I have hope. I hope for a longer tomorrow. I hope to see many more years to come. God only gives us what He knows we can handle. There are times I think this is going to break me. I'm going to crack & no amount of hope, love or caring will be able to piece me back together. #withGodallthingsarepossible and I truly believe this. Sometimes I just wonder. I thought the worse was behind me. That I left #stage2colorectalcancer in the dust on Nov 9, 2017 after a 12 hour surgery that should have only been 5 hours long. One of my arteries was cut in the first 10 minutes of surgery requiring 5 transfusions during surgery & then being placed in a medical induced coma for a week & 4 more transfusions. Then 2 months in hospital, 8 months of chemo & a years recovery. I was in remission. Tuesday I found out I'm no longer in remission. #byebyeremission My colorectal cancer METS to my adrenal gland. That wouldn't be so bad if I had both my adrenal glands. At 18 my right kidney & adrenal were removed due to being nonfunctional & poisoning my body. Now I'm heading for major tests. The 29th I see Dr. Chicawalla my GI doc for my Endoscopy. Thank goodness for knockout drops. I really don't want to hear what they have to say during my scope. Then on the 30th I have my MRI. Yea! I hate small spaces. I will be taking my eyemask. After my GI, oncologist & surgical oncologist have viewed my scans & had their pow wow I will be seeing them. I'm hoping for the best outcome & prepared for the worse case senario. #lifeistoughbutsoami👊💪😏 #stage2colorectalcancer #softtissuesarcoma #stomalife #faplife #byebyeremission #chronicallybadasscancerfighter #cancerpickedthewrongbitchtomesswith #fightthegoodfight #eachdayisablessing #eveninthedarknessthereislight #nevergiveup #neversurrender #noonefightsalone #nocolonstillrolling #endallcancers #togetherwecandothis #keepsmiling #keepfighting #youcandoit #Nccancerfighter #stillkickingcancersbuttsmiling #ostomylifenotfortheweak #ostomateforlife #ostomysisters #hollisterostomybags #ileostomy #ileoforlife #Endoscopy #MRI #scanxiety. #scanxietyisreal #chronicallytired #chronicpainsucks #chronicallyill #spoonielife #spooniesisterhood #barbiebuttprincess (at Shnaeda’s Bar & Grill) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1Vbuo0nDgz/?igshid=1xmhdsdl304x8
