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cjh. abditory [a/f/s]

(n.) a place into which you can disappear; a hiding place

for the sake of difference, dialogue will be italicized and a flashback will be bolded and italicized. thank you <3

so when did you make the decision

a few months ago

then why tell me now. i don’t really know how exactly to feel right now, but i’m sure it would’ve been a lot less hurtful if i knew that you were going to leave me a few months ago

he was leaving. without any explanation. you sat at the dining table in your apartment across from each other, both of you too afraid to look at the other in the eyes in fear of breaking down. 

you remember the way he always cupped your face in his hands, holding it like it was the most delicate creation in all of mankind. he loved your eyes and you loved his. who needed a telescope when you could see the galaxy swirling in each others’ eyes?

i’m sorry. i just don’t feel like this place is for me anymore, but i don’t want you to think that any of this is your fault. i don’t want to rip you away from your job and school. i want this to be as painless as possible by saving you from more pain

how much more pain could you possibly save me from, you smiled at him bitterly, you think that this is going to make things better? what if i want to leave with you? what if i was willing to go as far away as you wanted to go? huh?

because you have too much going for you here. i have nothing

he was always the first to encourage you in every situation. he reminded you all the time that even if you wanted to give up, he would still be there for you. of course, he didn’t want you to give up, but you two believed that if you had each other, there was nothing more to want.

is that what i am then? nothing? 

no-

jongho stop. i don’t want to hear it. do you hear how selfish you sound? i love you. you leaving isn’t going to change that. but you know what it is going to do? hurt me. so badly. do you even love me? is that why you’re leaving?

what? no, oh my gosh, the chair scrapes the wooden floor with a sharp sound as he stands up running his fingers through his hair, of course i love you. i’ve always been in love with you. that’s why i’m doing this. because you deserve someone better. someone who won’t just get up and leave because they want to. i don’t have any other reason, i just want to leave

you’re voice raises as you become frustrated. you look at him, eyes wild and desperate as they beg him to stay.

can’t you see? i don’t want anyone else jongho. i want you

whenever your head was in his lap he always played with your hair. no matter what he was doing he always gave you head massages and head rubs while you laid down. he would make you laugh by pretending your hair was a mustache.

you start to get up from your seat when he sits back down and goes to hold your hand.

if it’s meant to be, maybe we’ll find each other again someday. but i can’t drag you into my problems. this is something i have to do on my own. but it doesn’t mean i won’t think of you every single day, his eyes become glassy, i hate myself for doing this to you. i wish i’d never been the one to hurt you. you deserve so much more than what i can give

all you could do was watch the boy cry as he held your hand. were you numb? angry? sad? you couldn’t tell. you only realized you were crying when you heard the soft plop of your tears hit the table. 

the first time you two kissed felt like a burning fire. passionate. intense. sparks flew like fireworks as your lips crashed together. he pulled you into him closer by your waist as your hands clutched the back of his neck drawing him in closer to you. you felt his lips trail lower down your neck - his kisses becoming flames making you hotter by the second. 

you heard the sniffling stop as he began to take off his leather jacket. the one you bought him when you found out he had a motorcycle. you convinced him that the “bad boy” aesthetic wasn’t complete without one. he left it on the table as he rose from his seat and headed to the door.

one hand on the door knob with his eyes trained on you. you couldn’t watch him go. you’d rather go blind than watch him leave you. 

i love you. maybe someday i’ll take you on a motorcycle ride again, he looks at you studying your face one last time before he nods and walks out the door

everything was speeding past you. you weren’t sure what time it was but it was late enough that the building lights were on. you zoomed past shop after shop until you reached the beach. he helped you off and walked with you hand in hand till you could see the city from the sand. it was his hiding place, where he went to get away from life for a bit. jongho smiled sadly to himself knowing that this would be the last time he would visit it, but at least he got to visit it with you

A/N: love me some angst, also congrats ateez for winning their first bonsang!!! 

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jasper u say caesar and i come running that my forever husband!! isn’t he just the best he such a flirt but we all know he’s need some legit love and deep companionship ;3;

-columba

Caesar is one of my faves afskdjlfksd He really is a forever husband <3 I like to think that despite Caesar’s flirty nature, that he really does crave having a steady partner. Based on his past trauma, he probably struggles a lot with the concept of stability because he’s never really had a stable... well, anything. Being close with Jojo and Lisa Lisa is the closest thing he’s had to stability, I’ll say that. And most of the women he romances don’t really have the emotional depth he’s looking for, so when he meets you, it’s a game-changer. He is one of those partners that continues to flirt with you and “woo” you months or even years into the relationship. He really tries to keep things fresh, whether it’s taking you on vacation to a far corner of Italy or trying something exciting in the bedroom. He’s always very eager to please in that department~ Caesar is such a selfless lover, it’s not even funny.  

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Doodles from Twitter - Mona and Plague Knight explore how possible it is to drink water while jerking off. (Their beaks bring added difficulty.)

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