2:00 ata yun nang madaling araw. May deadline kami sa araw na yun na 3 chapters. Eh ang layo ko pa. Nakakafrustrate na. Nakaka-iyak. Hindi pa nakakatulong yung antok ko kasi 2 lingo na rin ako walang tulog. Tapos nagtext yung groupmate  ko na mag-open nang facebook kasi may sinend ata siya dun. Tapos tapos tapos.. wala lang. inantok ako lalo. hahaha. 

Tapos (lol) biglang nagpop yung facebook. I mean yung notification tone niya. Yung *POP* ba yun. haha. Eto yung lumabas na kinagising nang lamang lupa ko. Lahat nang brain cells ko nagising, yung heart ko tumibok nang sobra at talagang napatalon ako sa tuwa para tuloy akong timang kasi nahulog ako sa upuan ko. haha. Ano ba yun??? Eto yuuun.... 

As iiiiin tuwang tuwa ako. My Gosh! Favourite blogger ko yun eh. Kalevel lang niya yung crush ko kahit wala ako nun ngayon. haha. Yung heart ko para nang mamatay sa lakas ng pagbeat niya kasi iniisip ko na ano kayang picture yung nilike niya. Isa ba sa mga pp ko na parang timang yung pagmumukha o anooooo. Nagpanic pa talaga ako eh kasi yung internet ayaw magcooperate bigla bumagal. Nung na-open na tadaaaa...

Yun pala yun. Natawa ako sa pagka-assumera ko. Napahiya sa sarili. Hahahahahaha. Kasi naman, November pa yan, at di ko talaga ineexpect na mababasa niya yan. Dahil siguro sa “#israelmakeniko”? Wala naman talagang ibang explanation. Haha. Pero happyng happy pa rin ako. Sumakit yung cheeks ko kangingiti. Haha.

Babaw lang diba, pero big deal sakin. Kasiiiii di na ako nakatulog hangang 6:00 nang umaga. Hahaha. Bakit motivation ang title? Natapos ko talaga yung  3 chapters at nakagawa pa ako ng 1 chapter sa feasibility study ko. Amaze na amaze ako sa sarili ko. Di ko talaga alam pano nangyari yun. Basta yun na yun. Dahil lang sa isang LIKE! hahahahaha. Yuuun lang. Gusto ko lang talaga mablog bago pa mabura sa isip at alaala ko. :)) Yung feeling na down na down ako tapos biglang sumaya ng husto. Bihira lang mangyari sakin yun eh. Basta yuuun. XD

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OJT

It has been exactly 16 days since I've started my OJT in TPSP/OSG. And so far, I could say that I haven't really learned anything that would help my career growth nor it helped me to be prepare for the real world after I graduate. As each days passed, I started getting more anxious about my future. I'm becoming more worried on what my life would be after graduation. Being a part of this company doesn't really help me enlighten on what becoming an Industrial Engineer may feel. It doesn't provide the proper environment for me to learn as a future Industrial Engineer. I kinda regret applying here, unlike Van who was really enjoying his time in here, after all this is what he really wants. He is more inclined in IT part so of course he would want this. This company is really good for IT interns but definitely not for IEs. I mean, it's fun being in here, but I'm really just worried for my future. I never actually learned anything in school that I could apply on my future job. I've been looking for jobs online offered for Industrial Engineers to know what are the requirements, responsibilities and job ddescriptionsthat they would expect on an Industrial Engineer. And by just looking at the different job posts, it actually makes me more worried. There are many unfamiliar things, and it made me even more aware that I haven't really learned anything. I guess it's one of the perks of being part of the pioneers in our course in our school. They were like just experimenting on us. Our teachers were not even serious in teaching us. A simple solution of my worries would be to work in a job that is not really inclined to my course, a job that is easier for me to do. It solves everything, but, as in there's a big BUT, my parents, not really my biological parents but people who raised me, is expecting me to have a job that is really inclined with my course. They have this big expectation of me that I would become something big and I really really don't want to disappoint them. I have already disappointed them once, and I don't want to do it again. <sigh> I know my problem is really shallow, I even doubt if it's really a problem at all but it has been bugging me everyday. I always have this worries on me and I really don't like it. It's eating on me, and I don't want to live with having worries in my head. It's like my heart has some kind of a hole, and it really sucks I cannot really explain it and that's what makes it more frustrating. I really don't want and can't talk this to any of my friends or my family, because I feel like they all have this high expectations of me, like I could do everything, which I can't. And it sucks knowing I'm not even one-half of the person they thought I am.

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This is why I don't share my dilemmas with them. Lesson learned. It's better if I just keep it on my own and suffer alone than to listen to their insults. They dare judge when they don't even know what I felt these past few days. Oh wait, how would they know when they don't even bother to ask. Sigh. Well, there's nothing I could do about it. I'm used to it. Just need to immune myself with the pain every damn time. Should never share my problems with them again. Never. I don't have the right to complain after all.

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Yolanda 1.0

Signal number 1 na kami pero hangang ngayon wala pang ulan samin. Hindi naman sa gusto kong umulan na no, pero kasi yung ibang lugar malapit samin malakas na daw ang ulan kanina. Pati kabilang barangay pero samin wala talaga. Ambon lang tapos ang dali pa natapos. Pero  kahit ang ganda ng panahon di pa rin daw dapat maging kompyansa. Kaya mga tao samin nagpapanic buying. Halos ubos na lahat ng tinda na mga sardinas sa lahat ng tindahan. Bakit sardinas? Siguro feel lang nila? haha. Pero seryoso, obvious naman siguro kung bakit. Mga kahoy naman dito pinuputol na. Yung ibang tao nag-eevacuate na rin. Pero kahit ngayon, wala pa ring ulan ni hangin. Para nga walang isang Super Typhoon na dadaan eh. Kaya heto kami, nganga. Naghihintay kung kailan darating si Yolanda at dasal dasal na lang na sana di naman liparin bahay namin kung dadaan na talaga si Yolanda. May GOD help and bless us.

(ipapublish ko na sana, bigla ba naman bumuhos ang malakas na ulan. Langya. Bale, walang kwenta na tong post nato pero ipopost ko parin. hahaha)

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Ako, papa at momy: (nanunuod ng tv. Biglang pinalabas bagong commercial ng McDo.) Ako: ( na-iiyak kasi natouch) Papa at momy: (ginaya yung kuya tapos tawa ng tawa)

Seryoso. Di ko alam kung sino mas mature saming 3. =_=

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First week of class: No class at all

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First day of class daw, eh wala namang klaseng naganap. Saklap. Sayang ang effort sa pagpasok. Haha.

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When I become talkative, it only means three things:

i’m comfortable with the person I’m talking to.

i’m happy

i did something wrong